Love and Other Stupid Things
That If You Say, Goodbye Today...
Gerard’s POV
I fell asleep with the most perfect human being in my hands. A few hours later, I came back to reality.The remnants of my dream playing over and over in my head. A person standing on a parade float wearing a marching band uniform but it was black. I couldn’t make out the other people standing behind him. He had bleached blonde almost white hair. The person looked strangely like me. If the boy’s hair was black and not blonde then it would be me. A person lying on a hospital bed. Was it snowing? It started not making sense anymore. The dream slowly started to slip away as my stupid alarm clock went off. As I was reaching over to turn it off, an arm came and hit me in the face.
“Ow! Goddamn!”I brought my hand to my nose and squinted my eyes as they watered. Frank sat up next to me in bed.
“Crap I’m sorry! I forgot where I was for a second,” He apologized profusely. I just groaned and flopped back down onto the bed.
“So you normally attack your alarm clock in the morning?” I said jokingly. It didn’t hurt that bad. He just chuckled and leaned over on top of me and kissed my nose.
“Better?” He said.
“Much,” I got up and stretched my back like a cat as I went to pick out my wardrobe for today.I flung some clothes at Frank seeing as he didn’t have anything to wear. I found some gray pants in the back of my closet that I had gotten too tall for along with a t shirt. Perfect for Frankie. We both got changed, drank some coffee, and left for school. The day went along like normal. It wasn’t too bad. A little name calling, boring classes, and lunch- that I never ate. At the end of the day, Frank said that he had to go home and would call me later. I was disappointed but after I got home I drew for a long time and I felt better. Eventually, Frank texted me.
--Gee, I have something I need to tell you :(
-- What is it Frankie? What’s wrong?
--Can I come over?
--Of course, I’ll be waiting :)
I sat the phone down on my bed and waited patiently, while worrying about Frank. The day had gone very slow and lazy and it felt like eternity until I finally heard the soft knock on my bedroom door. I hastily got out of bed and opened it, and saw Frank standing there with his arms crossed over his small chest, his eyes red and puffy. I pulled him into a hug and over to my bed. I guess that’s all it took for him to break.
He started sobbing, clutching onto my shirt, undistinguishable words pouring from his mouth. I had never seen Frank act like this. Ever. He was always so happy and strong and there for everybody when they needed him, and now it was weird seeing the situation in reverse.
“Shhh, shhh. It’s gonna be okay Frankie. Tell me what’s wrong. I’ll help,” I soothed him. He stood up from the bed, still hiccupping sobs, and went to get tissue. After he wiped the tears from his eyes that wouldn’t stop falling, he collapsed back onto the bed and on me, laying his head in my lap. I began to stroke his hair softly. After a while he began to talk.
“We have to move Gerard. My mom is making me. The guy she brought home, it turns out she’s been seeing him for a while. His job is moving him to Florida and she wants us to move with him so the can get married.” He paused for a moment and steadied his breathing as all of this sunk in. My Frank was moving. Somewhere completely different than where he had been his whole life. “ I haven’t ever even met him before, Gee. They want to get married! They’re uprooting my whole life. My mom said she wants me to start over in a place where I can be normal,” he said the word bitterly. I kept running my hand through his feathery hair, gazing at the wall. I felt Frank’s hand come up to my face and wipe away the tears that had fallen from my eyes without me noticing.
“Gee?” He asked me carefully. “Say something please.”
I opened my mouth, but no words came out. It was all normal earlier. We had a normal school day, Frank had been closer to me though and I enjoyed it, and suddenly… this. It was like the river that was my life, with all of the rocks and pebbles thrown in places but still with peaceful currents, had been stopped. By a huge dam-that was Frank moving.
“I… I wished that what we have could have happened sooner. I could have been with you longer instead of just two days,” I looked down at his beautiful face as I said this. “I love you Frank. And I should have told you earlier. I’ve known all along but I was just afraid.” He leaned up and kissed me. It was like no other kiss I had before. I didn’t even care that he didn’t say the three little words back because his actions were stronger than anything words could ever express. He kissed me deeply, and I threw every ounce of my heart into it, to let him know how much he meant to me. I know you may think that nothing like this could ever happen so fast but really, it wasn’t fast. It was painfully slow. I had known Frank for almost my whole life. Ever since the beginning of middle school. He was my friend. The next year, I liked him even more, in a different way and I realized I was gay. The next year, he became my lifelong best friend, and I never told him how I felt about him. I think that it really hit me this year. And when it hit me, it hit hard.
Finally, our kiss broke apart so that we could both breath.
“I love you too Gerard.”
I fell asleep with the most perfect human being in my hands. A few hours later, I came back to reality.The remnants of my dream playing over and over in my head. A person standing on a parade float wearing a marching band uniform but it was black. I couldn’t make out the other people standing behind him. He had bleached blonde almost white hair. The person looked strangely like me. If the boy’s hair was black and not blonde then it would be me. A person lying on a hospital bed. Was it snowing? It started not making sense anymore. The dream slowly started to slip away as my stupid alarm clock went off. As I was reaching over to turn it off, an arm came and hit me in the face.
“Ow! Goddamn!”I brought my hand to my nose and squinted my eyes as they watered. Frank sat up next to me in bed.
“Crap I’m sorry! I forgot where I was for a second,” He apologized profusely. I just groaned and flopped back down onto the bed.
“So you normally attack your alarm clock in the morning?” I said jokingly. It didn’t hurt that bad. He just chuckled and leaned over on top of me and kissed my nose.
“Better?” He said.
“Much,” I got up and stretched my back like a cat as I went to pick out my wardrobe for today.I flung some clothes at Frank seeing as he didn’t have anything to wear. I found some gray pants in the back of my closet that I had gotten too tall for along with a t shirt. Perfect for Frankie. We both got changed, drank some coffee, and left for school. The day went along like normal. It wasn’t too bad. A little name calling, boring classes, and lunch- that I never ate. At the end of the day, Frank said that he had to go home and would call me later. I was disappointed but after I got home I drew for a long time and I felt better. Eventually, Frank texted me.
--Gee, I have something I need to tell you :(
-- What is it Frankie? What’s wrong?
--Can I come over?
--Of course, I’ll be waiting :)
I sat the phone down on my bed and waited patiently, while worrying about Frank. The day had gone very slow and lazy and it felt like eternity until I finally heard the soft knock on my bedroom door. I hastily got out of bed and opened it, and saw Frank standing there with his arms crossed over his small chest, his eyes red and puffy. I pulled him into a hug and over to my bed. I guess that’s all it took for him to break.
He started sobbing, clutching onto my shirt, undistinguishable words pouring from his mouth. I had never seen Frank act like this. Ever. He was always so happy and strong and there for everybody when they needed him, and now it was weird seeing the situation in reverse.
“Shhh, shhh. It’s gonna be okay Frankie. Tell me what’s wrong. I’ll help,” I soothed him. He stood up from the bed, still hiccupping sobs, and went to get tissue. After he wiped the tears from his eyes that wouldn’t stop falling, he collapsed back onto the bed and on me, laying his head in my lap. I began to stroke his hair softly. After a while he began to talk.
“We have to move Gerard. My mom is making me. The guy she brought home, it turns out she’s been seeing him for a while. His job is moving him to Florida and she wants us to move with him so the can get married.” He paused for a moment and steadied his breathing as all of this sunk in. My Frank was moving. Somewhere completely different than where he had been his whole life. “ I haven’t ever even met him before, Gee. They want to get married! They’re uprooting my whole life. My mom said she wants me to start over in a place where I can be normal,” he said the word bitterly. I kept running my hand through his feathery hair, gazing at the wall. I felt Frank’s hand come up to my face and wipe away the tears that had fallen from my eyes without me noticing.
“Gee?” He asked me carefully. “Say something please.”
I opened my mouth, but no words came out. It was all normal earlier. We had a normal school day, Frank had been closer to me though and I enjoyed it, and suddenly… this. It was like the river that was my life, with all of the rocks and pebbles thrown in places but still with peaceful currents, had been stopped. By a huge dam-that was Frank moving.
“I… I wished that what we have could have happened sooner. I could have been with you longer instead of just two days,” I looked down at his beautiful face as I said this. “I love you Frank. And I should have told you earlier. I’ve known all along but I was just afraid.” He leaned up and kissed me. It was like no other kiss I had before. I didn’t even care that he didn’t say the three little words back because his actions were stronger than anything words could ever express. He kissed me deeply, and I threw every ounce of my heart into it, to let him know how much he meant to me. I know you may think that nothing like this could ever happen so fast but really, it wasn’t fast. It was painfully slow. I had known Frank for almost my whole life. Ever since the beginning of middle school. He was my friend. The next year, I liked him even more, in a different way and I realized I was gay. The next year, he became my lifelong best friend, and I never told him how I felt about him. I think that it really hit me this year. And when it hit me, it hit hard.
Finally, our kiss broke apart so that we could both breath.
“I love you too Gerard.”
@The HalloweenBandit
uh, thanks lol. and yea, i'm going to keep the story up, and I'll just go back and repost better chapters and like I said, I sort of rushed the story and it was like... Unrealistic. Idk. Thanks for reading! :) <3
12/31/13