After Gerard had left or more me forcing him to leave I ran back upstairs and locked myself into my bathroom. I took out another razor blade for shaving and hit it against the sink until the plastic part holding the actual blades broke.

I removed all five of the blades and turned on the shower. I removed all my clothes and the dressing on my cuts from earlier. I stepped into the shower and sat down. I had one of those bath and shower ones so I sat in the tub while the water hit my back.

I picked up on of the five pieces of metal and dragged it across my left hip. I kept cutting until I had a steady steam of blood trickling down my skin.

As as I was moving so that I could cut the other hip I accidentally dropped the blade I was using down the drain. I quickly reached for one of the other four and brought it to my right hip.

I knew new my mom wouldn't be home for at least 4 more hours and I knew Alex would be upset but other than that I saw no other reasons not to just end it right now.

I pushed down as hard as I could with the blade and hissed at the pain as I dragged it down my hip making an extremely deep cut that if I wasn't trying to die would need stitches immediately.

Something I wasn't expecting happened though. I heard banging on the bathroom door and I thought I could hear someone yelling. The voice sounded familiar but I couldn't place it. Then everything went black.

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i woke up to the sounds of two people fighting. I opened my eyes and saw mikey way and my mom yelling at each other

"what the fuck happened!" My mom yelled at mikey who was extremely pale and looked like he had been crying.

"I-I don't know I came over to see why he wasn't in school a-and he didn't answer me when I knocked so I ran upstairs and found him like this!"

My mom turned to look at me and realized that I was awake. She instantly bent down and hugged me. "Frankie why?" She asked. "Why? I'm trying so hard to make you feel better and I can't make anything better if you don't tell me what's wrong so Frankie why did you do this!?" she asked hugging me and I could feel her tears soaking into my shirt.

Shirt. Clothes. I looked around and noticed I was back in my room and that my hips were all taped up and that I was wearing a T-shirt and sweat pants.

Im guessing my mom stitched up my deep cuts since she's a nurse and knows how much I hate hospitals. We literally have a whole closet full of medical supplies just so that we'd have everything we'd need and it'd be rare that I'd have to go to the hospital.

"Michael I think you should leave now." My mom said giving him a sad look. He nodded and was about to leave but I called out his name stopping him.
he turned towards me. "Y-yea?"

"you can't tell gerard."

"but"

"mikey please listen to me. You can't tell gerard anything please!" I begged ready to cry.

He saw my face and gave a weak nod. "Ok I won't tell him." And with that he left.