Save Me From My Self Destruction
It's Time To Move On
***Erik's POV***
I saw Chrissi walk into the shop, and did my best to dry my tears. This has probably been one of the hardest days of my life.
She walked into my office, and the tears came pouring down again. She looked at me sadly, with tears threatening to come down her face.
"W-Whats wrong?" she asked in a whisper
I felt a huge lump in my throat which made me unable to speak. I just shook my head and cried.
Chrissi came over to me and engulfed me into a hug. Then she started crying into my shoulder.
"E-Erik? P-Please don't tell me she... you know."
I cried even harder and harder
"N-No b-but we went to the h-hospital today, a-and they said-" I was cut off by my own sobs.
"They said that not even the chemo will help her this time. She doesn't have much longer Chris!"
Coming to that conclusion tore me in half. This is it. I'm going to loose my one true love, and there is nothing I can possibly do to save her. As much as I HATE to acknowledge that it has come to this, I know that this is the end.
Chrissi just sat there hugging me with a blank expression on her face. She almost looked dead.
Without saying a word, she got up, and left my office to start working.
***Chrissi's POV***
I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't just sit there and listen to Erik tell me that my sister- no- my best friend, wasn't going to make it.
I got up, and started putting my feelings into my work. I didn't really speak to any of my costumers. I felt bad, but I knew that if I started speaking, I would just feel like crying again.
***Erik's POV***
I sat in my office just thinking for what seemed like hours. Watching the love of my life slowly die in front of me was too hard to even imagine, and I know that it would just be too hard for me handle. I truly love Ali with all my heart, but I can't do this. I have to leave her. I need to be able to move on, so that way I know that I'll one day be able to live without her. This is probably going to be the hardest thing I'll ever have to do, but its something that has to be done, for my sake.
***Chrissi's POV***
I got home around 7:30pm, and saw Gerard taking a nap on the bed. He looked so adorable, I didn't want to wake him, so I just went into the kitchen, and made a sandwich.
Today had been a pretty hard day, with a lot to take in. When I finished my sandwich, I got in a hot shower to relax myself. The hot water felt so good against my skin. I never wanted to come out.
I eventually had to get out since I had been in there for almost 45 minutes. When I finished drying my hair, and putting my PJ's on, I had noticed my phone was buzzing. It was Alice.
"Hey Ali, how are you feeling?"
All I heard were loud sobs on the other side.
"E-E-Erik l-left me!"
"Wait..... What?!?" I asked hoping I had miss heard her.
"You heard me Chrissi!! He gone! He fucking left me!"
"Ali, how do you know he left you?"
"He left me a fucking note on the refrigerator saying, 'I'm sorry for the inconvenience, but I have to leave you. I'm sorry. -Erik xo'. "
That fucking bastard!
"Hold on, Alice. I'll be over in 10 minutes."
I saw Chrissi walk into the shop, and did my best to dry my tears. This has probably been one of the hardest days of my life.
She walked into my office, and the tears came pouring down again. She looked at me sadly, with tears threatening to come down her face.
"W-Whats wrong?" she asked in a whisper
I felt a huge lump in my throat which made me unable to speak. I just shook my head and cried.
Chrissi came over to me and engulfed me into a hug. Then she started crying into my shoulder.
"E-Erik? P-Please don't tell me she... you know."
I cried even harder and harder
"N-No b-but we went to the h-hospital today, a-and they said-" I was cut off by my own sobs.
"They said that not even the chemo will help her this time. She doesn't have much longer Chris!"
Coming to that conclusion tore me in half. This is it. I'm going to loose my one true love, and there is nothing I can possibly do to save her. As much as I HATE to acknowledge that it has come to this, I know that this is the end.
Chrissi just sat there hugging me with a blank expression on her face. She almost looked dead.
Without saying a word, she got up, and left my office to start working.
***Chrissi's POV***
I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't just sit there and listen to Erik tell me that my sister- no- my best friend, wasn't going to make it.
I got up, and started putting my feelings into my work. I didn't really speak to any of my costumers. I felt bad, but I knew that if I started speaking, I would just feel like crying again.
***Erik's POV***
I sat in my office just thinking for what seemed like hours. Watching the love of my life slowly die in front of me was too hard to even imagine, and I know that it would just be too hard for me handle. I truly love Ali with all my heart, but I can't do this. I have to leave her. I need to be able to move on, so that way I know that I'll one day be able to live without her. This is probably going to be the hardest thing I'll ever have to do, but its something that has to be done, for my sake.
***Chrissi's POV***
I got home around 7:30pm, and saw Gerard taking a nap on the bed. He looked so adorable, I didn't want to wake him, so I just went into the kitchen, and made a sandwich.
Today had been a pretty hard day, with a lot to take in. When I finished my sandwich, I got in a hot shower to relax myself. The hot water felt so good against my skin. I never wanted to come out.
I eventually had to get out since I had been in there for almost 45 minutes. When I finished drying my hair, and putting my PJ's on, I had noticed my phone was buzzing. It was Alice.
"Hey Ali, how are you feeling?"
All I heard were loud sobs on the other side.
"E-E-Erik l-left me!"
"Wait..... What?!?" I asked hoping I had miss heard her.
"You heard me Chrissi!! He gone! He fucking left me!"
"Ali, how do you know he left you?"
"He left me a fucking note on the refrigerator saying, 'I'm sorry for the inconvenience, but I have to leave you. I'm sorry. -Erik xo'. "
That fucking bastard!
"Hold on, Alice. I'll be over in 10 minutes."
OMG that was so sad when Gerard was begging for forgiveness :'(
1/11/14