Save Me From My Self Destruction
It Was Too Good To Be True
***Chrissi's POV***
Spending the day with Gerard's family was amazing. They're all so kind and loving. Even the cousins he warned me about. at first they were acting like little shit heads, but then when we started watching the movie, Genni started talking to me as if I were her big sister. It was nice knowing that I was able to make the cousins that hate everyone actually like me.
Everyone went home about an hour ago. It was now almost 12am so Gee and I went to sleep.
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I woke up around 9:30am, and saw that Gee had already left for work. He had to work late today, so I was home alone. I guess I can go back to work now since I'm not pregnant anymore, but I kinda like having free time. I get a lot of time to myself. I was beginning to get incredibly bored by the afternoon. Being only 18, I still have a shit load of energy. I knew Kyliee and Jess both worked, so I couldn't call them. Am I the only one in the world that doesn't work?! I decided to just draw something for a while, maybe pass the time. I looked through my draws to find my sketch book, when I found a notebook full of songs. The lyrics were amazing!
I heard the sound of the door being unlocked, so I put the notebook back, and headed downstairs.
"Hey honey. How was your day?" he asked
"It was pretty good. How about yours?"
"Eh. The usual. Look I have some news."
"What is it?"
"I quit my job to start a band."
******5 months later*******
Time went on, and Gee, and Mikey had found three other guys, Frank Iero, Ray Toro, and Matt Pelissier, to form a band called My Chemical Romance. Mikey came up with the name. They were really good-no amazing. Gee really loved doing this. He quit his illustrating job when the band started, and It's kinda all gone downhill from there. I barley see him anymore. He's always rehearsing, or touring around with the band, looking for a basement to play in. He's also started to get heavy into alcohol. It's become uncontrollable now. I barely know him anymore! He isn't the same. At all. He's barley sober, and I can't handle him anymore. I've begged him countless times to stop, but he just doesn't listen. It hurts me so goddamn much to just watch him change so drastically. I hugged my knees to my chest and cried for hours. No one came upstairs since they were all in the basement getting drunk and rehearsing. I think Mikey and Ray were the only sober ones. I knew Gee was completely wasted. I could hear it in his voice as he sang. I got up off the floor, wiped my face, and headed to the basement. I've tried everything. Now it's come to this.
I slowly walked down the stairs, and saw my shit faced boyfriend, slurring every word to the song. When Ray saw me coming down, he stopped playing, and smiled at me. Then Mikey stopped, and eventually the rest of them did. They knew something was up since I never come down during rehearsals.
"Hey there sweet thaaang." Gerard slurred
"Gerard, I really need to speak with you.. Now."
"I'm all ears, sugar."
I sat down on the couch, and he sat next to me. I felt the tears threaten to spill out.
"Gerard, I love you more than anything on earth, but I don't know you anymore. I've never seen you like this! I've begged you countless times to stop drinking, but you still don't listen to me. Gerard, this has all become too much for me! I-I can't take it anymore! I barley see you, and when I do, your drunk!" the tears started running down my face. "G-Gerard. I need you to get better. If not for me, then for you. I hate seeing you hurting like this!" I took a deep breath, and looked him in the eye. "I-I'm gonna leave you, Gerard. Until you get better. I've tried everything I possibly could, but nothing works. I can't do this anymore. I just can't. I love you with all my heart, and I want you to remember that... If you still love me by the time you get better, then call me." I wiped my tears, and stood up. "Goodbye, Gerard. I hope you get better soon." I packed up my things, and headed to Kyliee's house.
Spending the day with Gerard's family was amazing. They're all so kind and loving. Even the cousins he warned me about. at first they were acting like little shit heads, but then when we started watching the movie, Genni started talking to me as if I were her big sister. It was nice knowing that I was able to make the cousins that hate everyone actually like me.
Everyone went home about an hour ago. It was now almost 12am so Gee and I went to sleep.
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I woke up around 9:30am, and saw that Gee had already left for work. He had to work late today, so I was home alone. I guess I can go back to work now since I'm not pregnant anymore, but I kinda like having free time. I get a lot of time to myself. I was beginning to get incredibly bored by the afternoon. Being only 18, I still have a shit load of energy. I knew Kyliee and Jess both worked, so I couldn't call them. Am I the only one in the world that doesn't work?! I decided to just draw something for a while, maybe pass the time. I looked through my draws to find my sketch book, when I found a notebook full of songs. The lyrics were amazing!
I heard the sound of the door being unlocked, so I put the notebook back, and headed downstairs.
"Hey honey. How was your day?" he asked
"It was pretty good. How about yours?"
"Eh. The usual. Look I have some news."
"What is it?"
"I quit my job to start a band."
******5 months later*******
Time went on, and Gee, and Mikey had found three other guys, Frank Iero, Ray Toro, and Matt Pelissier, to form a band called My Chemical Romance. Mikey came up with the name. They were really good-no amazing. Gee really loved doing this. He quit his illustrating job when the band started, and It's kinda all gone downhill from there. I barley see him anymore. He's always rehearsing, or touring around with the band, looking for a basement to play in. He's also started to get heavy into alcohol. It's become uncontrollable now. I barely know him anymore! He isn't the same. At all. He's barley sober, and I can't handle him anymore. I've begged him countless times to stop, but he just doesn't listen. It hurts me so goddamn much to just watch him change so drastically. I hugged my knees to my chest and cried for hours. No one came upstairs since they were all in the basement getting drunk and rehearsing. I think Mikey and Ray were the only sober ones. I knew Gee was completely wasted. I could hear it in his voice as he sang. I got up off the floor, wiped my face, and headed to the basement. I've tried everything. Now it's come to this.
I slowly walked down the stairs, and saw my shit faced boyfriend, slurring every word to the song. When Ray saw me coming down, he stopped playing, and smiled at me. Then Mikey stopped, and eventually the rest of them did. They knew something was up since I never come down during rehearsals.
"Hey there sweet thaaang." Gerard slurred
"Gerard, I really need to speak with you.. Now."
"I'm all ears, sugar."
I sat down on the couch, and he sat next to me. I felt the tears threaten to spill out.
"Gerard, I love you more than anything on earth, but I don't know you anymore. I've never seen you like this! I've begged you countless times to stop drinking, but you still don't listen to me. Gerard, this has all become too much for me! I-I can't take it anymore! I barley see you, and when I do, your drunk!" the tears started running down my face. "G-Gerard. I need you to get better. If not for me, then for you. I hate seeing you hurting like this!" I took a deep breath, and looked him in the eye. "I-I'm gonna leave you, Gerard. Until you get better. I've tried everything I possibly could, but nothing works. I can't do this anymore. I just can't. I love you with all my heart, and I want you to remember that... If you still love me by the time you get better, then call me." I wiped my tears, and stood up. "Goodbye, Gerard. I hope you get better soon." I packed up my things, and headed to Kyliee's house.
OMG that was so sad when Gerard was begging for forgiveness :'(
1/11/14