“Then I guess I don’t love you.” Frankie said.

The helicopter fell into an awkward silence.

I think even J.R. were shocked.

I reached my hand over to where Frankie was and placed it on his shoulder, “don’t even think about fucking touching me, Gerard!” he exclaimed

I retracted my hand and looked at my lap, letting the tears flow freely.

Frankie doesn’t love me.

“We have to stop for tonight.” J whispered to R. “We’re going to stop here.” They announced before landing in a small wooded area with a lake nearby.

Mikey got off first, claiming he had to pee. Ew.
Then me, I held a hand out to Frankie but he swerved past me and went off to the wooded area. Fuck he really does hate me.
I watched as R turned off the helicopter and when J got off and pulled R with him I watched as he hugged her tight and whispered “good gob” and I watched as they kissed. I watched with envy as they whispered a simultaneous “I love you so much.”
“Gerard? Do you want to talk about this?” J asked me R had left to look around.
“Yeah…” I whispered.
“Okay then…talk” he said. We sat next to the helicopter and I just started crying.
Tears of heartbreak and anger and impotence and jealousy.

Why didn’t he love me?!

I’ve tried s fucking hard to show him that I love him and that I’m worth it!

Why can’t I be happy like J.R.?!

I said this to him. I yelled it over and over. And it didn’t help

“Things happen for a reason. If you really love him, then you two will get out of this together. You be happy in the end. And I’m sure frank was just upset because of his parents.” He answered

I kept crying silently now. I didn’t ye or even whisper. Just sat there and cried pathetically

Frankie. I love him so much. And he’s tearing me apart.

--------Time Lapse-------

It was night now R had set a fire and we were all sitting around it now. Frankie didn’t look at me.

He looked as miserable as I felt and it broke my heart to see him so sad.

Mikey was glaring daggers at Frankie so I glared back at him.

“Imma go sleep” R said after yawning loudly. J smiled sweetly at her and helped her to her feet. They climbed in to the helicopter together and shut the front part.

“…Me too” Mikey mumbled and then retreated to the helicopter as well.

Frank looked at me then. His eyes were bloodshot and he looked unnaturally pale and just fucking sad.

“Frankie…I’m so sorry honey. Please, Frankie, please forgive me?”

He didn’t say anything, just outstretched his arms. Trying to say ‘give me a hug’

I wanted to cry in happiness.

I quickly shuffled towards him and held him tight against my body. Running my fingers through his hair and kissing his head.

He started crying then

And each one off his tears felt like a stab to the heart.

I caused this. I don’t now how. But he said it was my fault so it must be.

He cried for a while longer I just kept whispering sweet things into his ear mostly “I love you”s.

“Don’t fucking say that” he said once he had calmed down.

“It’s the truth, Frankie. I love you!”

“..Then fucking prove it” he said

“What do you want me to do, baby? Anything you want I’ll do it”

He looked deep in thought before answering, “I-” he hesitated

“It’s okay, baby. Whatever you want. I do whatever you say, just please take me back”

“I want…to bond with you. If we are really mates then you’ll let me” he mumbled

Oh.

I was about to answer -yes obviously- when I hear Mikey stumble out of the helicopter
“FUCK NO! After all the shit Gee’s been through you want him to bond with you?! WHAT IF YOU’RE NOT FUCKING MATES?! THEN YOU’LL BE ALONE FOR THE REST OF YOUR ETERNITY!”

Mikey was right if Frankie and I weren’t mates then we would both be left unmated for the rest of our eternities.

But I love Frankie more than anything in the word And I am sure as fuck that he is my mate.

“Shut the fuck up Mikey! I’m not asking for your opinion!” I yelled at him.

I turned to Frankie, who was looking at his lap and crying quietly again

“Of course Frankie Anything you want, sugar”

Notes

so i know this took a long time, but i have a good excuse!
my tablet (where i write aka the love of my life) whent tota retard on me and...died
soo yeah im sad.
plus schools a bitch so e nice1
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