Frank's POV

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My head kept on switching between my dream skittles, puppy's and ice-cream perfect world land and reality, another reminder it sucks.
What Ray had said earlier was fucking mean, even for him. How could he do something like that, I've giving him his own freaking name.

The Fro Man, bastard for dobbing me in to Fallyn for my thoughts, then when I asked him to shut the fucking hell up he kept on talking as if I wasn't there.
To make matters worse he said I thought of her naked ever night before bed, what the fucking, fuck?!

I'd enjoy it if I could take a moment out of this angry rant thing that makes me want to murder Ray.
I wouldn't insult her by trying to imagine her naked. She wasn't some girl I could have pervy thoughts of whenever I felt like it.

If she wanted me to see her naked I would, okay that did not come out right, it sounded very creepy and weird.
It was meant in the 'if something's meant to happen it will' kinda way, not let's scare people by making them think Frank's perverted maniac.

Another thing, how the fucking whatever could I get away with thinking of her naked?
Gerard would have a full rage out, murder everyone and everything (including stage props) meltdown to end all words and universes if I imagined her in underwear.

To put things in the most simple, understandable, beginners mode way I could think of...
I wouldn't be alive if I tried thinking of her naked!

Make note of my use of the word 'tried', because he'd kill me in the most violent possible manner for 'trying', I'm lucky he'd let me get away with thinking of her of her in a sorta romantic mindset let alone naked.

Besides, I've practically seen her naked, hence the time I pulled her out of a river and prevented drowning. She did technically drown though, emergency revival would be a better use of words probably.

I'd enjoy it if we didn't have to perform anymore said 'emergency revivals' because more than once was too many, she could unintentionally be a real danger to herself.

The panic attack I received at The Bloody Evangeline when I found her dead in the bed with her wrists cut nearly killed me then and there, it was a sight I'd gladly never see again.

I also happen to freak out about the smallest thing, whether its running out of skittles, becoming an unkillable, supernatural powered, blood drinking sub-human or simply not having access to a nice shower, to be honest I'm more likely to freak out about the shower or the skittles, very sad but also very true.

Gerard also enjoyed freaking out over small, stupid things and enjoyed yelling at me almost as much, he preferred yelling at the band when we screwed up when we went out to get something to eat, note, the only one out of all of us who ever screwed up was Bob and he has a lot less restraint than the rest of us.

It was Bob's mistake that put us on red that us on red alert about what to do when you eat, for example going out when you're pissed off at the rest of the band is a bad idea, so is the obvious one of going out when you haven't eaten for two weeks.

The smell of blood seemed to trigger Mikey and Bob's spazz button so whenever they were hungry (not even necessarily hungry), they'd have to leave the room if someone cut themselves or things would get messy.

Once during a concert one of the fans fell down and hurt themselves or something along those lines because I don't exactly pay attention during a gig but someone got hurt and since we're vampires it's not hard to smell blood, anyway, Mikey and Bob got a wiff and we had to take a break almost immediately.

It was a very close call and as you can tell it's not the best idea in the world to have a couple of blood sniffing vampires in a room filled with vulnerable humans who had absolutely no clue what could happen if they so much as picked a scab.

The only time I've ever seen Bob and Mikey truly control themselves was a couple days ago when Fallyn was feeding Peanut and she accidentally got bitten which resulted in blood, her needing a band-aid and them having to leave the room because the scent of blood in the kitchen got too strong.

I'll admit it was even a little tricky for me to control myself since I hadn't eaten for ages and as guilty as I feel to say something like this, she smells amazing, seriously better than chocolate cake (yes my inner vampire is speaking now).

She also tastes amazing, my mind would keep flashing back to the hotel room at regular intervals and I tried to stop thinking about it, her blood was so amazing it was almost addictive and if I wasn't careful I'd become a blood crack whore, yep I'm feeling damn sure it could have that kind of effect on me.

Oh Gerard would just love to find out I thought her blood was delicious, he love it with an axe, a meat clever or whatever weapon he could get his hands on, I couldn't help it but grinned, we were friends long before the vampire thing and we'll remaining friends throughout it.

Unless I make an attempt (or succeed) to either have sex with Fallyn or attempt to turn her into a vampire, something like that would get me killed and there is no doubt in my mind or anyone else's, I wouldn't turn her without a really good excuse and uh, I didn't have any excuse for the sex thing, it'd just be awesome.

"Frankie, what are you grinning at? You have the same expression when you prank Gee." Fallyn stopped strumming on the guitar and gave me a suspicious look, busted, again, at least she didn't know what I was thinking about, that would have sucked.

I wasn't entirely proud of my thoughts, I've had better moments but hey, I'm a guy and just because I'm a vampire doesn't mean I have to be perfect and flawless and all the other shit people think vampires should be.

In the end I'm just a guy who has a crush on a really cute girl and an overactive imagination Gee would surely punish me for later if he happened to have any idea of the completely inappropriate things I had been thinking.

Gerard will understand one day, I have yet to see him act like a dorky idiot around a girl though, for some reason no one we've ever met seems to interest him.

Not that I'm saying I'm interested in Fallyn because I've lowered my standards, she's better than I could ever hope for, she' so sweet and smart and talented, not to mention beautiful, argh never mind, foot in mouth moment.

But Gee will understand if he ever gets a girlfriend or meets a girl he likes enough to want her to be his girlfriend, it'd be fantastic to see him without anything to say. I swear on the band when that happens I'll tease him as much as vampiriclly possible and I'll get Bob, Mikey, Ray and Fallyn to join in, he'll regret ever falling in love, mwahaha.

I was unable to keep my giddy thoughts from slipping through the cracks and a huge smile appeared on my face at the thought of tormenting Gee when he finally met someone (someone besides himself).

Fallyn's already curious expression got even more curious and I hid my smile away immediately, I need to be serious, it's guitar lesson time and I can't focus when I'm gushing over her like a schoolgirl and a boy band.

"Nothing, I'm just excited about getting back to Jersey, we've been on tour for so long I've almost forgotten what home is like, and Christmas is coming up so there'll be a lot of presents and stuffing my face which is always fun."

She looked at me for a moment as if she didn't believe me and what I'd said on the spot. I was looking forward to getting back to Jersey and I was also excited about Christmas but I hadn't been thinking about that specifically.

The food was good as well, I mean who wouldn't love never being hungry then being able to eat whatever you wanted without worrying about getting sick. I thought it was awesome, I have a habit of eating all the wrong foods and it doesn't exactly agree with my body so I had to turn down what I ate before the vampire thing.

Now it's butter sandwiches, mashed potato's, chocolate cake, Pepsi and Mountain Dew all day every day, oh and the Skittles, I can't forget about the Skittles, although I should probably tone it down, I'll grow sick of my favourite junkfood if I eat it all the time.

She put her fingers onto the guitar once more and attempted to play the most difficult part of Romance, haha, the look on her face when I mentioned Romance earlier was so funny.

Her fingers flew over the guitar and she played it with what looked like no trouble, wow, it took me ages to be able to play that song and she's learnt the whole thing and perfected it in one sitting, I seriously am the best guitar teacher in the whole world.

I gaped at the ease she played the song with then she changed her fingers positioning on the guitar and the song made a smooth transition from Romance to Honey, This Mirror Isn't Big Enough For The Two Of Us.

Tha' fuck? I never taught her how to play that song and she said she's never played a guitar before, how could she know how to play that one? Was Ray giving her sneaky lessons behind my back, that sneaky afroed bastard. I felt a twinge of absurd jealously.

She glanced up at me from the guitar and gave me a small awkward looking smile before going back to the guitar, is she blushing right now?

"What the hell are you doing?" Oops, that sounded much angrier than I meant it to sound, I'm just shocked by how she's suddenly able to play a song she's never learnt, I'd meant to say 'how the hell are you doing that?' foot in mouth again.

Her small embarrassed smile faltered for a moment and she stopped playing and looked at me, yep, she thought I was angry, dammit I need to be more careful in how I word my sentences, knowing my luck I'd propose to someone and fuck it up.

"I-I'm sorry, do you want me to stop?" She didn't wait for me to respond and instantly took her hands off the guitar and put it next to her, the look on her face was comparable to that of a kicked puppy, who the hell would want to kick a puppy anyway?

I picked up the guitar and handed it back to her, she took it hesitantly and put it back on her lap with another small and awkward smile, I'm smitten, how anyone could be mean to her adorable face I don't know.

Especially that dumb idiot Jules, when I saw her dreams through her head it was like watching a movie, you really wanted the bitchy cheerleader to get what's hers and in this movie that's what happened.

Then the even bigger idiot Brock who hit on her came to mind, god help him if he ever comes into her life and tries something like that again, nobody treats my Fallyn like that and I bet the rest of the band would agree if they got see her dreams like I did, no matter what she still did a good job of standing up for herself though.

I snapped back to reality with Fallyn sitting on the couch next to me, looking small with the guitar in her lap and her hands by her sides, I hope I didn't scare her or make her not want to play, I'd feel like a huge dumbass if that happened.

"No, I don't want you to stop playing, I fucked up with my words. I meant to say how the hell did you learn to play that? Did I teach you the song and forget or something?"

I ran my hand through my hair as she looked a little less freaked out and put her hands on the guitar once more, the stupid hand running through hair mannerism I'd picked up from Gerard. He did it all the time and now nearly everyone on the bus had started doing it, even Ray who's hair was uncontrollable anyway.

"Um, at the last concert I watched you really closely with This Mirror Isn't Big Enough and I just copied what you did, no effort." She blushed again and pushed some of her long shaggy hair out of her face and attempted to push it behind her ear, it didn't work and the hair ended up in her eyes once more.

Was this how she learnt to play all the other songs?

No it couldn't be that, when I taught her Romance I wasn't holding the guitar and playing the song, I got her to listen to the album version then simply showed her where to put her fingers and told her the names of the chords, she was still talented, she also happened to be able to memorise it as well.

She touched her fingers to the guitar and started playing the song while my mouth fell open, how she managed to memorise that beats me, it's not like I played the song slow, I wouldn't even know what I was playing if my hands weren't so used to playing.

The song ended too fast and I had to remember to close my mouth, that was fucking incredible. I wonder how many other songs she could do this with, she's only been learning for a week and not even every day and she can play the song as well as me.

"You're truly are amazing." I muttered as she grinned at me and went back to playing Romance, the song she was supposed to be learning currently, there was still a bright red streak running from one side of her face to the other. I loved how I could make her blush, it'd never fail to entertain me.

Before I saw him I heard Gerard's voice on the other side of the curtain, ringing with it's usual nonchalant tone he had on nearly all the time now, I miss the old Gee who was fun and laughed a lot, the new Gee sucks.

"You practising again, Frankie?" He strolled into the room with his usual, 'I don't give a fuck about anyone's problems but my own' attitude then stopped to look at Fallyn who was still playing will all of her attention focused on the guitar.

I wish I could have played like her when I was young, it would have saved so much time and effort, you know, because I'm as lazy as all fuck, well now that I think about it I kinda did learn how to play the guitar by copying someone, Billie Joe Armstrong to be precise.

It's good to know know if The Fro Man is unable to make it to a concert or sick or on a holiday or some shit like that she'll probably be able to fill in for him but judging by her behaviour around large crowds of people it wouldn't happen.

Meh, I guess we could always give her a bunch of Skittles, that won't take much effort, she's told me all the time how sour Skittles are her favourite kind of food.

The band disagreed with me when I told them candy was a food group, mwahaha, let's see them argue with Fallyn, she wins almost every time anyway. I'm usually the argument winner on the bus so it was strange to be around someone who could beat me, probably because she unknowledgably has my heart in her hands.

Gerard stuffed his hands into his pockets and watched Fallyn play until the song finished then started talking, I don't think she noticed him walk into the room and jumped at his first few words, oh yeah, another thing about vampires, we're usually quiet, unless we want to be loud.

"If Frankie ever fucks up again you can have his spot in the band." Gee said before grabbing his sketchbook from its place on the floor, collecting a couple of papers that had fallen out and leaving the room again with an air of arrogance.

God he can be a mean douche sometimes, its the vampire part of him that does it, he thinks he's sexy all the time now so he'll sass off to everyone but I win though because in the end I saw what he looked like in high school, game set and match.

I wasn't the sexiest mofo in high school either but at least I didn't have issues because of it, if people don't like me then that their problem, at the end of the day I'm the lucky bastard who gets to get up on stage and rock, then I get to go back to the band bus and hang out with an incredibly beautiful girl...one that I've been friendzoned by, still, I've got more than the idiots at my old high school.

"I love you too honey!" I called after Gee as he disappeared through the curtain separating the living room and the kitchen, in return he flipped me the bird and I laughed, it was fun to annoy him, always has been always will be.

Fallyn had put the guitar next to her and was picking at the black nail polish she's had on since I met her, I guess our guitar lessons would be over for the day she seemed to think so.

I picked up Pansy and put my beloved guitar away then walked back in to see her on her iPhone, she didn't use it much and never texted any of us since we were almost always together.

I sat next to her and edged closer, trying to peek at the screen of the phone to see what she was doing, she noticed I was making a really crappy sneak attempt to look at her phone and smiled at me before putting it in her jeans pocket, aw, I didn't get to see.

"What were you doing?" I'm too nosy to let it slide, I always had to have some idea what everyone was doing, so did everyone else on the bus, we have always been unable to keep out of each others lives.

She shrugged and looked at the TV, "Nothing much, checking the time." I nodded and moved away from her, I'm not sure why but I had a feeling she was lying, all of a sudden she seemed very cold and distant, nothing like the Fallyn I'd grown accustomed to.

"Fal's, what the matter is something wrong?" She was completely zoned out, now that I looked closer at her sea green eyes they were focused on nothing, if anything they seemed to bore through the TV, the bus and looked out at the nighttime sky.

This reminded me of the night when I saw her standing on the side of the bridge, she was there in reality but completely off with the fairies at the same time, she was in a world of her own and didn't look like she'd be coming back anytime soon or at least not without motivation.

"Fal's if anything's happening you can tell me." Even though I moved away from her just before I now shuffled closer and in response she pulled her knees up to her chest and rested her chin on top while not shifting her gaze from whatever it was in the distance she saw.

This is disturbing me, I don't like that look on her face, it was a pained look that made me hurt too, what could have happened to her, everything was fine and she was smiling and blushing moments ago, did Gerard come in and say something when I put Pansy away?

I tried putting my hand on the top of her knee and she jerked away as if I'd attempted to throw boiling hot water on her, why would she react like this to me, is it the delayed meltdown I expected to get when I said I was a vampire?

What's happening to her, except for the one quick movement she made to get away from me there was no physical changes to her whatsoever and anyone who didn't know her would think she's perfectly fine.

I made another attempt to touch her and got the same reaction as the first time, she's shutting herself away, curling up on the inside and I can see it happening as the seconds passed by and I tried to think of some way to make her go back to her normal self.

Was it me?
Did I say or do something, it wouldn't be a first for me to ruin something with my stupid mouth, I say anything that comes to mind and freak people out.

"I'm sorry, whatever I did I'm sorry." I don't know why I was apologising, maybe just hoping she'd go back to normal and erase the scary dazed, half gone expression she still had on her beautiful, small, pale face.

"Frankie, it's not you trust me it's me." She looked at me and actually focused for long enough to look like the Fallyn I was used to, she gave me a small smile that I returned then all of a sudden she burst into tears and was up and gone from the couch before I could even blink.

What. Just. Happened?

Gerard appeared in the room next to me the next second, pencil in hand and a confused expression on his face, he had about as much idea of what was going on as I did, he started walking towards the bunks where she ran and I stood up to stop him.

"Gee, no, she needs to be alone." I'm not sure what it was that made me get him to go back to his art or drawing or whatever, some small part of me said she needed to cry by herself, not everyone wants the comfort of others when they want to cry.

I sat quietly on the couch and listened to her cry, it was awful sitting there and knowing I couldn't do anything, I knew if I tried to touch her again I'd get the same reaction as earlier, flinching as if I tried to pour acid on her and not the good, hanging out with The Beatles kind of acid.

I bit my lip in an attempt to keep my mind off her, blood flowed into my mouth and I sighed, great I bit my lip too hard, oh who cares it will heal up in a couple of seconds anyway.