Fallyn's POV

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After I'd sent the message I told Vicky I'd finished using her laptop, thanked her again then sat down on the couch, praying that whoever got the message would contact the band or their manager.
I kept praying that I'd get a lucky break because now that I was letting myself actually feel, I missed them, I missed them all so much and just wanted to get on the tour bus and go to New Jersey with them and leave the ugly town of Blackford behind, the only reason I had to be here in the first place was Katelyn and she isn't here anymore.

I couldn't help but think about Frank, I felt horrible for what I did when I ran away and I felt horrible for what I did to Gerard and Mikey because I know they've been looking for me for years and after they finally find me again they lose me. I could only imagine how bad that'd be since I hadn't grown up with having a brother, I was only able to guess how they felt and hope that one day I might feel like they're really my brothers.

It didn't take long for Vicky and Joel to finish talking and eating which meant they wouldn't take long getting dressed either, not formally since they even was only going to be held in the school auditorium and probably wouldn't be considered too much of a big deal by the town that would only be able to pretend to care at most.

I'd only spent a couple of days in Blackford after Katelyn's funeral and left quickly, I didn't want to stick around, I wanted to do what we used to talk about all the time, run away and live a better life in a better place.

The one thing I hadn't expected about running away to live a better life was that I'd actually get what I wanted, I think that's part of the reason I freaked out so much after I found out Gerard and Mikey were my older brothers and that Frank loved me or at least liked me a lot. It'd mean I'd either live with one or both of my brothers or my real parents and I'd be able to go to MCR concerts all the time, I'd be happy and have people who cared for me and people I'd want to care for and I wasn't expecting to get what I wanted so fast.

Running away from them had been a mistake, I shouldn't have done it but I'd been outside, I had so many emotions going on that I couldn't sort them out and I was alone so I just ran and ran as far as I possibly could. What I should have really done is gone inside, sat down on the couch and tried to pick apart each thing I was feeling while the bus was going so I didn't screw up like I always seem to do.

There's a few things in my life that I've wanted to take back but I think the one I wish I didn't do the most would be leaving that bus, I'm such and idiot and I'll keep thinking I'm an idiot until I see the band again.

"Fallyn, we're leaving now. I'd give you, your clothes but they haven't dried yet so if you want you can wear Katelyn's jacket" Vicky told me and I stood up from the couch, she was wearing more or less the same thing as she had at Kat's funeral but Joel who was standing next to her was dressed more casually like I was used to seeing when I was visiting all the time.

"Okay." I stood up and took the jacket I was used to seeing Kat wear all the time, it was her favorite jacket, she'd gotten it as a birthday present from her parents for her thirteenth and had been too big for her until recently when she grew into it.

Unlike when I was living with my 'mom' Kat's parents supported her with what music she listened to, they'd buy her merch and posters, pretty much everything she wanted while mine was from the small amount of money I'd save up from my small allowance and when Kat would give me a crapload of band stuff every birthday. So her favorite jacket was obviously inspired by one band or another, her parents had gotten in especially made for her from one of her drawings of clothes because she's always wanted to design band merch.

The jacket was a dark shade of red with a hood because of how much she liked to hide, the sleeves had hole each so she could hook her thumb through, on the back was a large image the bear and man in a bear costume from Folie à Deaux (because that's her favorite Fall Out Boy album) and when you zipped the jacket up it said Fall Out Boy right across the front. She'd always loved it and worn it all the time, I thought it was pretty cool as well since FOB was one of my favorite bands and I liked to pretend Cath would one day care about me enough to get something like that for me.

I felt awkward when I pulled on the jacket, other than my underwear and sorta wet shoes being my own everything I was wearing was Katelyn's so as I followed Vicky and Joel through the house I pretended I'd just been mucking around and dressing up in her clothes with her.

I didn't say much when I got into the same car as earlier and kept quiet for the long ride. It was still raining during the drive, easy off only a little bit and making it obvious we'd have to run pretty damn fast to get into the school auditorium without getting soaked to the bone and that's what we did, still getting pretty rained on.

I'm not sure what the exact time was but there were a lot of chairs out and over half of them had been filled, making it look like the entire town had decided to come despite the weather outside but then again Blackford could have some really bad storms at times although this would be the worse we'd had to date.
Since the school didn't have enough space to have both an area for plays and other things the town would put on and another area for a gym they had both in one place so the floor would be used for any gym stuff which could be filled with chairs and one wall of the auditorium was taken up by a stage that would usually be covered by a curtain, at the moment it was open.

I found a place to sit with Joel and Vicky closest to the stage, assuming they'd probably say something, I wanted to as well but decided I'd rather not, it'd be too much effort and I had nothing further to add about Katelyn than what I'd said about her at her funeral to her family.

Vicky and Joel didn't say much to me so I took my time to turn around and see if there was anyone here I knew and whether or not they were sitting near me. It didn't take long to spot Sissy, Vanessa, Brock and Jules, although Brock was with some girl I didn't recognise or remember but I bet she was one of the girls I'd been made fun of by before.

No one noticed I was there or at least pretended I wasn't and I slid down in my chair, crossing my arms and waiting for someone to start talking so I could listen or tune out and nap through the thing, I wasn't sure what I planned to do yet.

I spent most of the time while waiting thinking about Frank, hoping he'd forgive me for what a did and wondering if my message had been forwarded to anyone and whether or not whoever got it would contact the band. I'd also considered what I'd do if they decided they didn't show up although I was hoping they would, Gerard and Mikey wouldn't let me leave so soon after knowing I was their sister would they?

It wasn't long before I heard the sound of a microphone and looked up, the man who was the principal of the school was standing on the small stage, microphone in hand and looking rather uncomfortable, just like he always did whenever he had to make an announcement of any kind.

"Hello, I see that you are all her to pay homage to Katelyn Sommers who passed away not that long ago. I'd like to invite members of the town to come onstage and share any memories they had of Katelyn." He hadn't even finished his first sentence and I'd already rolled my eyes twice, this was ridiculous and I know Katelyn would think the same, not that many people knew her that well so any 'memories' shared would be pretty creepy.

The first person to go up was her parents which would be reasonable since it was their daughter of course but I still found it hard to pay attention when I knew most the town would rather be anywhere else but here and were only attending because there was a storm and they had nothing better to do.

Still I managed to keep my thoughts to myself and listened as person after person talked about her Vicky and Joel, the principal, Cain, different teachers, Sissy and Vanessa who fake cried through the whole thing and did nothing but talk about how upset 'they' were, not saying a single thing about Katelyn or any memories of her, Brock said a little, actually surprising me when he described her as she was, as a firecracker.

It didn't seem so bad at first and there was a chance that if Kat were here she might have laughed at people saying things about how they knew her and not been flat out annoyed instead, I could almost imagine her next to me sitting in her Fall Out Boy jacket, the one I was wearing right now.

After a while of people talking I thought that the whole even would be over, most of the people who had met her and talked to her for more than five seconds had finished speaking and gone to sit down, then the person I least expected and least liked stood up and sauntered up the stairs by the side of the stage and took the microphone from her history teacher who'd just finished describing the one time she started ripping pages out of her textbook because she thought it was being sexist.

Jules stood there with the microphone and I wanted to stand up and yell for her to get down, she had no right to be up on the stage and talk about my best friend, the one who'd killed herself because of how much she got bullied. Because of how tired she'd gotten of being teased by Jules since her boyfriend Cain had dumped her from the peroxided slut who was the human incarnation of Beelzebub's daughter.

"I remember the first time I met Katelyn," Jules started, fake tears already in her eyes, "we truly knew each other mind, heart and soul. We were so alike that it was impossible for us to not be able to get along. She liked the boys as much as I did, we both loved to sleep around, her a lot more than me. We were such good friends but she just wanted to go out and have sex all the time and she'd ditch me to go bang guys and we stopped being friends because of that, it was such a shame because I liked her so much. I wish we could have talked more." The whole time Jules was onstage, putting down Katelyn I was shaking my head and clenching my hands, trying to not run up and punch the crap out of her, break her nose for the third time then strangle her to death like she fucking deserved.

What I don't get most of all is why isn't the principal going up there and stopping her, she can't be allowed to diss Kat like that can she? She needs to be stopped or everyone in the town will start thinking Katelyn was some whore when I know she wasn't, I hung out with her pretty much ever since she moved here and we were around each other so often she couldn't have been a slut, besides the only guy she ever dated was Cain.

I felt a hand on my knee and looked at Vicky, she was giving me a look as if she were trying to calm me down because she could tell how angry I was. I wanted to listen to Victoria, I really wanted to but no matter how hard I tried I couldn't get rid of the red tint from my vision, I was so angry I was actually seeing red and clenched my eyes shut in an attempt to get rid of it but my vision didn't return to normal.

"I remember this one time at a party, I was walking around and then I went to this bedroom to lie down because I was tired and Kat was in there blowing two guys. I seriously couldn't believe she was doing it because she kept telling me how she was a virgin and stuff like that so I thought she was supposed to be innocent and all that, that's how we became friends." Thankfully the principal decided she'd said way more than she was allowed to and took the microphone from her, laughing awkwardly and thanking Jules for speaking.

The blonde walked past and looked me directly in the eyes as if she were challenging me to get up there and say something, I wasn't feeling sure about speaking when I first came in here but if she wants to hear something then fine. The whole fucking town can hear everything.

"Well I think we've heard just about every memory there is of this wonderful," I stood up and walked to the steps getting a cautious glance from the principle when he realized I was here, "girl so I think it's about time we-" I took the microphone from him before he could say anything else and was stared at by the whole town including everyone at school who hadn't seen me for the past week.

It must be strange, not seeing me after the party where I got up on a table and took most of my clothes off then having me suddenly show up here, fully dressed and wearing Kat's trademark Fall Out Boy jacket that anyone at Blackford high would be able to recognize.

"Surprise everyone, there's gonna be one more speaker before this shit's wrapped up. I'm sure most of you recognize me. Misty Findley, I hung out with Katelyn more or less every single day since she moved to this shithole. I've been sitting down watching you talk all talk but what I find most interesting is that as you share memories, good thoughts and all those warm fuckin' fuzzy feelings as if you guys were buddies...how many of you actually knew her? I will pay whoever can tell me Katelyn's middle name a hundred bucks, I will literally give any of you a hundred bucks just for a name." The whole room was silent, people either not knowing how to respond to me or having no answer, either way the silence was enough and I knew at then end no one would be able to come up with a name.

"Her middle name was Katelyn. Her full name was Marjorie Katelyn Sommers and because she hated her first name so much she wanted to be known as either Katelyn or Kat. If any of you knew her or was friends with her you'd have been able to answer that. If any of you knew her you'd be aware that everyday she went to school, the horrible, disgusting excuse for a human being known as Jules or Julian Wicker would bully her. If any of you knew her you'd know that she used to cut herself because she was unable to deal with life and wanted to escape it and the only thing that had kept her from killing herself was music. If any of you knew her you'd know the band that kept her alive was My Chemical Romance and that the song she wanted to have played at her funeral was Cemetery Drive." I was so angry at everyone, they kept pretending that they knew who Kat was, that they knew what was going on in the inside of her head and that everything she said and did was just her being a little weird and funny.

"She was my best friend in the whole world, the only person I could ever trust, the only person anyone could trust and she's the loyalist fucking person I've ever met! She's a victim of Julian Wicker, Sissy Hill and Vanessa Booker, she's a victim of not having enough people like her around and she's a victim of this fucking godforsaken town! The only thing Blackford does is take in people that want to be nobodies and churn out more people that want to be nobodies, nothing good has ever come from this place and nothing ever-fucking-will!"

It was fantastic to see the sea of expressions every single face horrified and shocked, they were hearing what they'd always ignored and refused to process and it was all thanks to me because I wasn't going to leave before I knew everyone got the fucking message.

"Everyone in this town has grown up here or doesn't want to leave. I can only name two teenagers who came here and only two people that want to fucking leave. Katelyn and I, she wanted to leave as soon as she could, she wanted to get the fuck out of here and she was fucking smarter than the whole rest of you are brainwashed idiots put together," the principal started walking towards me and I held my hand up, "I suggest you step the fuck off, sir. I wanted to leave just as much as she did and after I left I found out that I'm not from this town either, I came here when I was six years old, I was brought here by a woman called Cath, after she kidnapped me. My name is Fallyn Way and I was born and spent most of my childhood in Belleville, New Jersey. I have two brothers by the name of Gerard and Mikey and you might have heard of them before because they're in a band called My Chemical Romance." It looked like everyone's mouths were open, except for Vicky and Joel who'd already heard the story and were looking at me with grim smiles, they were listening and they knew I was right.

"I was almost a victim of this town, I almost died and it was only because of that band that I'm still alive and awake enough to see how shit everything in this town. There's no music program or art program, you don't have any sport teams or swim teams, it's like you all want your kids to grow up to be nobodies. My advice is that you fucking do something or you'll be even more like your prehistoric caveman ancestors and die the fuck out. Don't let your kids be losers and lowlives like the rest of you. I'm going to go now, partly because I'm tired of your stupid fucking faces but mostly because I've got a tour bus to catch. Make sure at least some of you know a person before you try to hold a fucking service for them. By the way, Jules, I thought you should know that uh, Cain's bisexual and he has herpes and AIDs because of it, that's why Kat never slept with him. Have a peachy day...cunt."

I handed the microphone back to the principal and jumped off the stage, walking out of the auditorium before the shit hit the ceiling, I could already imagine everyone freaking out and I was enjoying it. I'd said what I needed to say and felt proud of myself and a little overheated because of how high they had the temperature in there cranked up so despite it being the middle of Winter and snowy outside, at least it'd stopped raining.

I took off Katelyn's jacket and tied it around my waist, trying to imagine what she'd say if she were here, I reckon she'd have found what I said hilarious, she would have loved to see the expressions everyone wore, especially at the part when I let loose the little secret about Cain.

Seeing that the school would be open because all the lights to the auditorium are controlled by from inside the school I walked around until I found an unlocked door and ducked inside, heading for the stairwell because I felt like going to the roof.

Jogging slightly it didn't take me long to get up the five levels to the never sealed off rooftop, the guard never bothered to lock this door and whoever was going to the school could come up here whenever they felt like it. I remember how I used to hang out here with Kat all the time, we'd eat lunch and talk and on a rare day we'd bring up water balloons and drop them although we never hit anyone, just scared a few people.

At the moment it was almost like a snow pit and I had a bit of trouble stoping through the thick layer of white powder, it was cold but I wanted to get to the side and sit down, I could be alone up here and never had to worry about being interrupted, I guess most of the students were too bothered to climb the stairs or presumed the area was locked up.

Katelyn and I had managed to sneak a couple of plastic chairs up here and I sat on one of those, making myself comfortable and enjoying the view as I thought, wondering what I was going to do while waiting for the guys to show up since I'd decided that they were definitely gonna come for me.
I could go stay with Vicky and Joel I guess, that's if they'd be willing to let me since I couldn't imagine having their dead daughters best friend over to be the funnest thing in the world. If I can't stay with them I'm sure I'll be able to find somewhere else, it might not be comfortable or warm but there'll always be somewhere.

I'd like to go to the police about Cath but I keep forgetting that I'm sixteen, if there was a story about a sixteen year old being kidnapped it would either end in me being lucky enough to go back to Jersey or being put into the system and sent to a series of foster homes which I'd definitely hate and end up running away from.

I guess that I'll be reduced to waiting and hoping for the moment, maybe Katelyn will show up and help me out, that'd be pretty damn good at a time like this, her using her angel abilities or whatever and magically teleporting me to the bus, wherever it is right now.

"Why can't you just die like your stupid friend?" I recognized the voice before I turned around, I'd heard a similar line before from the same person plus there's only one person I can name who'd say something that venomous.

"Because Jules, my sole goal in life is to be the bane of your existence. Nothing in life mask me more happier than going out of my way to annoy you," I said sarcastically, standing up and turning around to face the girl who was a couple of feet away from me with her hands on her hips, not looking that aggressive since she was wearing a pink jacket which made her look more like an angry two year old than anything else.

"You deserve to die, you're only a nuisance, it's not like you're going to do anything for this world." She walked a little closer and I sighed before crossing my arms, looks like it's going to be argument time before I get to breaking her nose again and just like the first and second time, I know I'd enjoy it.
"In case you forgot you don't do anything but sleep around, I don't think you're actually able to do anything." I didn't know how smart Jules was but I couldn't imagine her to be too bright considering she's seventeen and a sophomore.

"At least I know how to make a man happy you lesbo." Her tone was as snarky as always and to be honest I wasn't actually that mad at her, I'd found happiness with the band and I didn't feel the need to get angry at her when I knew she was going to have a sad pathetic life of growing up in this town, marrying in this town and dying in this town while I got to do everything I ever dreamed of, what she was going to spend her life doing...it was kinda pitiable.

"Lesbo is it? Wow, I don't remember it being that long ago when you said I'd slept around and banged Brock, so what is it then? Am I a lesbian or a whore?" I did say I pitied her but that didn't mean I didn't enjoy annoying her, I'd always enjoy doing that, no matter where I am in my life it'd be fun.

"Both, your an ugly, skanky, emo, dyke, who should do the world a favor and die like her friend."

"Oh, so cutting. You've never called me names before or insulted me, this is a first. What should I do, I'm so emotionally wounded? Should I throw myself of this building?" I was being melodramatic and I could see her clenching her jaw as she walked even closer to me, probably planning on a slap or something sissyish like that, whatever she would throw at me, I know I'd be able to take it.

"Yes.

What I wasn't expecting was the hard shove on my shoulders.
What I wasn't expecting was my legs giving out when they hit the edge of the rooftop
What I wasn't expecting was the feeling of my heart in my stomach when I entered a free fall.
What I wasn't expecting was how quickly everything went black when a thumping registerd with my ears.
What I wasn't expecting was for her to push me off the roof of a five-story building.

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