I felt hopeless. I would never get my chance now, it was over I lost him. I remember running from the sight in front of me tears blinding my vision. I run to the deserted part of the school were the fire struck I slide down to the floor in a hidden corner and sob. I sob till i am practically gagging. I sob until i feel nothing at all, not even the pain on my scalp from the relentless hair pulling I was inflicting upon myself. When I had finished i slowly picked myself up and walked over to the parking lot. While driving seeing Frank and Bob in the back seat smiling and cuddling it took everything in me from breaking down again into a complete wreck. When we arrive at my house I head for the front door straight away waiting for Mikey since he was the one with the keys. Before coming though he invites Frank to join our tradition of watching movies on halfdays, not taking no for an answer. He finally comes and unlocks the door ray and i following him into the house. He turns to try and speak to me but i put up my hand and shake my head. I walk into the kitchen feeling there looks of sympathy on my back before i hear there retreating footsteps into the basement. I walk over to the sink and hang my head letting a few more tears fall from my eyes. i look up and out of the kitchen window which has a clear view of the driveway. I see Bob with his body pressed up against Franks, pinning him to the car. Kissing him trailing kisses all over him and then him sucking at his neck. I look to Frank and see him with his eyes closed and mouth half open as if moaning. I turn away feeling the white hot sting of jealousy. I hear the front door open and quickly wipe my face with my hand and start to look for the popcorn. I hear their shuffling footsteps and some whispers. i quickly stick the popcorn into the humming microwave as to block out anything they might say. I suddenly feel a hand on my shoulder squeezing lightly. I turn to see the only man i will ever love in front of me. He stares at me with wide eyes full of nervousness and concern. I give him a small smile and he does the same relaxing a bit. "Hey Gee." I feel my heart flutter at the nickname he had given me from when we were best friends. " Hi Frankie." i reply. The small smile spreads across his face and reaches his eyes. " I missed you." he whispers. " Im sorry Frank for everything. I never wanted to hurt you. i just didnt know how to handle it and i was always so insecure. i've missed you too. God i have been such an asshole to you im sorry im sorry. i know you probably hate me but i wanted to change that today i wanted to-" He rushes at me wrapping his arms around me and hugs me tightly not letting me finish my sentence. Still holding on he takes a step back to look at me and begins to speak low so only i could possibly hear. " its okay Gerard. You were one of the biggest fucking assholes out there but i could never bring myself to hate you. Even through all the dirty looks and hurtful words i still loved and cared for you. I forgive you, but that doesnt mean i will ever forget what you have done to me. Okay? Hopefully now with Bob and i together we can all hang out more often and get to know each other again." "Thank you Frankie." I gaze into his smiling hazel eyes while feeling mixed tears of happiness and sadness pool behind mine. He smiles and rest his head against my chest breathing me in while i did the same to him. He looks up and says again, " I really did miss you Gee." he quickly leans up kissing my cheek and then heads down the basement stairs to join the others. I stand there cupping my cheek where his soft lips had landed. I felt my smile grow and feel the small flame of hope in my heart start to flicker back to life. I would be his best friend again and then he'll see me even with Bob in the way. i snatch the popcorn up and some cans of soda skipping down the basement stairs with a small smile on my face.

Notes

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