When I woke up, I was in my room, in my bed. I checked to make sure I still had my hoodie on, and thankfully I still did. I looked over at the nightstand and saw that Romeo And Juliet was sitting there, facedown. I smiled. Just how thoughtful are these guys? I looked over to the window and saw that dawn was just beginning to peak out from behind the tall pine trees. I decided to get dressed. I got up and gathered my clothes from the closet. I chose my favorite pair of faded blue skinneys and an MCR revenge shirt. Y'all know the one I'm talking about;) and an oversized black hoodie. I left the closet and went to go shower.

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I stepped out of the warm bathroom fully dressed. I'm pretty sure that I'm the only one up, I can hear snoreing coming from somewhere in the house... Did Mikey, Frank, Ray, and Bob go home last night? I dismissed my thoughts and quietly crept downstairs. I kinda want to get lost in the garden out back. My bare foot touched the cool tile of the floor. I looked around to see that the coast was clear. Breathing a slight sigh of relief, I walked around until I came to a set of French doors that led to the back yard. I silently pulled them open and stepped outside into the misty morning. This place is so gorgeous. it was surrounded by tall white pines, and appeared to stretch on forever. I noticed a narrow stone path, actually, there was three of them, but only one caught my eye. I followed the pathway through the trees, it was very... I can't even describe it... But there was black and red rose bushes littering the sides of the walk way, and the bows of the tall pines swooped in over the path, making it dark and mysterious. Soon I came to a small clearing, and the end of the path. I was shocked at what I saw. It was a medium sized patch of grass surrounded by more rose bushes, but had foxgloves in between them. A wood carving of a unicorn stood directly across the space from me, it stood at my height, and was standing on it's hind legs, as if about to flee. I gasped. This... It's just... I can't live here. Gerard is too nice, this place is too breathtaking, I don't belong. I looked down at the overly-green grass and sighed. It's like a fantasy land, straight out of 'Alice In Wonderland'. I turned around to leave and explore some more, I walked back down the path I came and explored the next one. It looked almost identical to the last one, but when I came to the clearing I found a wooden statue of a ballerina. The Helena ballerina. Instead of a unicorn. The plant-life looked exactly the same in both, but... This one is just so... I like it here. Its simple, yet complex, and... I feel complete... For once... It took me a few moments before I realized I was crying. Not making noise, just letting tears spill over and run down my cheek. I reached up and wiped it away with my sleeve. I sat down with my back against the nearest tree, and looked into the foliage that surrounded me. I thought about how different it's going to be here, at least I got to meet My Chemical Romance. Now how long before they ship me off to some other home? It's just a matter of time until they find out about me and my past, then they'll send me back. But then again, 'this band saves lives'. Does that mean they can save me? Part of me says yes, while the other part says 'why the fuck would they want you? You're just a loser emo bi-sexual fag who can't manage to even stop cutting'. I pulled my knees to my chest and layed my head against the tree. Just-fuck... My breathing gets harder and heavier. I'm so anxious... Just calm down, Cassy.... Ugh, but I can't. This is turning into a full-blown panic attack. I hug my knees closer and close my eyes. It feels like I'm dying as I try to slow my breathing. Tears stream out of my eyes, it's not working, I can't calm down. Just.... Breathe to the count of four, thats what helped the past couple times. In on the count of four, out on the count of four... It's still not helping, but I continue for the next few minutes. Finally I calm down a bit, but I'm still shaky.... Here comes the next lovely part... So dizzy.... Shit, I'm Gona pass out.... Nope. Okay, I think I got this. I opened my eyes, it was fully daylight now, and well into the morning. I stood up and began to turn to leave, but was met by a bed-head ruled Frank.

"holy shit!!" I screeched, he fucking scared me. Frank smiled at me, then noticed how red my eyes were.

"Cassy, what's wrong?" he asked, smile fading and concern in his voice.

"nothing,"

"bullshit, you've been crying. Your eyes are red as hell, now spill,"

I sighed in frustration, "I had a panic attack, it's no big deal,"

"no big deal?!? Cassy, that is definitely a big deal!"

I began to feel anxious again, ugh. This is just how life is for me sadly. Frank must have noticed, because in the next second he was hugging me.

"ugh, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to yell, but if you have a panic attack you need to tell some one okay? Me or Gerard, or any of the guys. Do you hear me?"

I nodded my head in response, then hugged him back and layed my head on his chest. It's pretty sad when Frank Iero is taller than you, seriously, I'm only 5'1 and I barely come up to his shoulder. He rested his chin on the top of my head.

"I bet I make you feel tall, don't I?" I said, Frank chuckled in reply.

"yes, yes you do. Very much so," he said.

I smiled and rolled my eyes, not that he could see it, but still. I looked up at him. His hair was in some sort of Mohawk-thing, with a black fringe and red shaven sides. He had a bit of black eyeliner smudged underneath his eyes, he had his lip and nose pierced. He smiled at me, and I faked a smile in return.

Then the unexpected happened.

Frank leaned down and pressed his lips to mine. What. The. Fuckkkkk. I had no idea what to do, I've never kissed anyone before, i had no idea how to kiss someone. I just stood there, shocked and confused. He moved his hands to my waist as he gently moved his lips against mine. oh... Oh.... OH. I started to move my lips in synchronization with his and wrapped my arms around his neck. He slipped his hand to my jacket zipper, but I caught him before he could unzip it. Frank pulled away from me. He looked slightly hurt, yet understanding. He kissed my forehead softly, lips lingering. Did... Did I just kiss Frank? I'm so confused... This is so... No. But... I want him, physically. My teenage hormones kick in, and I can't help myself. I kissed Frank again, a bit rougher this time, and placed his hand over the hem of my shirt. After a few moments of hot lip-on-lip action, he slipped his hand underneath my shirt. I felt his hand on my skin, it was surprisingly soft, considering that he plays. He pushed me roughly against the tree and ran his tongue across my bottom lip, begging for entrance. I parted my lips and granted him access. He slid his hand farther up my shirt, gently brushing his fingers along my stomach until he came to the under-wire of my bra. Frank retracted his hand and began to unzip my hoodie, but of course I was too caught up in the moment to realize. He removed my jacket and gasped

Notes

ohhhh guuurl! you did NOT! hehe, yes, yes I did;) just a hint of dirty little secrets to get this story started with a bang. if you liked it, please coment below, rate, and subscribe. I should have the next update up in the next day or two (hopefully!), but I might not... I kinda want to get some of the other shit I've been neglecting updated... so, yeah.

carry on sexy beasts,
~katiekilljoy<4