Gerard's P.O.V
"Hey Gerard, what's wrong?"
It was my little brother, Mikey.
"Yeah, I'm fine." I lied.
"You don't sound fine." He jiggled the door nob. "Come on Gerard, let me in!"
"I'm fine! Fuck off!" I was in no state to talk to anyone let alone my little brother. He wouldn't understand he's only l4. "Please gee, dad's not home. He's probably out getting plastered. And I'm bored and lonely."
He's right he probably was at a bar getting shit-ass drunk. And you do not want to get in his way when he's drunk.
"Fine." I unlocked my door.
"Your crying gee. What's wrong?" He seemed truthfully worried. "Charlie moved today." A tear found its way down my cheek. "I'm so sorry. I know she was your best friend. I'm sorry." He wrapped his arms around me. "Thanks Mikes. You wanna watch a movie?" I thought that'd keep my mind off Charlie.
"Yeah, but you pick one." I picked The wizard of gore. Because it was one of my favorites. We finished the movie when i heard the front door open and then slam shut. Shit, he's home. "Gerard!!! Get your ass up here!" Not tonight. Just not tonight. I already got beat up once today. I walked slowly up the stairs. "Y-yes?" I said stammering slightly. "Why ain't these fucking dishes done yet?" Before i could even get an answer out he hit me in the stomach. My father hated me, and blamed me for my mother leaving us. He said it was because i was a faggot. And that she couldn't stand to be the mother of a queer.
He hit me again but this time he hit my nose. My nose started to gush blood. I was trying to stop it but it was no use. "Stop bleeding all over my carpet, you filthy faggot!" His boot hit my shin and i fell over. "Dad please stop he didn't do anything wrong!!" Mikey was standing in the stair way screaming for my father to stop. "You stay out of this. This ain't your fucking problem boy!" Mikey just sat there crying. He couldn't do anything. My father was I0x stronger than Mikey. When he was finished beating me, he left again. "Gerard!" Mikey came to my side sobbing. "I'm so sorry gee. I couldn't do anything."
"Im fine, really I'm ok. He didn't even give me his
Worst." That was a lie. I was in hell. My whole body ached.
"Lets get you to your room."
Mikey helped me hobble to my bed. "Thanks again Mikes. I love you."
"I love you to gee." He gave me a gentle hug. Before shutting off my lights and closing the door. As soon as i heard him go up stairs to his room. I slowly got up out of bed, grabbed the sleeping pills i keep under my bed, a bottle of vodka i always have handy, my razor blade, and a pen and paper. I wrote a suicide not to Mikey and Charlotte.
Dear Mikey and Charlotte, I'm so sorry. My life is in shambles. I can't do this anymore. School is killing me, i don't want to come home anymore. My life has spiraled out of control. But i do love you and Charlotte. I'm sorry that i put you through this.
Love, Gerard.
I folded the note and labeled it with Mikey and Charlotte's names. I placed it next to me. I swallowed half of the bottle of sleeping pills and washed them down with vodka. I brought my razor up to my left wrist and cut diagonally along the biggest vein i could see. I did the same to my right wrist. I sat for a minute just bleeding but i started to feel faint. I blacked out.
Mikey's P.O.V
I closed Gerard's door and went up to my room. I fucking hate my father. Gee didn't even do anything. Not doing the dishes is not something you should be beaten over. I put on my Smashing pumpkins CD and tried to relax. I can't stop thinking about Gee. I hope he's okay. I went to the kitchen and grabbed an ice back for Gerard. I walked down to his room. I knocked on the door. No reply. "Gerard?" I whispered. Still no reply. "Gerard!" I was worried. But nothing prepared me for what i saw when i opened the door.
"Gerard! Oh my god! No!" I screamed there was so much blood on the floor. I ran over to my brothers limp body. "Gee you have to wake up! Come on I'm not fucking playing. Get the fuck up!" No oh god. No. He can't be gone. "Gerard. Gee. Come on Gee." I brushed the hair out of his face. He's breathing! He's breathing! I grabbed my phone and dialed 9ll.

Notes

so i decided to put up the second update tonight because
whatever i can. so i hope you enjoy!
-toxic sunrise