Save Me From My Self Destruction
It'll All Work Out In The End
***Gerard's POV***
Of course I wasn't thrilled, actually, I was pretty scared, no- petrified How was I supposed to be a father? How was I supposed to care for Chrissi, AND a child? I'm going to be a complete failure as a father. I mean Chris is going to be the most amazing mother I could ever imagine. But me? I know nothing about parenting! What if my own child hates me? I just layed there with my head on her stomach and closed my eyes, thinking about all the possible outcomes.
"I can't do this, Gee." she said softly
"What are you talking about, sugar?"
"I mean I just can't have a kid at 17. I'm too young! You're too young! There's no way this could possibly work out."
"We'll figure something out, okay? And you know I'll be there for you, whenever you need me." I stroked her soft hand, and then kissed her knuckles.
"Okay, Gee. I love you." she said, running her fingers through my knotted hair.
"I love you too, sugar."
"Wait, Chrissi? Have you been having morning sickness?"
"Uhm.. yeah."
"Why haven't you told me, baby?"
"It usually happens really early, like at 7am. I didn't want t wake you up or anything."
"Aw sugar. I wouldn't mind if you woke me up! Especially if you're feeling sick."
She layed her head on my chest and I stroked her hair.
"Babe? You need to tell Mikey...... and your parents.."
Fuck!
"Oh.. Yeah.. I forgot about them.."
I got my phone, and dialed my parent's number.
"Hey honey, how are you?" said my mom
"Hey mom, I'm good. Look theres something very important that I need to tell you."
"Okay, Gerard, tell me."
"W-Well.. Uhm.. Chrissi is kinda.... pregnant."
There was a long, uncomfortable silence.
"Is-is it yours?"
"Yes of course, mom."
"Gerard Arthur Way I am very disappointed in you... She's only 17 years old! You're only 22! The both of you are way too young to be parents!"
"I know, mom! You think I wanted this to happen? It just happened! There is nothing we can do. Look, I'm sorry, but I can't do anything about it."
"I'm not the one you should be apologizing to.."
Another uncomfortable pause..
"Gerard, I would suggest that you get a job soon, so you'll be able to support a family.."
"Alright mom, I'll try. But please don't be mad at Chris or anything."
"Why on earth would I be mad at her? She did nothing wrong. You know what? Put her on the phone, I wanna talk to her."
"Oh uh.. Okay.." I said
"Hey babes? My mom wants to talk to you." I said handing the phone to Chris
"Does she hate me?"
"No not at all." I said pecking her lips
***Chrissi's POV***
Gee gave me the phone. Fuck. Already his mom probably hates me.
"H-Hello?"
"Hey sweetie! It's Donna. So um Gerard told me what happened and I just wanted to let you know that if you need anything, just give me a call, okay? And also, I want you to tell me if my son isn't helping you, or giving you a hard time." we both laughed
"Of course. Thank you so much for being so understanding."
"Oh no problem, darling! I want you to call me at least twice a week though. Just to keep me updated on how things are going."
"Okay, no problem."
"Alright Chris, let me talk to Gerard, please."
"Sure."
She spoke to Gee for 5 minutes. He kept looking over at me and flashing me his warm, comforting smile.
"Is everything okay?" I asked
"Yep. She was just telling me how I need to get a job and shit."
"Oh.... What kind of job do you think your gonna get?"
"I dunno. Probably something to do with comics."
"I'm just gonna keep tattooing." I said happily.
"Wait, baby I don't want you working while you're pregnant. I don't want you feeling overwhelmed or anything. I just want you to take it easy and relax, okay sugar?"
"But Gee we need to be able to support a child! I mean how are we gonna have enough money?"
"Shh don't worry about that. I'll take care of it, okay? I don't want you to worry about anything. It'll all work out I promise."
"Are you sure? Cause I mean, tattooing isn't that hard."
"No sugar. I want you to just take it easy. I don't want anything to happen to you cause you know.. I heard that a lot of shit happens during pregnancy, and I swear, babes if anything happened to you... I-I don't even know what I'd do. So please, for me just take it easy, okay?"
"Alright, Gee. For you." I smiled
Kyles came back with Hot Topic bags in her hands.
"Hey Chris. Hey Chris's boo." she laughed
"Chris's 'boo' has a name you know." Gee said laughing
"So I see things worked out. Do you guys know what you're going to do."
We explained to her everything that happened in the past 2 hours that she's been gone.
"Well thats good. I got you guys something." she said while handing us the Hot Topic bag.
It was a baby outfit with the Misfits band logo on it.
"Aww how cute! Thanks Kyles." I hugged her
"This is so adorable." Gee said
"When I saw it, I knew I had to get it for you guys
"Its awesome!" I said
After a while of laughing, and talking, Gee and I decided to go home, since it was 10pm. When we got home, I was completely exhausted, so I went straight to the bedroom, and fell asleep.
***Gerard's POV***
I followed Chrissi upstairs when I finished my coffee. When I walked into the room, I noticed she was peacefully sleeping. I didn't want to wake her up, so I went into the living room, and waited for Mikey to come home, so I could tell him the news. Mikes has spent most of the 11 months I've been dating Chris, Mikey's been pretty distant. He's practically been living with Alicia.
Mikey opened the front door, and came in the living room, breaking me from my thoughts.
"Hey bro. What's up?" he said
"Nothing really. I was just waiting for you to come home. I kinda need to tell you something. But I also have a question."
"Um alright, shoot."
"Is there something wrong? I mean you've been really distant ever since I started dating Chris. Do you not like her or something?"
"No no not at all. I mean, I love Chris like a sister, but you never wanna hang out with me anymore. Remember when we used to do everything together? We barely see each other now. Like I said, Chrissi's like a sister to me, but you always put her first. Trust me I understand you love her, and I can't really blame you, but I'm still here. I still wanna do things with you. Maybe go see a baseball game, or maybe see a concert, whatever. I just miss you, Gerard."
"I-I'm so sorry Mikes. I didn't realize I've been that dismissive. You wanna do something this weekend? Just you and I? No girlfriends."
"I'd love to, Gerard. Thanks. Now what did you need to tell me?"
"Oh, um well, Chrissi and I are, you know.... expecting."
"Gerard, define 'expecting'."
"She's um.. pregnant."
"A-Are you serious? "
"Mikes I wish I was joking."
"Oh shit. Well it's yours right?"
"Yes of course."
"What are you guys gonna do?"
"Well I'm gonna have to get a job. Hopefully it'll all work out."
"Well look Gerard. If you find yourselves struggling, I'll gladly help you guys out. Alicia will too."
"No Mikes you don't have to do anything."
"I want to though. I mean I'm the uncle. I should contribute something."
"Oh man.. Thanks Mikey. You're the best."
"Anything for my bro and his girl." he laughed.
"When did you guys find out?"
"This evening. About 6 hours ago."
"Do mom and dad know?"
"Yep. Look I'm gonna head up to bed, okay? It's been a super long day, so I'm extremely tired. Goodnight. Love you."
"Alright Gerard. I hope everything works out. Love you too. Night."
I went up to my room, and didn't even bother changing into PJ's. I layed next to Chrissi, and kissed her lightly on the cheek.
"Love you, sugar. Sweet dreams." I whispered
I then wrapped my arms around her and fell asleep, only to be woken up hours later by my girlfriend, who had a look of terror, and concern on her face...
Of course I wasn't thrilled, actually, I was pretty scared, no- petrified How was I supposed to be a father? How was I supposed to care for Chrissi, AND a child? I'm going to be a complete failure as a father. I mean Chris is going to be the most amazing mother I could ever imagine. But me? I know nothing about parenting! What if my own child hates me? I just layed there with my head on her stomach and closed my eyes, thinking about all the possible outcomes.
"I can't do this, Gee." she said softly
"What are you talking about, sugar?"
"I mean I just can't have a kid at 17. I'm too young! You're too young! There's no way this could possibly work out."
"We'll figure something out, okay? And you know I'll be there for you, whenever you need me." I stroked her soft hand, and then kissed her knuckles.
"Okay, Gee. I love you." she said, running her fingers through my knotted hair.
"I love you too, sugar."
"Wait, Chrissi? Have you been having morning sickness?"
"Uhm.. yeah."
"Why haven't you told me, baby?"
"It usually happens really early, like at 7am. I didn't want t wake you up or anything."
"Aw sugar. I wouldn't mind if you woke me up! Especially if you're feeling sick."
She layed her head on my chest and I stroked her hair.
"Babe? You need to tell Mikey...... and your parents.."
Fuck!
"Oh.. Yeah.. I forgot about them.."
I got my phone, and dialed my parent's number.
"Hey honey, how are you?" said my mom
"Hey mom, I'm good. Look theres something very important that I need to tell you."
"Okay, Gerard, tell me."
"W-Well.. Uhm.. Chrissi is kinda.... pregnant."
There was a long, uncomfortable silence.
"Is-is it yours?"
"Yes of course, mom."
"Gerard Arthur Way I am very disappointed in you... She's only 17 years old! You're only 22! The both of you are way too young to be parents!"
"I know, mom! You think I wanted this to happen? It just happened! There is nothing we can do. Look, I'm sorry, but I can't do anything about it."
"I'm not the one you should be apologizing to.."
Another uncomfortable pause..
"Gerard, I would suggest that you get a job soon, so you'll be able to support a family.."
"Alright mom, I'll try. But please don't be mad at Chris or anything."
"Why on earth would I be mad at her? She did nothing wrong. You know what? Put her on the phone, I wanna talk to her."
"Oh uh.. Okay.." I said
"Hey babes? My mom wants to talk to you." I said handing the phone to Chris
"Does she hate me?"
"No not at all." I said pecking her lips
***Chrissi's POV***
Gee gave me the phone. Fuck. Already his mom probably hates me.
"H-Hello?"
"Hey sweetie! It's Donna. So um Gerard told me what happened and I just wanted to let you know that if you need anything, just give me a call, okay? And also, I want you to tell me if my son isn't helping you, or giving you a hard time." we both laughed
"Of course. Thank you so much for being so understanding."
"Oh no problem, darling! I want you to call me at least twice a week though. Just to keep me updated on how things are going."
"Okay, no problem."
"Alright Chris, let me talk to Gerard, please."
"Sure."
She spoke to Gee for 5 minutes. He kept looking over at me and flashing me his warm, comforting smile.
"Is everything okay?" I asked
"Yep. She was just telling me how I need to get a job and shit."
"Oh.... What kind of job do you think your gonna get?"
"I dunno. Probably something to do with comics."
"I'm just gonna keep tattooing." I said happily.
"Wait, baby I don't want you working while you're pregnant. I don't want you feeling overwhelmed or anything. I just want you to take it easy and relax, okay sugar?"
"But Gee we need to be able to support a child! I mean how are we gonna have enough money?"
"Shh don't worry about that. I'll take care of it, okay? I don't want you to worry about anything. It'll all work out I promise."
"Are you sure? Cause I mean, tattooing isn't that hard."
"No sugar. I want you to just take it easy. I don't want anything to happen to you cause you know.. I heard that a lot of shit happens during pregnancy, and I swear, babes if anything happened to you... I-I don't even know what I'd do. So please, for me just take it easy, okay?"
"Alright, Gee. For you." I smiled
Kyles came back with Hot Topic bags in her hands.
"Hey Chris. Hey Chris's boo." she laughed
"Chris's 'boo' has a name you know." Gee said laughing
"So I see things worked out. Do you guys know what you're going to do."
We explained to her everything that happened in the past 2 hours that she's been gone.
"Well thats good. I got you guys something." she said while handing us the Hot Topic bag.
It was a baby outfit with the Misfits band logo on it.
"Aww how cute! Thanks Kyles." I hugged her
"This is so adorable." Gee said
"When I saw it, I knew I had to get it for you guys
"Its awesome!" I said
After a while of laughing, and talking, Gee and I decided to go home, since it was 10pm. When we got home, I was completely exhausted, so I went straight to the bedroom, and fell asleep.
***Gerard's POV***
I followed Chrissi upstairs when I finished my coffee. When I walked into the room, I noticed she was peacefully sleeping. I didn't want to wake her up, so I went into the living room, and waited for Mikey to come home, so I could tell him the news. Mikes has spent most of the 11 months I've been dating Chris, Mikey's been pretty distant. He's practically been living with Alicia.
Mikey opened the front door, and came in the living room, breaking me from my thoughts.
"Hey bro. What's up?" he said
"Nothing really. I was just waiting for you to come home. I kinda need to tell you something. But I also have a question."
"Um alright, shoot."
"Is there something wrong? I mean you've been really distant ever since I started dating Chris. Do you not like her or something?"
"No no not at all. I mean, I love Chris like a sister, but you never wanna hang out with me anymore. Remember when we used to do everything together? We barely see each other now. Like I said, Chrissi's like a sister to me, but you always put her first. Trust me I understand you love her, and I can't really blame you, but I'm still here. I still wanna do things with you. Maybe go see a baseball game, or maybe see a concert, whatever. I just miss you, Gerard."
"I-I'm so sorry Mikes. I didn't realize I've been that dismissive. You wanna do something this weekend? Just you and I? No girlfriends."
"I'd love to, Gerard. Thanks. Now what did you need to tell me?"
"Oh, um well, Chrissi and I are, you know.... expecting."
"Gerard, define 'expecting'."
"She's um.. pregnant."
"A-Are you serious? "
"Mikes I wish I was joking."
"Oh shit. Well it's yours right?"
"Yes of course."
"What are you guys gonna do?"
"Well I'm gonna have to get a job. Hopefully it'll all work out."
"Well look Gerard. If you find yourselves struggling, I'll gladly help you guys out. Alicia will too."
"No Mikes you don't have to do anything."
"I want to though. I mean I'm the uncle. I should contribute something."
"Oh man.. Thanks Mikey. You're the best."
"Anything for my bro and his girl." he laughed.
"When did you guys find out?"
"This evening. About 6 hours ago."
"Do mom and dad know?"
"Yep. Look I'm gonna head up to bed, okay? It's been a super long day, so I'm extremely tired. Goodnight. Love you."
"Alright Gerard. I hope everything works out. Love you too. Night."
I went up to my room, and didn't even bother changing into PJ's. I layed next to Chrissi, and kissed her lightly on the cheek.
"Love you, sugar. Sweet dreams." I whispered
I then wrapped my arms around her and fell asleep, only to be woken up hours later by my girlfriend, who had a look of terror, and concern on her face...
OMG that was so sad when Gerard was begging for forgiveness :'(
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