It was the middle if the night and I was woken up by someone shaking me. I groaned and rolled over pulling my bed sheets above my head. "Casey wake up come on please?" It wasGerard shaking me. "go back to bed." I said yawning.

"Casey can we please talk about earlier?"

At first I was confused but then remembered what I had done. I'm still not sure wether or not it was good idea but it's too late to try and change what happened. "No." I said turning again in the bed.

"Casey please??? I'm really worried."
"don't be." I said and went back to sleep ignoring whatever Gerard was saying.

I woke up the next morning to gee already dressed and sitting on his bed staring at me. I ignored him and started to get ready. Now that he's seen my cuts I didn't have to hide them so I could just get dressed in our room without having to hide in the bathroom.

One thing we never had issues with were getting ready. All the way up until I left gee and me would always change together in the same room and it was never really weird or anything. But today it was just awkward. It's not like he hasn't seen me naked or in underwear before it's just he's never seen me undressed with scars covering me. Plus he was just seeing my cuts on my thighs for the first time.

All three of us walked to school and it was just awkward silence the whole way there. We arrived at the school and Mikey started walking to his homeroom on the east side of school because he was in a different grade than us.

I put out my things in my locker and when I closed it gee was still standing behind me. "Can I help you?"

"we have first period together...can't I walk with you there or is someone else planning on walking you?" He asked but he wasn't being rude he was just honestly asking me. "Let's go." I said rolling my eyes.

It was art first period and we didn't have assigned seats so gee sat at my table diagonal from me. Two other random boys sat at our table with us. It was about ten minutes into class when the boy next to me tapped my shoulder and handed me a note with a phone number on it. I just rolled my eyes and stood up to throw it away.

I guess gee was watching what happened because he was giving the kid a death glare. There was no way he could've seen what was in the note and he probably thinks it' was something rude since I threw it away.

After art I had no classes with Gerard and I was pretty happy about that. at lunch I went outside and listened to music while everyone was eating. I felt someone tap my shoulder and saw Mikey gee and frank. "Can we join you?" Mikey asked as though I might bite him. I nodded and they sat in the ground next to me. "Where's your lunch?" Mikey asked and I could feel frank staring at me since he knew about my eating disorder.

"I already ate mine." I lied but it seemed to be a good enough answer for Mikey.