Save Me From My Self Destruction
Keep Fighting Till The End
***Gerard's POV***
I woke up at 10am. Chrissi was still fast asleep next to me. I lightly shaked her body to wake her up. She groaned and rolled over facing me with her eyes still closed.
"Wake up sleepy head." I said lightly kissing her cheek and stoking her hair.
"Noooooo" she pouted
"Yeeees! Come on sugar"
She sighed and got up fixing her hair and heading to the bathroom.
I went downstairs to fix the both of us a cup of coffee when I noticed Chrissi's phone on the kitchen table. She had 8 missed calls from Erik.
"Hey Chrissi?" I yelled
"Yeah?"
"You have 8 missed calls from Erik."
"Oh thats strange..."
She called Erik back. After a minute of talking, her face was completely drained of all color.
Then she broke down sobbing uncontrollably.
***Chrissi's POV***
"Chrissi, There's something I need to tell you.." Erik said uneasily
"O-Okay. What is it?" I asked nervously
"Chrissi? Are you okay?" he asked. I could tell he was trying to stop crying
I couldn't say anything. The only thing that could come out were sobs.
"Alright Chris. I'll call you back. I love you. Bye." he then hung up
No please no. Why does her cancer have to be back?! She was doing fine!
I had been so caught up in sobbing, I had forgotten Gee was even in the room until I felt two arms wrap around me.
"Baby? Baby are you okay?" Gee asked sounding very concerned
"A-A-Ali h-has c-c-cancer again." I sobbed
"Aww don't worry sugar, everything is going to be alright, I promise."
"No Gerard! No! It won't be alright!! This is her 4th time having the cancer come back!! Gerard she's probably not going to make it so don't lie to me and tell me everything is going to be alright because it's fucking not!"
I could see the sadness in his eyes. Fuck..
"Oh Gee I-I'm so sorry."
He said nothing. He just wrapped me in his arms and held me as the tears came pouring down my face. He walked me over to the couch still holding me close, and sat down with me wrapped in his arms. I layed my head in his chest and cried into his shirt while he stoked my cheek with his thumb.
"Oh I-I'm sorry I got your shirt all wet babe." I said while trying to stop my tears
"Shh. Don't worry about it, sugar."
I sighed and realized I should go call Alice and see how she is. I grabbed my phone from the kitchen table and dialed her number.
"Hello?" her voice sounded like she had been crying too.
"Hey Ali. Erik told me what happened. I am so sorry. How are you feeling?"
"Hey Chris. Well I'm not doing too bad. I feel fine actually. I just got back from scheduling a chemo appointment."
"Ali? Is it really that bad?"
"Well, I'm not gonna lie to you Chrissi. This is probably the worst I've ever had it. But don't you worry. You know me, I'm a fighter, and I ain't gonna loose this fight. I can promise you that."
I woke up at 10am. Chrissi was still fast asleep next to me. I lightly shaked her body to wake her up. She groaned and rolled over facing me with her eyes still closed.
"Wake up sleepy head." I said lightly kissing her cheek and stoking her hair.
"Noooooo" she pouted
"Yeeees! Come on sugar"
She sighed and got up fixing her hair and heading to the bathroom.
I went downstairs to fix the both of us a cup of coffee when I noticed Chrissi's phone on the kitchen table. She had 8 missed calls from Erik.
"Hey Chrissi?" I yelled
"Yeah?"
"You have 8 missed calls from Erik."
"Oh thats strange..."
She called Erik back. After a minute of talking, her face was completely drained of all color.
Then she broke down sobbing uncontrollably.
***Chrissi's POV***
"Chrissi, There's something I need to tell you.." Erik said uneasily
"O-Okay. What is it?" I asked nervously
"Chrissi.. Ali's cancer came back. It's very VERY bad this time. The doctors aren't sure if she's going to make it." he cried
When he said this, my heart sank. At first I didn't know what to think or how to react. Then I broke down completely and couldn't control it. I was at a complete loss for words."Chrissi? Are you okay?" he asked. I could tell he was trying to stop crying
I couldn't say anything. The only thing that could come out were sobs.
"Alright Chris. I'll call you back. I love you. Bye." he then hung up
No please no. Why does her cancer have to be back?! She was doing fine!
I had been so caught up in sobbing, I had forgotten Gee was even in the room until I felt two arms wrap around me.
"Baby? Baby are you okay?" Gee asked sounding very concerned
"A-A-Ali h-has c-c-cancer again." I sobbed
"Aww don't worry sugar, everything is going to be alright, I promise."
"No Gerard! No! It won't be alright!! This is her 4th time having the cancer come back!! Gerard she's probably not going to make it so don't lie to me and tell me everything is going to be alright because it's fucking not!"
I could see the sadness in his eyes. Fuck..
"Oh Gee I-I'm so sorry."
He said nothing. He just wrapped me in his arms and held me as the tears came pouring down my face. He walked me over to the couch still holding me close, and sat down with me wrapped in his arms. I layed my head in his chest and cried into his shirt while he stoked my cheek with his thumb.
"Oh I-I'm sorry I got your shirt all wet babe." I said while trying to stop my tears
"Shh. Don't worry about it, sugar."
I sighed and realized I should go call Alice and see how she is. I grabbed my phone from the kitchen table and dialed her number.
"Hello?" her voice sounded like she had been crying too.
"Hey Ali. Erik told me what happened. I am so sorry. How are you feeling?"
"Hey Chris. Well I'm not doing too bad. I feel fine actually. I just got back from scheduling a chemo appointment."
"Ali? Is it really that bad?"
"Well, I'm not gonna lie to you Chrissi. This is probably the worst I've ever had it. But don't you worry. You know me, I'm a fighter, and I ain't gonna loose this fight. I can promise you that."
OMG that was so sad when Gerard was begging for forgiveness :'(
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