I Dont Love You

~Gerard's P.O.V.~

no. no. no. no. no... it cant be...

I ran over to my brother's cold and lifeless body. he was laying peacefully on his bed, eyes closed, and a note in his hands. i carefully and with a shaky hand, took the note from him, unfolding it and reading with tears streaming.

Gerard,
i assume that you're the first one to read this, and i hope that you are. this is addressed to you for a reason.
I felt so lonely, and unloved. I know that you, Avril, and Frankie all loved me... but i was still low. i've been planning this for awhile, this very note has been re-written more times than i can count.

i paused for a moment, trying to cope with what was litterally happening.

i love you, and i love Avril... I love Frankie. but, this had to happen. things like these are meant to happen. I'm sorry, I know this is going to hurt you. just stay strong, okay? promise me that one thing.
i think you should know how i did it. you remember back to when we were living in the states, how you had said that one day the pain meds reacted funny with my other medication?
i downed the whole bottle of ibuprofen, and the rest of my meds.


so long, not good night,
Mikey


my vision blurred, my heart broke. so... my brother, my very own brother... killed himself because he felt like he had too? i broke down completely, sobbing violently on the floor until Frank and Avril finally came home. they grieved with me, finally calling an ambulance.

the sirens blared in the background.

Notes

so guys... movie's over i guess.

but have no fear, katiekilljoy is here!

i'm going to re-write Never Coming Home, i feel like i didn't do a good job of explaining things with it that well. it was a bit fast-paced and i want to slow it down some.
now, it won't change all that much... story line wise. but i will change some minor details, M'kay?

i hope you've enjoyed this story... it mean the world to me that so many of you have stuck around.

thank you.

stay strong sexy beasts,
~katiekilljoy<4