Save Me From My Self Destruction
It Was Only A Dream
***Gerard's POV***
I opened my eyes and saw Chrissi looking down at me with terror and concern in her eyes.
"B-Baby whats wrong?" I asked nervously
"What's wrong? I should be asking you that! Gee you were screaming my name, and crying in your sleep! Is everything alright, baby?"
I put my hand on my forehead and felt it covered in sweat. Now it all came back to me. I was having the most horrific nightmare.
"Baby answer me. A-Are you alright? You want me to bring you water or something?" she
asked
"N-No i-it's fine. It was only a bad dream."
"Aww Gee. It's okay, it was only a dream." she kissed my nose
"Chrissi, it was the most realistic dream I've ever had!"
"What was it about?"
"Sugar.. In my dream, you-you didn't make it after you gave birth. Baby it was the worst dream I've ever had! What if that actually happens!? What if something happens to you?!" I could feel the tears running down my face
"Shhh shh everything is going to be okay, Gee. Don't worry, I'm fine, see! Nothings going to happen to me, okay? Now come on, lets try and get some more sleep." she said while whipping my tears with the sleeve of her shirt.
"Chris I'm not tired anymore. I-I'm just gonna sit on the couch and watch TV or something."
"Wait. I'll go with you." she said getting out of bed
"But sugar, you're tired. I don't wanna keep you up."
"No, no it's fine. I'm starting to wake up now anyway."
I picked her up bridal style, and walked down the stairs with her snuggled in my arms. I layed her on the couch, and lightly kissed her forehead as I sat next to her. I wrapped a blanket around us and held her close. I can't stop re-living that dream. That feeling of being lost and alone stayed with me. I looked at her beautiful, sleeping face, and lightly stroked her cheek.
It was now 6:37am, so I got up off the couch, and made myself a cup of coffee. I was pretty exhausted from last night, so I made myself a double shot espresso. I sat at the kitchen table with my cup of fresh coffee in my hands, and started ti doodle a bit in my sketch pad, until I heard Chris get up, and run to the bathroom with her hand over her mouth. I got up, and walked into the bathroom doorway, and saw her leaned over the toilet
***Chrissi's POV***
I woke up on the couch with a horrible feeling in my stomach. Fuck. Morning sickness. I felt like I was about to vomit, so I covered my mouth, and ran to the bathroom. I heard Gee step in the doorway, and then he came over to me, and rubbed my back with one hand, and then other holding my hair back.
"Alright, sugar, let it all out." he cooed
I finished and and instantly washed my mouth out with mouth wash.
'"Are you feeling okay, sugar?"
"Y-Yeah. This has been happening almost every morning for two weeks. I'm used to it by now."
"Aww baby. I don't want you to have to go through this every morning."
He put his hands on my stomach and knelt down so that my stomach and his face were leveled
"You be good to mommy, you hear me?" he said playfully
"Come on, sugar. I made you coffee."
We both sat in the kitchen drinking our coffees for almost two hours. He decided he would try to apply for a job today. He wanted to do something with comics, so he was applying for an illustrating job.
"Alright Chris. It's almost 10am so I'm gonna go apply for that job. I'll call you when I'm done. Maybe we can go for dinner or something?"
"Sure. That sounds nice."
"Alright I'll see you in a bit. I love you." he said, walking out the door.
"Love you too."
I cleaned up a bit around the house, and heard Mikey coming down the stairs.
"Oh goodmoring, Chris. What's up?" he said in a sleepy voice
"Nothing really just cleaning around the house. Gee went to apply for a job a few minutes ago, so I'm gonna head out and do something in a bit."
"Oh nice. Mind if I tag along?"
"No not at all! That'd be really fun actually."
We got dressed, and went to the mall since there was nothing better to do.
"So I heard that you and Gerard are expecting. Congratulations!"
"Oh haha.. Thanks." he could probably tell I wasn't too thrilled about this.
"So how are things with you and Alicia going?"
"Pretty good. She actually wants you to tattoo her. You think you'd be up for that?"
"Yeah sure of course. Does she wanna get it done today?"
"She said whenever you're available so yeah I'm sure she'd be up for that."
He gave her a call, and from what I could hear on the phone, she sounded pretty excited.
"Alright she's fine with today."
We left the mall, and drove home. I'm not working as of right now, since Gee wanted me to take it easy, but I had all I needed for tattooing at home, so this wasn't a problem. After almost 40 minutes of being home, Alicia rang the doorbell, and I was ready to begin. She wanted the same tattoo as Mikey, so this should be easy. The tattoo took me a little over an hour.
"Wow Chris! It's amazing! Thank you so much!"
"Oh no problem! Honestly, you guys look absolutely adorable with your matching tats."
They both giggled, and Mikey pulled her into a big kiss. Aww how cute!
"So you ladies wanna go out and do something? Maybe go back to the mall since we only spent five minutes there?" Mikey asked
"Sure why not." I said
I called Gee up, but got his voicemail, so I left a message.
"Hey babe. Mikey, Alicia, and I are going to the mall. Whenever you're done meet us there, okay? Love you. Bye"
We all got into the car, with Mikey and Alicia in the front, and me third wheeling in the back.
We walked around a bit, just having a good time, until I noticed someone making out with a girl in front of the ice cream stand.
Erik?!
I opened my eyes and saw Chrissi looking down at me with terror and concern in her eyes.
"B-Baby whats wrong?" I asked nervously
"What's wrong? I should be asking you that! Gee you were screaming my name, and crying in your sleep! Is everything alright, baby?"
I put my hand on my forehead and felt it covered in sweat. Now it all came back to me. I was having the most horrific nightmare.
"Baby answer me. A-Are you alright? You want me to bring you water or something?" she
asked
"N-No i-it's fine. It was only a bad dream."
"Aww Gee. It's okay, it was only a dream." she kissed my nose
"Chrissi, it was the most realistic dream I've ever had!"
"What was it about?"
"Sugar.. In my dream, you-you didn't make it after you gave birth. Baby it was the worst dream I've ever had! What if that actually happens!? What if something happens to you?!" I could feel the tears running down my face
"Shhh shh everything is going to be okay, Gee. Don't worry, I'm fine, see! Nothings going to happen to me, okay? Now come on, lets try and get some more sleep." she said while whipping my tears with the sleeve of her shirt.
"Chris I'm not tired anymore. I-I'm just gonna sit on the couch and watch TV or something."
"Wait. I'll go with you." she said getting out of bed
"But sugar, you're tired. I don't wanna keep you up."
"No, no it's fine. I'm starting to wake up now anyway."
I picked her up bridal style, and walked down the stairs with her snuggled in my arms. I layed her on the couch, and lightly kissed her forehead as I sat next to her. I wrapped a blanket around us and held her close. I can't stop re-living that dream. That feeling of being lost and alone stayed with me. I looked at her beautiful, sleeping face, and lightly stroked her cheek.
It was now 6:37am, so I got up off the couch, and made myself a cup of coffee. I was pretty exhausted from last night, so I made myself a double shot espresso. I sat at the kitchen table with my cup of fresh coffee in my hands, and started ti doodle a bit in my sketch pad, until I heard Chris get up, and run to the bathroom with her hand over her mouth. I got up, and walked into the bathroom doorway, and saw her leaned over the toilet
***Chrissi's POV***
I woke up on the couch with a horrible feeling in my stomach. Fuck. Morning sickness. I felt like I was about to vomit, so I covered my mouth, and ran to the bathroom. I heard Gee step in the doorway, and then he came over to me, and rubbed my back with one hand, and then other holding my hair back.
"Alright, sugar, let it all out." he cooed
I finished and and instantly washed my mouth out with mouth wash.
'"Are you feeling okay, sugar?"
"Y-Yeah. This has been happening almost every morning for two weeks. I'm used to it by now."
"Aww baby. I don't want you to have to go through this every morning."
He put his hands on my stomach and knelt down so that my stomach and his face were leveled
"You be good to mommy, you hear me?" he said playfully
"Come on, sugar. I made you coffee."
We both sat in the kitchen drinking our coffees for almost two hours. He decided he would try to apply for a job today. He wanted to do something with comics, so he was applying for an illustrating job.
"Alright Chris. It's almost 10am so I'm gonna go apply for that job. I'll call you when I'm done. Maybe we can go for dinner or something?"
"Sure. That sounds nice."
"Alright I'll see you in a bit. I love you." he said, walking out the door.
"Love you too."
I cleaned up a bit around the house, and heard Mikey coming down the stairs.
"Oh goodmoring, Chris. What's up?" he said in a sleepy voice
"Nothing really just cleaning around the house. Gee went to apply for a job a few minutes ago, so I'm gonna head out and do something in a bit."
"Oh nice. Mind if I tag along?"
"No not at all! That'd be really fun actually."
We got dressed, and went to the mall since there was nothing better to do.
"So I heard that you and Gerard are expecting. Congratulations!"
"Oh haha.. Thanks." he could probably tell I wasn't too thrilled about this.
"So how are things with you and Alicia going?"
"Pretty good. She actually wants you to tattoo her. You think you'd be up for that?"
"Yeah sure of course. Does she wanna get it done today?"
"She said whenever you're available so yeah I'm sure she'd be up for that."
He gave her a call, and from what I could hear on the phone, she sounded pretty excited.
"Alright she's fine with today."
We left the mall, and drove home. I'm not working as of right now, since Gee wanted me to take it easy, but I had all I needed for tattooing at home, so this wasn't a problem. After almost 40 minutes of being home, Alicia rang the doorbell, and I was ready to begin. She wanted the same tattoo as Mikey, so this should be easy. The tattoo took me a little over an hour.
"Wow Chris! It's amazing! Thank you so much!"
"Oh no problem! Honestly, you guys look absolutely adorable with your matching tats."
They both giggled, and Mikey pulled her into a big kiss. Aww how cute!
"So you ladies wanna go out and do something? Maybe go back to the mall since we only spent five minutes there?" Mikey asked
"Sure why not." I said
I called Gee up, but got his voicemail, so I left a message.
"Hey babe. Mikey, Alicia, and I are going to the mall. Whenever you're done meet us there, okay? Love you. Bye"
We all got into the car, with Mikey and Alicia in the front, and me third wheeling in the back.
We walked around a bit, just having a good time, until I noticed someone making out with a girl in front of the ice cream stand.
Erik?!
OMG that was so sad when Gerard was begging for forgiveness :'(
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