Save Me From My Self Destruction
You'll Be fine, Don't Worry
Positive....
.I sat on the bathroom floor in disbelief. Positive. Tears began to roll down my face. What's gonna happen now? What's gonna happen to my life? What's going to happen to Gerard? How will he handle this? Will he be mad, happy, excited?! Maybe all at once? What if he leaves me? What if it's too soon, and too much for him to handle? Oh god why me?!
"Chrissi? Is everything okay in there?" I heard kyles yell
"Uh um uh... Y-Yeah e-everything is fine." I lied
"Really Chris? I'm not that stupid. I've been your best friend for 10 years, do you honestly think I don't know when something's wrong? Now come on, let me in."
I unlocked the door, and she came in to see me crying on the floor. She pulled my hair out of my face, and pulled me into a hug.
"Shhh everything is going to be okay. Don't worry."
"No Kyles, it's not. Gerard's gonna leave me I know it."
"No he's not! He would never leave you, Chris. He loves you more than anything and you know that."
"Not after that fight." I sobbed
"Chrissi, one fight isn't going to change his love for you. He just needed time to cool off. I'm sure he feels horrible too, okay? Don't worry so much, and don't ever think that he would leave you because he would never do anything like that."
"What do I do, Kyliee?"
"First you HAVE to tell Gerard. He's the father, and he deserves to know first. Then I would suggest going to a doctor to get everything checked out."
"Do I have to tell him today?"
"Chrissi, don't be stupid. Of course you do. If you want, I'll call him to come right now, and you two can sort this out here. I'll go somewhere to give you guys privacy."
"Uhm. I don't know. Do you think he's still mad?"
"Probably not, I mean how could he stay mad at you? He's never been able to." she laughed
"I guess you're right."
"When have I been known to be wrong?" she joked
"Alright, I'll give him a call. Why don't you wash up a bit to get the tears out of your eyes." she suggested
"Okay. I just hope all goes well."
"Don't worry Chris, it will."
***Gerard's POV***
Honestly I felt terrible for what happened this afternoon. Chrissi's been through a lot lately, and she doesn't deserve me being a complete ass hole. I tried calling her until I realized she left her phone here, so I just sat on the couch, and watched TV while I waited for her to come home so I could apologize After a long time of waiting, I took a nap, hoping that when I woke up, my baby would be home.
*********
I woke up to the sound of my phone buzzing next to my ear.
"Uh hello?" I asked tiredly
"Hey Gerard, it's Kyliee. Um do you think you could come over here, like now?"
"Yeah of course. Is Chrissi with you? Did something happen to her!?"
"Yes, she's with me, and no nothing happened to her. Just get over here, okay?"
"Okay, I'll be there in 10 minutes."
I put on a leather jacket, got into my car, and drove to Kyliee's house
***Chrissi's POV***
I was completely freaking out. How the hell am I supposed to tell him that I'm pregnant?! At 17?! What was I going to say? How was I going to say it? Just then, Gerard knocked at the door. Oh boy..
"Just relax, everything will be fine, okay?" Kyles reassured me
She answered the door greeted him, and left to occupy herself to give us privacy. Then in came Gerard with a concerned look on his face. He rushed over to where I was sitting, and kissed me on the lips.
"Sugar, before you say anything, I just want to let you know how sorry I am. I had no right to treat you that way, I-I was being a complete ass, and you don't deserve that at all. I love you with all my heart, and nothing will ever change that, okay?"
"Okay, Gee. I love you too. Now theres something I really, really need to tell you."
"I'm all ears, baby." He said pushing away some hair off my face
"Gee, honestly I have absolutely no idea how to say this..." My hands were shaking, and I knew he noticed since his grip on my hand he was stroking tightened
"What is it, sugar?" concern filed his voice
"Gee, I-I-I.... I'm p-pregnant."
All the color completely drained from his face. He looked as if he was about to pass out.
"A-A-Are you s-sure?" he asked
"Yes, Gee. I am so fucking sorry I-"
"Shh. Don't be sorry, sweetie. Everything will work out, I promise."
I began to cry into his shoulder, and he stroked my back.
"Gee, are you even ready?"
"I mean no... But we have nine months. We have plenty of time to prepare ourselves.
"B-But I'm nowhere near ready! We still have our lives ahead of us! We have futures!"
"I know, I know baby, but theres nothing we can do about this now, so we're just gonna have to look at the positive side of things."
"I'm gonna be a horrible mother, Gee." I sobbed
"Shh. No Chrissi, don't ever say that! You're going to be the best mother in the world. I mean even though this is a bit sooner than I had hoped for, I always knew that you were going to be the mother of my children. Baby, you are going to be amazing, okay?"
He put his hand on my stomach, and then kissed it.
"Best mommy in the world." he said smiling at me
"I love you so much, babe." I said
"Love you too. Forever and ever."
.I sat on the bathroom floor in disbelief. Positive. Tears began to roll down my face. What's gonna happen now? What's gonna happen to my life? What's going to happen to Gerard? How will he handle this? Will he be mad, happy, excited?! Maybe all at once? What if he leaves me? What if it's too soon, and too much for him to handle? Oh god why me?!
"Chrissi? Is everything okay in there?" I heard kyles yell
"Uh um uh... Y-Yeah e-everything is fine." I lied
"Really Chris? I'm not that stupid. I've been your best friend for 10 years, do you honestly think I don't know when something's wrong? Now come on, let me in."
I unlocked the door, and she came in to see me crying on the floor. She pulled my hair out of my face, and pulled me into a hug.
"Shhh everything is going to be okay. Don't worry."
"No Kyles, it's not. Gerard's gonna leave me I know it."
"No he's not! He would never leave you, Chris. He loves you more than anything and you know that."
"Not after that fight." I sobbed
"Chrissi, one fight isn't going to change his love for you. He just needed time to cool off. I'm sure he feels horrible too, okay? Don't worry so much, and don't ever think that he would leave you because he would never do anything like that."
"What do I do, Kyliee?"
"First you HAVE to tell Gerard. He's the father, and he deserves to know first. Then I would suggest going to a doctor to get everything checked out."
"Do I have to tell him today?"
"Chrissi, don't be stupid. Of course you do. If you want, I'll call him to come right now, and you two can sort this out here. I'll go somewhere to give you guys privacy."
"Uhm. I don't know. Do you think he's still mad?"
"Probably not, I mean how could he stay mad at you? He's never been able to." she laughed
"I guess you're right."
"When have I been known to be wrong?" she joked
"Alright, I'll give him a call. Why don't you wash up a bit to get the tears out of your eyes." she suggested
"Okay. I just hope all goes well."
"Don't worry Chris, it will."
***Gerard's POV***
Honestly I felt terrible for what happened this afternoon. Chrissi's been through a lot lately, and she doesn't deserve me being a complete ass hole. I tried calling her until I realized she left her phone here, so I just sat on the couch, and watched TV while I waited for her to come home so I could apologize After a long time of waiting, I took a nap, hoping that when I woke up, my baby would be home.
*********
I woke up to the sound of my phone buzzing next to my ear.
"Uh hello?" I asked tiredly
"Hey Gerard, it's Kyliee. Um do you think you could come over here, like now?"
"Yeah of course. Is Chrissi with you? Did something happen to her!?"
"Yes, she's with me, and no nothing happened to her. Just get over here, okay?"
"Okay, I'll be there in 10 minutes."
I put on a leather jacket, got into my car, and drove to Kyliee's house
***Chrissi's POV***
I was completely freaking out. How the hell am I supposed to tell him that I'm pregnant?! At 17?! What was I going to say? How was I going to say it? Just then, Gerard knocked at the door. Oh boy..
"Just relax, everything will be fine, okay?" Kyles reassured me
She answered the door greeted him, and left to occupy herself to give us privacy. Then in came Gerard with a concerned look on his face. He rushed over to where I was sitting, and kissed me on the lips.
"Sugar, before you say anything, I just want to let you know how sorry I am. I had no right to treat you that way, I-I was being a complete ass, and you don't deserve that at all. I love you with all my heart, and nothing will ever change that, okay?"
"Okay, Gee. I love you too. Now theres something I really, really need to tell you."
"I'm all ears, baby." He said pushing away some hair off my face
"Gee, honestly I have absolutely no idea how to say this..." My hands were shaking, and I knew he noticed since his grip on my hand he was stroking tightened
"What is it, sugar?" concern filed his voice
"Gee, I-I-I.... I'm p-pregnant."
All the color completely drained from his face. He looked as if he was about to pass out.
"A-A-Are you s-sure?" he asked
"Yes, Gee. I am so fucking sorry I-"
"Shh. Don't be sorry, sweetie. Everything will work out, I promise."
I began to cry into his shoulder, and he stroked my back.
"Gee, are you even ready?"
"I mean no... But we have nine months. We have plenty of time to prepare ourselves.
"B-But I'm nowhere near ready! We still have our lives ahead of us! We have futures!"
"I know, I know baby, but theres nothing we can do about this now, so we're just gonna have to look at the positive side of things."
"I'm gonna be a horrible mother, Gee." I sobbed
"Shh. No Chrissi, don't ever say that! You're going to be the best mother in the world. I mean even though this is a bit sooner than I had hoped for, I always knew that you were going to be the mother of my children. Baby, you are going to be amazing, okay?"
He put his hand on my stomach, and then kissed it.
"Best mommy in the world." he said smiling at me
"I love you so much, babe." I said
"Love you too. Forever and ever."
OMG that was so sad when Gerard was begging for forgiveness :'(
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