
Save Me From My Self Destruction
To The Moon and Back
****1 week later****
***Gerard's POV***
I sat in my room, and stared at my suitcase. Why must brian always tell us about tour, the week before we have to leave? It's annoying as fuck. Chris was out with Jess. She's still pretty shaken up about what happened last week. I packed all my favorite stage clothes, some stage makeup, and a pair of Chris's pajamas. I don't care if they're girl's pj's, they're comfortable as hell. I also took of of he favorite band T-shirts. It smelled just like her, and it would come it great use when I miss her. I packed all my other necessities, and made myself a sandwich.
"Mikey, are you done packing yet?" I yelled, and it echoed the house.
He came running down the steps and met me in the kitchen, and took a bite out of my sandwich.
"Mother fucker, you take one more bite, I'll kill you." I joked
"Gerard, I don't wanna go on tour." he complained
"No one does. But common. The band is doing great! And this is the shit we gotta do if we wanna stay great."
"But, Alicia and I wanna get married, and all this touring shit is getting in the way! It's not fair. You got your wife, now I want mine."
"Mikey stop blaming me. You think I wanna go and live in a van for three months? No. But it's what we signed up for when we got into this band."
"Can she come on the tour with us? I barley get to see her anymore with all the stuff that's been going on lately."
"Absolutely not."
"Why not, Gerard!"
"Because it's crowded enough with just the five of us, plus Brian. We don't need another person taking up space. Especially not a girl."
"You'd let Chrissi go....."
"No I wouldn't. If I let her go, she'd be coming with us, but that's not happening."
"But don't you miss her? Don't you wish she could come and be with you? Support you throughout all your shows? Don't you wanna be able to look in the wings, and see her smiling, and singing along with you to all our songs?"
"What kind of question is that? Of course I'd love her to be with me..."
"Well that's's how I feel, Gerard. And maybe we could get married there. Not like a ceremony or anything. Just get someone who can marry us and just do it. I want to spend the rest of my life with her. Gerard, you know how you love Chris? That's how I love Alicia. And I want to marry her now.
"Look mikey, there just isn't enough room! And plus we don't need any distractions. We just need to concentrate on our music."
"You know what, Gerard? Alicia doesn't go, I don't go. End of story."
"Mikey, you can't be fucking serious."
"I am. You know me, I don't joke around like that."
"That's not fair to Chris and I..." I sighed "I wanna be with her more than you even know."
"Then bring her too!"
"Mikey, it's not that easy... There's not enough room. I'd bring her in a second if I could... But you know what? Whatever. If you must, then fine. But you're both sharing a bunk." I sighed. He always has his ways of making me break, and cave into his wants.
"I'm gonna go pick up Chris. Make sure you and Alicia are packed. We're leaving at 10, and not waiting for anyone."
"Thanks, Gerard. I know you're mad, but you're the best brother ever."
"Yeah, yeah.. I love you, Mikes."
I headed out the door, and went to Jess's and Frank's. I knocked on the door, and Frank opened it.
"Hey, Gerard. What's up?"
"Hey is Chris here? I wanna spend some time with her, ya know?"
"Uh no actually, they went to the store to get Chris some more hair dye. Apparently she didn't dye it right. I dunno. Girls are too picky."
"I swear, she's gonna damage her hair..... Oh well. I'll just wait here. We can jam or something."
"Yeah sure. But you gotta help me finish packing first."
I rolled my eyes, and followed him to his bedroom where clothes, guitar strings, and stage makeup everywhere.
"Jeez... I thought I was a mess...'
"Shut up. " he joked
"Look, I gotta tell you something."
"Shoot."
"Well, uhm. Mikey is bringing Alicia."
"Seriously?" he didn't sound thrilled
"Yeah.. He wants to get married now. As if it's really that urgent. He was just annoying me to the point where I gave in."
"Fuck. Shit. A girl? Really? I mean I love Alicia, but having a girl on tour with five guys for three months, isn't gonna be nice. Actually, it's gonna suck."
I sighed and we continued packing. It's been an hour. Where the fuck are they?
"Why the hell are Chris and Jess? Like what the fuck?" Frank complained
"I dunno." I sighed
Frank and I decided to take a break, and go outside and have a smoke. Almost 20 minutes later, our ladies finally arrived. Chrissi was on Jess's back, making her give her a piggy back ride. Typical Chris. Too lazy to walk.
"Oh hey, Gee."
"Hey, I'm taking you home, come on."
"Wait, I have to dye my hair." she wined
"No I'm taking you home. I'll dye it for you. We're leaving for Philadelphia tonight, and I need to spend time with you." she sighed and wrapped her arms around me.
"Ugh don't remind me.. I don't want you to go." I rubbed her back and pulled her into a kiss.
"Common let's go." I pulled her by her waist.
"Bye, Jess. See ya tonight."
"Tonight?" I asked
"Yeah I'm sleeping over here when you guys leave."
We got into the car, and drove back to our house. Once we got there, I ran over to her side of the car, picked her up out of her seat, and threw her over my shoulder. She squealed and giggled as I tried to open the door without dropping her. I then ran with her over my shoulder to the bathroom.
"Gimme that hair dye, girl." I said in my sassy tone as I put her down. She giggled, and handed me the box. I ripped the box open, mixed the dye, and began to rub it in her hair.
"I'm gonna make your hair look so good, baby." I said using the same sassy tone
"Oh my hair doesn't look good already?" she pretended to pout
"Nope, hideous." I joked with her
She gasped "Well, then, Mr. Way. I'll just head back to Jessica's if my hair is so hideous." she said, trying to sound serious. I grabbed her waist and pulled her against me.
"Oh no, Mrs. Way. You're not going anywhere." I said into her neck as I placed small kissed on her.
"Don't get too close to me hair, Gee. I don't want you getting black all over your face." she giggled. I kissed her forehead and waited in the bathroom with her for 25 mintutes for her hair to be ready to rinse out. Once her hair was dry, I styled it. I searched through her drawers, and found her straightener. Once I was done, I put a red bow in her head, making her look like snow white.
"You surprise me everyday, Gee. I never thought you'd be able to style hair." she smiled
"Don't underestimate the power of Geebear." I poked her side.
We kissed, and headed downstairs for dinner. She and I made pasta, which quickly turned into a pasta food fight. We had noodle all in our hair, and all over the floor.
"Well fuck." she laughed "We'll get Mikey and Alicia to clean it up."
"Oh yeah, about them.. Alicia is coming on tour with us. Mikey refuses to go without her. Apparently it's so fucking urgent that he marry's her now. I dunno. He was just getting so annoying about it, I couldn't take it anymore, so I gave in and let her come. It's gonna be one hell hole though. I mean we aren't gonna have our privacy, and honestly, I can't see how anyone would want to be on tour with five sweaty, smelly guys for three months."
She sighed and flashed me a smile. "Well, be happy for Mikes. It's not like she's gonna really get in the way. She's just gonna be with him the whole time, so it shouldn't be that bad."
"I don't know how you do it."
"Do what?"
"You always find a way to look at the bright side, and make everything better." I smiled at her. She kissed my nose, and started to clean up all the pasta off the floor.
*******
Before I knew it, it was 9:30. I only have half an hour left before I'm ripped away from my wife for three fucking long months. We cuddled on the couch, and I tried to get a bit of sleep before tour. During tour, it's incredibly hard to get a full sleep. Actually, it's impossible. I must've dozed off, cause the last thing I remember, I'm hearing the van honking. I got up, and saw Chris at the door, hugging Mikey and Alicia goodbye. I put my arms around her waist, picked her up, and spun her around.
"Remember, sugar, call me, whenever you need me. If anything, and I mean anything happens, Chris you better call me. I don't wanna have to worry about you, okay? I love you with everything I have, okay?" I kissed her soft lips.
"I love you too, Gee." tears were now falling down both of our cheeks. "Have fun, and I know you'll do great." she smiled "I love you to the moon and back." our lips connected one more time, before my band members pulled me into the van.
***Gerard's POV***
I sat in my room, and stared at my suitcase. Why must brian always tell us about tour, the week before we have to leave? It's annoying as fuck. Chris was out with Jess. She's still pretty shaken up about what happened last week. I packed all my favorite stage clothes, some stage makeup, and a pair of Chris's pajamas. I don't care if they're girl's pj's, they're comfortable as hell. I also took of of he favorite band T-shirts. It smelled just like her, and it would come it great use when I miss her. I packed all my other necessities, and made myself a sandwich.
"Mikey, are you done packing yet?" I yelled, and it echoed the house.
He came running down the steps and met me in the kitchen, and took a bite out of my sandwich.
"Mother fucker, you take one more bite, I'll kill you." I joked
"Gerard, I don't wanna go on tour." he complained
"No one does. But common. The band is doing great! And this is the shit we gotta do if we wanna stay great."
"But, Alicia and I wanna get married, and all this touring shit is getting in the way! It's not fair. You got your wife, now I want mine."
"Mikey stop blaming me. You think I wanna go and live in a van for three months? No. But it's what we signed up for when we got into this band."
"Can she come on the tour with us? I barley get to see her anymore with all the stuff that's been going on lately."
"Absolutely not."
"Why not, Gerard!"
"Because it's crowded enough with just the five of us, plus Brian. We don't need another person taking up space. Especially not a girl."
"You'd let Chrissi go....."
"No I wouldn't. If I let her go, she'd be coming with us, but that's not happening."
"But don't you miss her? Don't you wish she could come and be with you? Support you throughout all your shows? Don't you wanna be able to look in the wings, and see her smiling, and singing along with you to all our songs?"
"What kind of question is that? Of course I'd love her to be with me..."
"Well that's's how I feel, Gerard. And maybe we could get married there. Not like a ceremony or anything. Just get someone who can marry us and just do it. I want to spend the rest of my life with her. Gerard, you know how you love Chris? That's how I love Alicia. And I want to marry her now.
"Look mikey, there just isn't enough room! And plus we don't need any distractions. We just need to concentrate on our music."
"You know what, Gerard? Alicia doesn't go, I don't go. End of story."
"Mikey, you can't be fucking serious."
"I am. You know me, I don't joke around like that."
"That's not fair to Chris and I..." I sighed "I wanna be with her more than you even know."
"Then bring her too!"
"Mikey, it's not that easy... There's not enough room. I'd bring her in a second if I could... But you know what? Whatever. If you must, then fine. But you're both sharing a bunk." I sighed. He always has his ways of making me break, and cave into his wants.
"I'm gonna go pick up Chris. Make sure you and Alicia are packed. We're leaving at 10, and not waiting for anyone."
"Thanks, Gerard. I know you're mad, but you're the best brother ever."
"Yeah, yeah.. I love you, Mikes."
I headed out the door, and went to Jess's and Frank's. I knocked on the door, and Frank opened it.
"Hey, Gerard. What's up?"
"Hey is Chris here? I wanna spend some time with her, ya know?"
"Uh no actually, they went to the store to get Chris some more hair dye. Apparently she didn't dye it right. I dunno. Girls are too picky."
"I swear, she's gonna damage her hair..... Oh well. I'll just wait here. We can jam or something."
"Yeah sure. But you gotta help me finish packing first."
I rolled my eyes, and followed him to his bedroom where clothes, guitar strings, and stage makeup everywhere.
"Jeez... I thought I was a mess...'
"Shut up. " he joked
"Look, I gotta tell you something."
"Shoot."
"Well, uhm. Mikey is bringing Alicia."
"Seriously?" he didn't sound thrilled
"Yeah.. He wants to get married now. As if it's really that urgent. He was just annoying me to the point where I gave in."
"Fuck. Shit. A girl? Really? I mean I love Alicia, but having a girl on tour with five guys for three months, isn't gonna be nice. Actually, it's gonna suck."
I sighed and we continued packing. It's been an hour. Where the fuck are they?
"Why the hell are Chris and Jess? Like what the fuck?" Frank complained
"I dunno." I sighed
Frank and I decided to take a break, and go outside and have a smoke. Almost 20 minutes later, our ladies finally arrived. Chrissi was on Jess's back, making her give her a piggy back ride. Typical Chris. Too lazy to walk.
"Oh hey, Gee."
"Hey, I'm taking you home, come on."
"Wait, I have to dye my hair." she wined
"No I'm taking you home. I'll dye it for you. We're leaving for Philadelphia tonight, and I need to spend time with you." she sighed and wrapped her arms around me.
"Ugh don't remind me.. I don't want you to go." I rubbed her back and pulled her into a kiss.
"Common let's go." I pulled her by her waist.
"Bye, Jess. See ya tonight."
"Tonight?" I asked
"Yeah I'm sleeping over here when you guys leave."
We got into the car, and drove back to our house. Once we got there, I ran over to her side of the car, picked her up out of her seat, and threw her over my shoulder. She squealed and giggled as I tried to open the door without dropping her. I then ran with her over my shoulder to the bathroom.
"Gimme that hair dye, girl." I said in my sassy tone as I put her down. She giggled, and handed me the box. I ripped the box open, mixed the dye, and began to rub it in her hair.
"I'm gonna make your hair look so good, baby." I said using the same sassy tone
"Oh my hair doesn't look good already?" she pretended to pout
"Nope, hideous." I joked with her
She gasped "Well, then, Mr. Way. I'll just head back to Jessica's if my hair is so hideous." she said, trying to sound serious. I grabbed her waist and pulled her against me.
"Oh no, Mrs. Way. You're not going anywhere." I said into her neck as I placed small kissed on her.
"Don't get too close to me hair, Gee. I don't want you getting black all over your face." she giggled. I kissed her forehead and waited in the bathroom with her for 25 mintutes for her hair to be ready to rinse out. Once her hair was dry, I styled it. I searched through her drawers, and found her straightener. Once I was done, I put a red bow in her head, making her look like snow white.
"You surprise me everyday, Gee. I never thought you'd be able to style hair." she smiled
"Don't underestimate the power of Geebear." I poked her side.
We kissed, and headed downstairs for dinner. She and I made pasta, which quickly turned into a pasta food fight. We had noodle all in our hair, and all over the floor.
"Well fuck." she laughed "We'll get Mikey and Alicia to clean it up."
"Oh yeah, about them.. Alicia is coming on tour with us. Mikey refuses to go without her. Apparently it's so fucking urgent that he marry's her now. I dunno. He was just getting so annoying about it, I couldn't take it anymore, so I gave in and let her come. It's gonna be one hell hole though. I mean we aren't gonna have our privacy, and honestly, I can't see how anyone would want to be on tour with five sweaty, smelly guys for three months."
She sighed and flashed me a smile. "Well, be happy for Mikes. It's not like she's gonna really get in the way. She's just gonna be with him the whole time, so it shouldn't be that bad."
"I don't know how you do it."
"Do what?"
"You always find a way to look at the bright side, and make everything better." I smiled at her. She kissed my nose, and started to clean up all the pasta off the floor.
*******
Before I knew it, it was 9:30. I only have half an hour left before I'm ripped away from my wife for three fucking long months. We cuddled on the couch, and I tried to get a bit of sleep before tour. During tour, it's incredibly hard to get a full sleep. Actually, it's impossible. I must've dozed off, cause the last thing I remember, I'm hearing the van honking. I got up, and saw Chris at the door, hugging Mikey and Alicia goodbye. I put my arms around her waist, picked her up, and spun her around.
"Remember, sugar, call me, whenever you need me. If anything, and I mean anything happens, Chris you better call me. I don't wanna have to worry about you, okay? I love you with everything I have, okay?" I kissed her soft lips.
"I love you too, Gee." tears were now falling down both of our cheeks. "Have fun, and I know you'll do great." she smiled "I love you to the moon and back." our lips connected one more time, before my band members pulled me into the van.
OMG that was so sad when Gerard was begging for forgiveness :'(
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