My dad wasn't home yet so me and gee were just sitting in my room. "What happens...like y'know...when your dad gets home..?" Gee asked. I know he was just trying to be a friend but I really want to talk about what went on at home. "It's different everyday" "so what happened yesterday then..?" He asked with worry obvious in his voice. "Uhm Kyle was here..then he left and I went to bed."
"Did Kyle y'know...uhm..touch you?..." I just nodded and whispered a yea.

Gee was being so caring and it was actually kind of cute. Yea I have to admit gees actually really good looking, and straight so that will never happen, but hey I can dream.

My bedroom door flew open and in walked my dad and Kyle. "I see your hear again." My dad said to gerard, then turned to Kyle. "I don't give a fuck you can use them both" and with that he walked out.

Kyle locked the door and walked towards me. He started rubbing my inner thigh, and when I tried to back away he punched me. "We're going to have fun today...you come here" he said pointing at gerard.

*****time lapse*****

"times up" my dad said knocking on the door. Kyle got dressed and left with my dad probably to go drinking. What just happened was unthinkable. Lets just say it ended with me and gee naked & being closer than I ever though we would be.

Before gee could say anything I grabbed a blade out of my desk and ran naked into my bathroom and locked the door.

i had been doing so good with my cutting. I had been clean for six days, and that's good for me. I was craving the pain so I did it. I dragged it repeatedly against my skin until there was blood dripping onto the floor. The whole time I could hear Gerard crying for me to stop and come out.

I stood up, and wrapped a towel around my waist, and I opened the door. I stood there in the door way with only a towel on and my bloody arm. I looked up to see gee crying. "I-I'm sorry.." I said in a whispered cry. Before I knew what was going in gee had his lips on mine. He pulled back instantly realizing what he done.

I grabbed his face and pulled him back into another kiss. "Please don't hurt yourself anymore" gerard said "it kills me to see someone so perfect want to die." I didn't even respond I just grabbed his face agin and kissed him. "I love you" he said. I pulled back and looked at him. He wasn't lying I just nodded. Gee seemed hurt but he hid it. "Let's clean your arm."