I'll Keep You Safe Tonight

I am alive.
I am safe.
I am happy.
Happier than I’ve ever been in my life.
Gerard is alive.
Gerard is safe.
Gerard is happy.
Gerard asked me to marry him.
That’s right ladies and gentleman tonight I’m going to become Mr. Way and Gerard will keep his name as Way. It was my idea. I wanted to be his in every way including name. I was in the hospital for nine days. Nine days. I almost didn’t make it during three of those days. I didn’t eat I was so depressed. Don’t get me wrong I tried eating my stomach felt like it was eating itself from the inside but I opened that box the hospital provided and almost puked. The food wasn’t disgusting I just couldn’t bear the thought of eating. I did though eventually with some coaxing from Gerard I was able to get some food down. Some of the nurses were bitches some were nice. At least I had a nice doctor. I even made friends.
I survived.
Gerard proposed five months after the hospital visit when I was remotely stable and my meds had finally kicked in. I was the happiest man alive that day. I thought we were just going out to dinner and a private drive in horror movie marathon that he had scheduled for my birthday but before the marathon started a short movie started to play. I didn’t recognize it at first but slowly I did. They were scenes from Gerard and I’s time together. The good and the bad. The continued to play and I looked around for Gerard and he had dissppeared and just as I started to get scared he appeared on the platform in front of the screen with a spotlight on him.
“Frank.” Gerard said and I smiled lovingly up at him.
“I’ve loved you since the first moment I saw you and possibly even before that if it’s possible,” he paused and laughed, “We’ve have good and bad times together, but we’ve gotten through it all and lived. Sure we may both be broken and have a few more scars than we started with but that doesn’t matter, because I will always love you.”
“Gerard…” I whispered softly tears starting to fall form my eyes, happy ones as I walked up the platform and stood across from him on the stage.
“Frank,” Gerard said and took a deep breath as if preparing himself and then he got down on one knee, “Will you marry me?”
“Yes Gerard oh god yes!” I yell and run toward him kissing and hugging him hard and never wanting to let go.
I guess that leads to where I am today. Waiting to walk down the aisle to my soon to be husband. Husband…huh still sounds strange honestly. I hear the music start and the doors open revealing the chapel. I take a deep breath and desperately tell myself not to run down the aisle and embaress myself. I manage to contain myself and walk calmly down the aisle and come to stand in front of Gerard.
“You look so beautiful.” Gerard whispers to me.
“So do you.” I whisper back and then the priest shushes us.
“We have gathered here today to witness the union of these two mates, Gerard Way and Frank Iero.” He pauses, “I believe you two both have vows you wish to say, Gerard you first.”
Gerard takes a deep breath, “Frank, my beautiful and amazing mate, I don’t believe it’s possible to sum up all my feelings for you in words but I’m going to do my best. When I first met you all I wanted to do was protect you and I still do. I protected you from your mother, kids at school, your thoughts, and occasionally myself. I didn’t do the best of jobs at times and I want to apologize for that. I am a dom and I am posseive and it frustrates me when I can’t protect you or be there for you. It killed me to see you in that hospital looking so damn helpless and fragile. But you’re not. You are not helpless or fragile. You are Frank. The strongest person I know. You beat all your demons on your own you survived when I don’t even believe I could’ve and I’m so proud of you for that,” He pause to catch his breath, “I know we’ll both have bad days some times and I’m probably going to be an asshole and slip up more than once, which I hope you can forgive but I love you. With all my heart and I never want to lose you again. You are my everything and I would die for you and without you. I love you so much Frank and I’m honored to have you as my husband.” Gerard smiles at me and holds my hands.
“Frank your vows.” The priest says and I pull my hands away from Gerards fumbling in my pockets for my note card.
“Um…I’ve never been good with words. I’ve always struggled at being able to express my feelings because most of the time I’m feeling so much that I can’t even describe it. Gerard the love of my life. My angel, my savior, and my mate. You are my everything. I will always love you. Thank you for being there for me through everything even when I thought you would leave me. I know I’m not the easiest person to be around most days,” I pause and blush and Gerard nudges me to continue smiling at me, “I guess what I’m trying to say is Gerard I don’t deserve you, but I’m glad that you’ll have me. You are the best mate and protector a fertile could ask for. I know I may have bad days and I thank you for taking care of me and keeping the thoughts at bay in my mind. I just…Gerard I wouldn’t be here without you and I can’t believe your mine.”

Everyone in the audience aws and the priest clears his throat, “Rings please?”
Mikey gets the rings out of his coat pocket and hands one to me and to Gerard and he smiles at us both, something he rarely does.
“Gerard Way,” the priest says, “Do you take Frank Iero to be your lawfully wedded husband?”
“I do.” Gerard says and slips the rings on my finger.
“And do you Frank Iero take Gerard Way as your lawfully wedded husband?”
“I do.” I slip the ring on his finger.
“You may now kiss your husband.”
Gerard grabs me and presses his lips to mine, the kiss is slow and loving, but I have a feeling that it’ll be anything but slow tonight. Gerard pulls away right before it would have gotten awkward for everyone to watch.
“May I present Gerard Way and Frank Way.”

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