All That's Left Of Yesterday
Without you is how I disappear and live my life alone forever now
Gerard's P.O.V.
I don't know where Mikey could be, it's not like him to run off. I went to the police but they didn't seem bothered; they told me things like 'don't worry' and 'he'll probably turn up soon'. Probably? Probably isn't good enough! They also said that they can't do anything until after 48 hours.
I'm scared.
With Mikey's history, if he's run off who knows what he might do? If he tries to kill himself again, 48 hours is too long. I've been phoning around, asking all our friends if they've seen him but no one has. No one seems to care either. My little brother's gone missing and no one gives a shit!
I want to cry but I've been crying so much today that I'm not even I have any tears left. I haven't left the house in case Mikey comes home so I'm just sitting on the couch feeling helpless. I try doing the only thing I can think to do, I call his cell again. I must have tried at least 10 times in the past hour and it's always engaged. But I have to keep trying.
I feel so useless. When I first left the prison I drove around for an hour before heading home. If Mikey left on foot then I should have found him and I'm really worried. Someone could have taken him; he could be locked up in someone's basement right now; scared, hurt and all alone. Or worse, he could be lying in a ditch somewhere; broken and lifeless. No, I can't think like that, I mustn't.
My tummy rumbles but I try to ignore it. I haven't eaten all day and I didn't sleep all night either. How could I when I know Mikey needs me? No matter how tired I get I mustn't fall asleep incase Mikey calls or comes home. So I just sit here; cell phone in one hand, home phone in the other. One of them has to ring, someone has to see him at some point, he can't disappear completely. But neither of the phones ring because the doorbell beats them to it.
The noise makes me jump since I've been alone in this silent house for so long. At first I just stare at the door, shocked before I come to my senses, jumping up and running to the door. I pull it open and Mikey's bruised body falls limply into my arms.
I don't know where Mikey could be, it's not like him to run off. I went to the police but they didn't seem bothered; they told me things like 'don't worry' and 'he'll probably turn up soon'. Probably? Probably isn't good enough! They also said that they can't do anything until after 48 hours.
I'm scared.
With Mikey's history, if he's run off who knows what he might do? If he tries to kill himself again, 48 hours is too long. I've been phoning around, asking all our friends if they've seen him but no one has. No one seems to care either. My little brother's gone missing and no one gives a shit!
I want to cry but I've been crying so much today that I'm not even I have any tears left. I haven't left the house in case Mikey comes home so I'm just sitting on the couch feeling helpless. I try doing the only thing I can think to do, I call his cell again. I must have tried at least 10 times in the past hour and it's always engaged. But I have to keep trying.
I feel so useless. When I first left the prison I drove around for an hour before heading home. If Mikey left on foot then I should have found him and I'm really worried. Someone could have taken him; he could be locked up in someone's basement right now; scared, hurt and all alone. Or worse, he could be lying in a ditch somewhere; broken and lifeless. No, I can't think like that, I mustn't.
My tummy rumbles but I try to ignore it. I haven't eaten all day and I didn't sleep all night either. How could I when I know Mikey needs me? No matter how tired I get I mustn't fall asleep incase Mikey calls or comes home. So I just sit here; cell phone in one hand, home phone in the other. One of them has to ring, someone has to see him at some point, he can't disappear completely. But neither of the phones ring because the doorbell beats them to it.
The noise makes me jump since I've been alone in this silent house for so long. At first I just stare at the door, shocked before I come to my senses, jumping up and running to the door. I pull it open and Mikey's bruised body falls limply into my arms.
Notes
A/N - So I forgot this chapter somehow, sorry! I'm not quite sure how I managed that, but here it is now.Title: This Is How I Disappear - My Chemical Romance
11/1/13