There was a knock on the door to my room, and I didn't feel like talking. Even though I didn't answer the twins came in anyway. Lately I hadn't been talking to anyone. The doctors and nurses tried to get me to talk but I refused.

I just wanted out of this goddamn hospital and I was making it clear I hated being here by not talking. The worst part is whenever the nurses come in to check on me they always wince at the scars on my neck. I had some pretty nasty rope burn scars now permanently stuck there.

i don't see why I couldn't just die. Why did the twins have to be able to break the door down. Why did they have to be able to take the noose off me. Why did the ambulance come to save me. Why am I still living if I don't want to be here?

"Frank...." Jack said seeing if I'd respond. I just glared at him. "Frank you can uhm leave today, but there's some rules that the hospitals have for you....." Tyler said looking scared that I may attack him.
"you have to stay above 100 pounds.....you have to take all your meds twice a day, including the new ones.......and you have to start attending actual highschool again not online...they said that having people around you would be better than you being alone...at home...." Tyler said still acting as though if he said one wrong thing I'd flip.

I wasnt happy about the rules, but I still refused to speak. It actually hurt to talk a little because of my neck now, but I didn't give a shot since I wasn't going to be talking. I'd been stuck at this hospital for two weeks seeing no other people beside my actual mom&dad, and the twins.
"Uhm well you can get your stuff together and get dressed and we can leave....uh just come out when your done ok?" Jack sid sounding unsure of himself.

***time lapse***

i woke up to the sound of my alarm clock ringing. Yay back to actual hell no more virtual hell for me, but at least mason won't be there. He wasn't put in jail because I refused to testify or even speak for that matter, so he was put under house arrest and was expelled from Belleville.

i got dressed and tried to cover my neck with my hair but failed, so I put on a choker necklace that covered it pretty well. I walked to school ignoring the twins and everyone else in the world. I stopped at the office and was told that my classes would be the same as they were before I left.

Fucking great I had double art today which meant almost three hours with gee. I haven't talked to him since the party and I'm not sure if he knows what happened or not.

I went through all my morning classes ignoring all the people staring and whispering about me. I didn't eat lunch. Instead I went to the library and took a nap. I woke up and realized I had missed my first class after lunch and only had art left for three hours, and I was late for that as well. Fucking great.


i walked into gees room and all heads turned to look at me and the whispering started again. by the way gee looked at me I could tell he hadn't yet learned what happened. "Mr.iero care to explain why your late?" I ignored him and took a seat in the back of the room far away from everyone else. I pulled out my sketch pad and began drawing a picture of a gun.

three hours later the final bell rang and I was about to leave when gee stopped me. "Me.iero I need a word with you." He said acting like a teacher. He waited until everyone else left. He locked the door an ran over to me and hugged me. "So how come your back here? And why haven't I seen you or heard back form you?! I called you about a thousand times!" He gasped out of breath.

I wouldnt have have called him even I could've. I got all of my electronics taken away from me. "Frank? What's going on?" He asked looking concerned. I just walked past him and left.


***time lapse***

i hadn't been anywhere but school and home since I left the hospital and the twins were taking me out shopping. We were at the mall for two hours already and we hadn't bought anything. They told me I could get anything and they'd buy it, but I really didn't want anything.

As as we were about to leave jack yelled someone's name and began running towards them. Fucking gee and mikey.

i walked over behind the twins awkwardly but oh well. "Hey gee! Mikey." Jack said sounding happy he had found them.

"Hey guys...." Gee trailed off obviously feeling uncomfortable around me. He had no idea what happened or why I wasn't talking to him.
"please don't tell me frank won't talk to you either!" Tyler whined looking at me.

"Wait it's not just me?" Gee asked sounding confused.

tuler and jack exchanged glances before Tyler spoke again. "You don't know about what happened do you....."

"what're you talking about?"

"listen how about we head over to out house and we'll explain what's going on since frank won't. We haven't been able to get him to talk at all."

**time lapse**

mikey and gee came straight over. We were sitting in the living room and it was awkwardly silent. "So what happened?" Gee asked breaking the ice.

"Frank it's your boyfriend! Please at least talk to him?!" Jack pleaded obviously not wanting to repeat the details of my attempted suicide again.

I decided des to keep quiet but I began to remove the chocker from my neck. As soon as it was off gee and mikey gasped."what is that from!?" Mikey asked obviously not catching on. I stayed silent until Tyler spoke but he was barely audible because he was crying by this point.
"gee frank tried to kill himself......"