Save Me From My Self Destruction
Everything Will Be Okay, I Promise
***Alice's POV***
"Well, I'm not gonna lie to you Chrissi. This is probably the worst I've ever had it. But don't you worry. You know me, I'm a fighter, and I ain't gonna loose this fight. I can promise you that."
"Alright Ali. Please just take care of yourself. Can you come over today?"
"Maybe. I'm a bit tired right now though, but I'll try, I promise." I felt bad, but I really was worn out.
"If your tired then it's fine. I don't want you to get overwhelmed or anything." she sounded as if she was crying.
"C-Chris, please just don't worry about me. I'll be fine, okay?"
"Alright. I love you Ali. Bye." she said
"I love you too Chris.Oh and tell Gerard I said hi."
"I will. See ya."
I'm very worried... For Chrissi's sake. I know I'm not going to make it this time, and I accept that. But she never would. I don't know what she would do, and I don't even want to think about that right now. All I wanna think about, is calling Gerard to tell him to take care of my sister while I'm going through this process, and especially when I'm gone. I dial his number, hoping that he'll pick up.
"Hello?" he said. Fuck. I could literally hear my sister's sobs in the background. This rips my heart into two.
"Hey, Gerard, It's Alice. Do you have a minute to talk? It's actually very important."
"Yeah sure. Just give me a second." I could hear him comforting my sister in the background.
"Hey Alice. How are you feeling? I am so incredibly sorry to hear that the cancer came back, but don't worry, Ali. Just stay strong and I know for sure you'll get through this."
"Thanks Gerard. Your words really do mean a lot to me. Now I really need to talk to you."
"I'm all ears"
"I need you to swear to me that you will ALWAYS be there for Chrissi. She's going to need you, Gerard. I know I'm not going to be around much longer, and I need to know that she's going to have someone that will always be there to protect her, and love her through thick and thin."
"Alice, I promise you that you will never EVER have to worry about that. I love Chrissi more than anything on earth. I promise you that I will always love and protect her. You have my word, Alice."
"Thank you, Gerard. Just to let you know that if you EVER hurt my sister, I promise you that I WILL haunt you, and make your life a fucking hell."
"Don't worry, Ali. I would never dream of even coming close to hurting her."
"Alright. Good. You know, I can already tell that your the one for my sister, and I would like to thank you for that."
Gerard thanked me and then we hung up. I started to feel a bit tired so I layed down, and took a nap.
***Chrissi's POV***
The tears just kept coming. I've been crying for over an hour now, and I feel horrible for Gee for putting him through this.
"Shh baby. Please stop crying, your gonna make yourself sick."
"I don't care. If anything ever happens to her I-I-I.. I don't know what I'd do."
Gerard wrapped his arms tighter around me and rocked me back and forth, stroking my hair, and softly singing to me, while I was curled up on his lap.
His shirt must've been soaked by now since I've been crying for nearly two hours on top of him. The only time he got up was when Ali called him. He said he couldn't tell me what she told him, which made me even more worried.
About half an hour later, I finally relaxed and stopped crying like a mad person. 'Ali's going to get better. I know it. She's a strong motherfucker, and not even cancer will bring her down.' I had to keep repeating that to myself to help me calm down.
Gee got up from the couch where he was cuddling next to me, and sat on his knees on the floor in front of me, taking my hands in his.
"Sweetheart, I need you to stay strong.. For Alice. She needs you to be strong now more than ever. I promise you, I will be here beside you. You know your sister, and you know that she is a fighter, and she will NEVER let cancer take over her life. You know she'll keep fighting till the end, and this is not the end, Chris. So no more tears, okay?" he started wiping my tears with his sleeve, got up, and kissed me softly on the lips. He then brought me into the kitchen, and made me a cup of coffee.
We sat at the kitchen table drinking coffee, and eating cereal. Gee took out his sketchbook and started doodling something. He said I couldn't see it until he was done, but I caught a couple glimpses when he wasn't looking. Gerard was absolutely amazing! He has so much talent it's unbelievable. I sat there in awe as he drew. I was amazed by his talent.
It wasn't until I realized the time, that i realized I had work in 15 minutes. Fuck I changed out of my PJ's, and put on a pair of black leggings, a purple V-neck shirt, and a Metallica hoodie. I kissed Gee goodbye, and headed out the door.
I walked into the shop, and saw Erik sitting in his office with tears coming down his eyes.
"Erik? W-Whats wrong?" I asked, my body beginning to shake.
Erik just shook his head, and let the tears keep pouring down his pale face.
"Well, I'm not gonna lie to you Chrissi. This is probably the worst I've ever had it. But don't you worry. You know me, I'm a fighter, and I ain't gonna loose this fight. I can promise you that."
"Alright Ali. Please just take care of yourself. Can you come over today?"
"Maybe. I'm a bit tired right now though, but I'll try, I promise." I felt bad, but I really was worn out.
"If your tired then it's fine. I don't want you to get overwhelmed or anything." she sounded as if she was crying.
"C-Chris, please just don't worry about me. I'll be fine, okay?"
"Alright. I love you Ali. Bye." she said
"I love you too Chris.Oh and tell Gerard I said hi."
"I will. See ya."
I'm very worried... For Chrissi's sake. I know I'm not going to make it this time, and I accept that. But she never would. I don't know what she would do, and I don't even want to think about that right now. All I wanna think about, is calling Gerard to tell him to take care of my sister while I'm going through this process, and especially when I'm gone. I dial his number, hoping that he'll pick up.
"Hello?" he said. Fuck. I could literally hear my sister's sobs in the background. This rips my heart into two.
"Hey, Gerard, It's Alice. Do you have a minute to talk? It's actually very important."
"Yeah sure. Just give me a second." I could hear him comforting my sister in the background.
"Hey Alice. How are you feeling? I am so incredibly sorry to hear that the cancer came back, but don't worry, Ali. Just stay strong and I know for sure you'll get through this."
"Thanks Gerard. Your words really do mean a lot to me. Now I really need to talk to you."
"I'm all ears"
"I need you to swear to me that you will ALWAYS be there for Chrissi. She's going to need you, Gerard. I know I'm not going to be around much longer, and I need to know that she's going to have someone that will always be there to protect her, and love her through thick and thin."
"Alice, I promise you that you will never EVER have to worry about that. I love Chrissi more than anything on earth. I promise you that I will always love and protect her. You have my word, Alice."
"Thank you, Gerard. Just to let you know that if you EVER hurt my sister, I promise you that I WILL haunt you, and make your life a fucking hell."
"Don't worry, Ali. I would never dream of even coming close to hurting her."
"Alright. Good. You know, I can already tell that your the one for my sister, and I would like to thank you for that."
Gerard thanked me and then we hung up. I started to feel a bit tired so I layed down, and took a nap.
***Chrissi's POV***
The tears just kept coming. I've been crying for over an hour now, and I feel horrible for Gee for putting him through this.
"Shh baby. Please stop crying, your gonna make yourself sick."
"I don't care. If anything ever happens to her I-I-I.. I don't know what I'd do."
Gerard wrapped his arms tighter around me and rocked me back and forth, stroking my hair, and softly singing to me, while I was curled up on his lap.
His shirt must've been soaked by now since I've been crying for nearly two hours on top of him. The only time he got up was when Ali called him. He said he couldn't tell me what she told him, which made me even more worried.
About half an hour later, I finally relaxed and stopped crying like a mad person. 'Ali's going to get better. I know it. She's a strong motherfucker, and not even cancer will bring her down.' I had to keep repeating that to myself to help me calm down.
Gee got up from the couch where he was cuddling next to me, and sat on his knees on the floor in front of me, taking my hands in his.
"Sweetheart, I need you to stay strong.. For Alice. She needs you to be strong now more than ever. I promise you, I will be here beside you. You know your sister, and you know that she is a fighter, and she will NEVER let cancer take over her life. You know she'll keep fighting till the end, and this is not the end, Chris. So no more tears, okay?" he started wiping my tears with his sleeve, got up, and kissed me softly on the lips. He then brought me into the kitchen, and made me a cup of coffee.
We sat at the kitchen table drinking coffee, and eating cereal. Gee took out his sketchbook and started doodling something. He said I couldn't see it until he was done, but I caught a couple glimpses when he wasn't looking. Gerard was absolutely amazing! He has so much talent it's unbelievable. I sat there in awe as he drew. I was amazed by his talent.
It wasn't until I realized the time, that i realized I had work in 15 minutes. Fuck I changed out of my PJ's, and put on a pair of black leggings, a purple V-neck shirt, and a Metallica hoodie. I kissed Gee goodbye, and headed out the door.
I walked into the shop, and saw Erik sitting in his office with tears coming down his eyes.
"Erik? W-Whats wrong?" I asked, my body beginning to shake.
Erik just shook his head, and let the tears keep pouring down his pale face.
OMG that was so sad when Gerard was begging for forgiveness :'(
1/11/14