
All The Wounds That Are Ever Gonna Scar Me
When I Caught Myself
Autumn's POV
Aw shit.
Mikey quickly jumped off me, grabbing his boxers as he touched the ground.
"Oh, crap." I grumbled as I pulled my clothes on. My first enjoyable sex was interrupted by my brother. Lovely.
I turned to Mikey, who was also fully dressed.
"Sorry 'bout that." I mumbled, picking at the hole on my jeans.
"Its fine." He grabbed my hand and walked out with me, into the living room where Ray sat.
"Mikey, Autumn and I need to talk. Alone." He muttered, sipping a cup of coffee.
"Ok. Bye." Mikey kissed me on the cheek before leaving the apartment.
"You just had to interrupt, didn't you?" I joked, sitting on the couch next to him.
"Look, I think we need to talk about some stuff."
Oh God. The Talk.
"Autumn, sex is for couples who are married and in love. Are you married to Mikey?" He sipped his coffee again.
"No, but I love him."
"Does he love you?"
"He told me he does."
"Autumn... Mikey's been through a lot. The suicide, the cutting. I think he just wants to hold on to something. I don't think he loves you. I think he tells himself that he does so he can feel in love. Ya know?" He presses.
"I... I don't think I know." I muttered. I refuse to believe that Mikey is just using me to feel complete. He couldn't be.
"I think you should break it off before either of you get too attached." Ray suggesteded firmly. Just a suggestion.
"What?! Mikey's all I have left!" I argued. "I killed Bert. I ruined him. It was all my fault. Mikey is the only other human being in this fucked up world that I am capable of loving."
Ray stared, jaw to the floor. After a few seconds, his face turned stony and dark. There was an emotion there that I couldn't quite place.
"Leave. Just go." He said firmly, yet still remaining calm.
"What? What the fuck? I can't just-" I cut myself off when I saw him get up. He started to grab all of my clothes, pushing them into my bag.
Aw shit.
Mikey quickly jumped off me, grabbing his boxers as he touched the ground.
"Oh, crap." I grumbled as I pulled my clothes on. My first enjoyable sex was interrupted by my brother. Lovely.
I turned to Mikey, who was also fully dressed.
"Sorry 'bout that." I mumbled, picking at the hole on my jeans.
"Its fine." He grabbed my hand and walked out with me, into the living room where Ray sat.
"Mikey, Autumn and I need to talk. Alone." He muttered, sipping a cup of coffee.
"Ok. Bye." Mikey kissed me on the cheek before leaving the apartment.
"You just had to interrupt, didn't you?" I joked, sitting on the couch next to him.
"Look, I think we need to talk about some stuff."
Oh God. The Talk.
"Autumn, sex is for couples who are married and in love. Are you married to Mikey?" He sipped his coffee again.
"No, but I love him."
"Does he love you?"
"He told me he does."
"Autumn... Mikey's been through a lot. The suicide, the cutting. I think he just wants to hold on to something. I don't think he loves you. I think he tells himself that he does so he can feel in love. Ya know?" He presses.
"I... I don't think I know." I muttered. I refuse to believe that Mikey is just using me to feel complete. He couldn't be.
"I think you should break it off before either of you get too attached." Ray suggesteded firmly. Just a suggestion.
"What?! Mikey's all I have left!" I argued. "I killed Bert. I ruined him. It was all my fault. Mikey is the only other human being in this fucked up world that I am capable of loving."
Ray stared, jaw to the floor. After a few seconds, his face turned stony and dark. There was an emotion there that I couldn't quite place.
"Leave. Just go." He said firmly, yet still remaining calm.
"What? What the fuck? I can't just-" I cut myself off when I saw him get up. He started to grab all of my clothes, pushing them into my bag.
Up-up-update?
4/21/14