I sat next to Gerard, singing along to Dead! from their third album... well it wont be out until 2007 but he wanted me to help him with songs for him. This is four years after Gee turned me. He's always been an over achiever. Im twenty now, and hes twenty-one. We still hang around the gang, seeing as they are in the band still. Every now and again, i get a twinge of love, or depression when me and Frank are conversing. I couldn't though. i was fateful to gerard... and i wouldn't let my ex boyfriend jeopardize us. Still, there'd be time when i just want to pop a bottle of pills into my mouth, drowned them with a whole bottle of vodka, and slit my wrists. But i dont. I couldnt hurt Gee or any of our friend like that. I was always faithful to gerard... but one day.....

April 25th 2002:
I was sitting next to Frank as Gerard sang us the new song he had written. We smiled and then he left us alone.
"Frank," i said, trying to swallow my lust.
"Helena." he said evenly.
"Listen, i miss you. could we please go back to how we were before you heard my admition four years ago?" i said and i saw him smirk.
"No shit sherlock!" he said and hugged me. Gerard came back in and said his goodbyes, he was going to tokeyo for a reason he wouldnt tell us yet. When he left, i looked at frank.
"Come on, i got food in the house." i said, and i saw him smile. a few days later, me and frank were sitting on the couch and i looked at him. My heart took control as i crashed my lips against his.

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sorry for any typos and such