
Save Me From My Self Destruction
No This Cannot Be Happening!
***Gerard's POV***
Why did she leave so suddenly? I hope everything is alright. She said she had to help her sister out with something but the way she said it leads me not to believe her. Maybe I should call her? No, I'll just let her do what she has to do.
I got kinda tired, so i sat on the couch and closed my eyes. I soon drifted off to sleep.
***2 Hours later***
"Hey Gerard! Wake up!" said Mikey
I slowly opened my eyes to see Mikey hovering over me.
"What do you want?" I sounded more annoyed than what I intended for
"I proposed to Alicia!"
"Oh that great Mikes! Good for you." I messed up his hair
"She loved the tattoo by the way."
"Oh that reminds me. Chrissi and I are dating."
"Ah that's awesome, dude! I know you were really head over heals for her since everyday all I hear about is 'Chrissi this' 'Chrissi that'. " he joked
"Shut up." I laughed, playfully hitting his arm.
"Alright, Gerard. As long as your happy. I'm gonna go get some sleep.. Goodnight man." he said while walking away
I laid back down on the couch and fell asleep.
****5 weeks later****
***Chrissi's POV***
I get up off the ground in even more pain than I was yesterday. I look in the mirror and see blood covering my nose, with bruises everywhere. Shit... Gerard will definitely see this. I can't do this anymore. I can't keep living like this. I just I can't keep living.....
I slip on a pair of leggings, converse, and a red V-neck T-shirt. I run into the bathroom and put on a shitload of foundation to cover up the bruises. I grab my sketch book and head out to Starbucks.
When I get there, I order my usual. A vanilla frappuccino. I sit down at a table and draw. Drawing always helps me clear my mind for a while. I have work in about 3 hours so my time is limited. My mind keeps running with different questions. 'Should I go back home and face my parents?' 'Should I just run away?' 'Should I just end it all?' Maybe the world would be better off without me. Gee and I have only been together for a little over a month so he'll get over it and find someone else. My parents don't give a shit whether I'm alive or not. Ali and Erik- Yes they'll be heart broken, but they'll get over it in about a month. That's it. I'm done.
***Gerad's POV***
I woke up at about 11am I got out of my bed and made myself pancakes. Mikey was probably up and out with Alicia, as usual. I saw my phone on the kitchen table and dialed Chrissi's number. I was worried about her. I wanted to make sure she was okay. The phone rang for what seemed like forever. Then came her voicemail. Shit. I called once again and still no answer. She's probably busy.
I waited a good hour or so before I tried calling her again. No. Answer.... I waited half an hour. No answer. I waited 3 hours. Nothing. It was now 4pm, and I'm panicking. Without thinking, I jump in my car and speed over to her house. Maybe I was over reacting about all of this. She was probably fine, but it's better safe than sorry.
I arrive at her house and knock frantically at the door. Nothing. I ring the doorbell. Still nothing. I go back home, and call her one more time. Voicemail.
'Okay Gerard just calm down'. 'She's fine. She'll call you later'. I had to repeat those words to myself over and over again. I knew something was up. I could feel it.
I try one last time to drive to her house. When I get there, I run to the door and knock on it. I twist the knob a bit, and the door creeks open.
It felt like a weight has just been lifted off my shoulders. She was home. I step in the house to see the TV playing on mute, and music blasting through speakers.
I call her name loud enough to hear over the speakers. Nothing. Maybe she's in her bedroom.
I walk up the stairs and find her dark purple door covered in posters. I knock on the door. Okay now this is fucking weird. I open the door half way and she's not there. I call her name so loudly, it would be impossible not to hear me. I see the bathroom lights are on so I knock on the door.
"Hey sugar? Its Gee. I've been trying to call you all day, but you haven't answered. Are you okay?" I ask nervously
"Baby?" I somewhat yelled.
Nothing
"Chrissi, If you're in there, answer this door right now. Please!" I screamed
"Chris I'm coming in."
I turn the knob. Fuck its locked.
I kick the door with my foot multiple times, each time harder and harder
Finally the door swings open..
Oh god no this can't be happening!
Why did she leave so suddenly? I hope everything is alright. She said she had to help her sister out with something but the way she said it leads me not to believe her. Maybe I should call her? No, I'll just let her do what she has to do.
I got kinda tired, so i sat on the couch and closed my eyes. I soon drifted off to sleep.
***2 Hours later***
"Hey Gerard! Wake up!" said Mikey
I slowly opened my eyes to see Mikey hovering over me.
"What do you want?" I sounded more annoyed than what I intended for
"I proposed to Alicia!"
"Oh that great Mikes! Good for you." I messed up his hair
"She loved the tattoo by the way."
"Oh that reminds me. Chrissi and I are dating."
"Ah that's awesome, dude! I know you were really head over heals for her since everyday all I hear about is 'Chrissi this' 'Chrissi that'. " he joked
"Shut up." I laughed, playfully hitting his arm.
"Alright, Gerard. As long as your happy. I'm gonna go get some sleep.. Goodnight man." he said while walking away
I laid back down on the couch and fell asleep.
****5 weeks later****
***Chrissi's POV***
I get up off the ground in even more pain than I was yesterday. I look in the mirror and see blood covering my nose, with bruises everywhere. Shit... Gerard will definitely see this. I can't do this anymore. I can't keep living like this. I just I can't keep living.....
I slip on a pair of leggings, converse, and a red V-neck T-shirt. I run into the bathroom and put on a shitload of foundation to cover up the bruises. I grab my sketch book and head out to Starbucks.
When I get there, I order my usual. A vanilla frappuccino. I sit down at a table and draw. Drawing always helps me clear my mind for a while. I have work in about 3 hours so my time is limited. My mind keeps running with different questions. 'Should I go back home and face my parents?' 'Should I just run away?' 'Should I just end it all?' Maybe the world would be better off without me. Gee and I have only been together for a little over a month so he'll get over it and find someone else. My parents don't give a shit whether I'm alive or not. Ali and Erik- Yes they'll be heart broken, but they'll get over it in about a month. That's it. I'm done.
***Gerad's POV***
I woke up at about 11am I got out of my bed and made myself pancakes. Mikey was probably up and out with Alicia, as usual. I saw my phone on the kitchen table and dialed Chrissi's number. I was worried about her. I wanted to make sure she was okay. The phone rang for what seemed like forever. Then came her voicemail. Shit. I called once again and still no answer. She's probably busy.
I waited a good hour or so before I tried calling her again. No. Answer.... I waited half an hour. No answer. I waited 3 hours. Nothing. It was now 4pm, and I'm panicking. Without thinking, I jump in my car and speed over to her house. Maybe I was over reacting about all of this. She was probably fine, but it's better safe than sorry.
I arrive at her house and knock frantically at the door. Nothing. I ring the doorbell. Still nothing. I go back home, and call her one more time. Voicemail.
'Okay Gerard just calm down'. 'She's fine. She'll call you later'. I had to repeat those words to myself over and over again. I knew something was up. I could feel it.
I try one last time to drive to her house. When I get there, I run to the door and knock on it. I twist the knob a bit, and the door creeks open.
It felt like a weight has just been lifted off my shoulders. She was home. I step in the house to see the TV playing on mute, and music blasting through speakers.
I call her name loud enough to hear over the speakers. Nothing. Maybe she's in her bedroom.
I walk up the stairs and find her dark purple door covered in posters. I knock on the door. Okay now this is fucking weird. I open the door half way and she's not there. I call her name so loudly, it would be impossible not to hear me. I see the bathroom lights are on so I knock on the door.
"Hey sugar? Its Gee. I've been trying to call you all day, but you haven't answered. Are you okay?" I ask nervously
"Baby?" I somewhat yelled.
Nothing
"Chrissi, If you're in there, answer this door right now. Please!" I screamed
"Chris I'm coming in."
I turn the knob. Fuck its locked.
I kick the door with my foot multiple times, each time harder and harder
Finally the door swings open..
Oh god no this can't be happening!
OMG that was so sad when Gerard was begging for forgiveness :'(
1/11/14