All That's Left Of Yesterday
I've become so numb
Mikey's P.O.V.
"Mikey!" Gerard yells as I fall into his arms. I faintly smile up at him, relieved to be in his arms. As I let him drag me to the couch tears start escaping his eyes and he tries to flatten my out-of-control hair.
"It's okay, Gee," I tell him. "Don't cry."
"What happened to you?" he whispers.
"I ran away," I start. I don't want to talk about it but I know I don't have a choice. "I needed to get away. Needed some time to myself."
I see Gerard looking at the bruises.
"I was heading back but I got kinda lost so I went up to someone and asked for directions. I didn't even recognise him at first. He got his hair cut off and I didn't know it was him. At least not until he spoke..."
I can see Gerard's eyes narrow. "What are you talking about, Mikes? Who was it?"
Swallowing hard, I tell him "It was the guy from the bar. The one that... That raped me..."
Gerard leaps up, fists clenched.
"When I realised who it was I tried to run but he had others with him. They grabbed me and they started hitting me. Then when they were done he asked me if I'd told anyone about what he did. I said I haven't and he said if he found out anyone knew... He'd kill me."
I feel tears running down my face, stinging my bruised cheeks. Gerard holds me in his arms, rocking me gently but I can feel that his fists are clenched.
"Don't worry, Mikey," he whispers in my ear. "It'll be fine; he's not going to hurt you anymore because I won't let him. I'm not going to keep you safe."
I sigh, cuddling Gerard closer to me. I wish I could believe him but I don't and I find myself sobbing harder into Gerard's shirt.
"Honestly Mike, no one's going to touch you." I smile faintly up at him.
"Not if I kill them first," he mutters under his breath. I wasn't meant to hear it but I do. He smiles down at me and my smile falters for a second but just for a second. I shouldn't be upset, Gerard's just trying to help me. And anyway these people deserve it. They deserve to pay.
"Mikey!" Gerard yells as I fall into his arms. I faintly smile up at him, relieved to be in his arms. As I let him drag me to the couch tears start escaping his eyes and he tries to flatten my out-of-control hair.
"It's okay, Gee," I tell him. "Don't cry."
"What happened to you?" he whispers.
"I ran away," I start. I don't want to talk about it but I know I don't have a choice. "I needed to get away. Needed some time to myself."
I see Gerard looking at the bruises.
"I was heading back but I got kinda lost so I went up to someone and asked for directions. I didn't even recognise him at first. He got his hair cut off and I didn't know it was him. At least not until he spoke..."
I can see Gerard's eyes narrow. "What are you talking about, Mikes? Who was it?"
Swallowing hard, I tell him "It was the guy from the bar. The one that... That raped me..."
Gerard leaps up, fists clenched.
"When I realised who it was I tried to run but he had others with him. They grabbed me and they started hitting me. Then when they were done he asked me if I'd told anyone about what he did. I said I haven't and he said if he found out anyone knew... He'd kill me."
I feel tears running down my face, stinging my bruised cheeks. Gerard holds me in his arms, rocking me gently but I can feel that his fists are clenched.
"Don't worry, Mikey," he whispers in my ear. "It'll be fine; he's not going to hurt you anymore because I won't let him. I'm not going to keep you safe."
I sigh, cuddling Gerard closer to me. I wish I could believe him but I don't and I find myself sobbing harder into Gerard's shirt.
"Honestly Mike, no one's going to touch you." I smile faintly up at him.
"Not if I kill them first," he mutters under his breath. I wasn't meant to hear it but I do. He smiles down at me and my smile falters for a second but just for a second. I shouldn't be upset, Gerard's just trying to help me. And anyway these people deserve it. They deserve to pay.
Notes
A/N - So I'm re-uploading this chapter because I forgot to post the chapter that went before it. Silly me.Title: Numb - Linkin Park
11/1/13