Hold on Till May

Irmarie P.O.V.

I woke up thanks to my alarm clock.

"Stupid shit- why the fuck am I on the floor?" I asked myself.

I was on the floor, pillows all over the place. I thought for a moment but then remembered I fell out of bed in the middle of the night. I had decided to stay on the floor since I was too lazy to get up.

"Fuck you too, alarm clock!" I said and hit it off.

I rubbed my eyes and sighed.

I headed to my closet and grabbed my Crown The Empire t-shirt and some red skinny jeans just for the fuck of it.

I'm grumpy in the mornings, deal with it.

I brushed my hair and put on three bracelets on each arm.

I made my way to the kitchen. I grabbed a metal pan and a big wooden spoon.

I walked to my brother, Rocky's room. I opened the door with my free hand.

I stood there a second looking at my peaceful sleeping brother. Too bad that won't last long.

Usually Star will be awake to make me some breakfast and stuff like that. But since she left last night back to her collage, it was now Rocky's job.

I held out the metal pan and the wooden spoon. I started hitting the metal pan with the wooden spoon and yelled: "Get up you lazy ass!"

Yeah that's kind if how I wake up people... deal with it.

"I'm up! I'm up!" Rocky said and got to his feet. "Can you try another method to wake me up?" He asked.

"It's this or the way Spike does it." I said.

The way Spike usually wakes his brothers and sister up is by throwing a bucket of cold water at us. (Learned that the hard way.) We are all abusive at waking each other up.

Vinny wakes us up by flipping your bed along with you. (It hurts. Trust me.)

Rocky just bitch slaps you awake. (He hits pretty hard.)

I tell you. But we don't mind. We're all extremely heavy sleepers.

"Alright. Want some toast?" Rocky asked and he took the pan and spoon away from me.

"Sure." I said and sat down.

I laid my head down on the table and went to sleep again.

"Wake up!" Rocky bitch slap me.

"I'm awake!" I said.

"Sorry I had to do that. Anyways, here's your toast." Rocky said and headed back to his room.

I quickly ate my toast. I grabbed my book bag and ran to the bus stop.

While walking there, I saw a girl about my age walking to the bus stop too. I haven't seen this girl before in school. Hey, maybe she's new?

When I got there, Gerard, Mikey, and Frank were already there.

"I'm back!" I said to them.

"Irmarie!" They all said.

Before Mikey and Gerard can hug me, Frank tackled me to the ground.

"You know, sometimes I do hate you. Sometimes." I said to Frank.

"Please. You so love me." Frank said and helped me up.

"Yeah, you're right." I said and hugged him.

"What, no hugs for us?" Gerard asked.

"Oh, come here you guys." I said and hugged them.

After the little school-coming welcome, they continue their chat about superheroes. Turns out Gerard know a lot about them.

I sighed. I need some female friends. Yeah, I like superheroes and the guys and all, but I just really do need them female friends.

I looked at the ground for a moment. I felt someone poke me, so I jumped a little.

"Sorry, didn't mean to scare you!" It was the girl I saw earlier.

"It's fine." I stuttered.

"I couldn't help but noticed you have a Crown The Empire shirt. I like that band. Nice shirt, too." She smiled.

She had on a Pierce The Veil shirt, blue jeans. She had awesome pink and black hair. Suits her every well.

"Thanks. Nice meeting you..."

"The name's Venus Patterson. And yours?" Venus asked.

"Irmarie Hale." I said.

"Are you related to Lzzy Hale?" She asked.

"I-I don't think so..." I said.

"Eh, what ever. Hey, do you mind showing me around school? You seem friendlier than anybody here, other than the group of guys that hugged you and tackled you." Venus said.

"Sure. I'll be glad to show you around." I said.

"Yay!" She said. "I made my first friend on my first day of school!" Venus cheered. "Wait, you are my friend, right?" She asked in a serious tone.

"Yeah, we are." I smiled.

"Yay!" She hugged me.

"Come on. Let me introduce you the guys." I said. I grabbed her hand and took her to them.

"Hello guys. Mind if I interrupted. No, okay. Meet our new friend Venus Patterson." I said.

"Hey guys!" She waved.

"Hey!" They all said.

"Short-stack over there is Frank Iero-"

"Hey! I'm not short!" Frank protested.

"Fine. Fun Size." I said.

"That's better." Frank muttered to himself.

"Awkward Turtle over there is Mikey Way," I said pointing at Mikey.

"Hey Mikes!" Venus waved. Mikey waved at her back, but it was awkward. Like I said, Awkward Turtle.

"Sassy Motherfucker is Gerard Way, Mikey's older brother." I said.

"I'm not sassy," he rolled his eyes.

"Like I said, Sassy Motherfucker." I said.

Venus laughed. "Don't be in denial, dude." She said.

"Anyways, that's the gang for now." I said. "Oh, and he's my cousin. That's why he tackled me." I said pointing at Frank.

"Are you the only girl in the gang?" She asked.

"I don't know." I said and turned to them. "Am I?" I asked

"Dude, Alicia and Jamia." Mikey said.

"Oh, right. My bad." I said.

Venus smiled. "Wow, made friends at the first day of my new school."

"Welcome to our jailhouse," Gerard said.

When we got to school, I showed Venus where the office was. When she got her schedule, we saw which classes she got.

Jamia and Alicia all hugged me to death when they saw me.

"Cool, you have most of them with me," I said. "Except for first period..."

"What does she have first?" Alicia asked.

Yeah, since I was gone, Gerard started hanging out with them. Something I never had the courage to do, even though Frank is there. So, now we're part of the gang.

"I have cooking Ed." Venus said.

"I have that class first!" Jamia and Frank said.

"Great. Well, we should head over there." Venus said.

We waved goodbye and headed to our classes. Alicia had music first. Mikey and Gerard had P.E. first. I had science class. Fuck Mondays.

After I got out of science class, I ran to my locker. But, I was stopped by Giovanni and his new friends.

"Well well well. Look what we have here boys. We have the emo here." Giovanni said.

"Look here you dickhead, get out of my way. And F.Y.I., you got in the way, swag fags." I said and made a run for it. But, I was caught by my hair.

"Holy shit that hurts! Quit being such big babies," I said and they dragged me by my hair. "Real manly." I said.

"Fuck you, emo." Was all before Giovanni said before I was drugged to sleep.

When I woke up, I couldn't see anything. I tried to move from the uncomfortable way I was sitting, but I couldn't. I was in a small metallic space.

"Fucking great," I said to myself when I realize I was in a locker.

I knew I wouldn't last long being conscience considering it was hard to breath now. I think the worst part of being inside someone's locker is that you have to wait either for someone to be in this hallway, or until the bell rang.

I hit my head on the metal door.

"Maybe it was a bad idea to be his friend." I said to myself.

I knew I was right. It was a bad idea to be his friend, it's a horrible idea to be in love with him. Why can't this just be easy.

With that, I hit my head again. I kept hitting it until I couldn't feel the pain anymore. And it had to be Monday and Block Day too.

Block Day is when your classes are an hour and thirty minutes long. So, right now, there is a forty percent chance second period is going to be over. But, I'm sure Giovanni and his assholes just knocked me out long enough to put me here.

I sighed again. I'm missing history class with Gerard, Venus, and Jamia.

My eyes were getting heavy. "Great. Just great. I really need a cell phone." I said to myself. "I really want fries. Why am I talking about fries!" I said to myself. "I'm insane."

I heard footsteps then a voice.

"Check on the emo." I heard Giovanni say.

"Fine." I heard one of his friends say.

They start walking away while one of them head to the locker I am in.

"Hey, emo. You awake?" He asked.

I didn't respond. I barley have enough oxygen to breath. Or at least that's how it feels like...

"Emo?" He asked.

No I don't feel like talking to him.

"I-Irmarie?" The guy said.

Keep talking.

"Holy shit. What if she's dead?" The guy said to himself.

Real drama queen this guy is.

"Holy fuck I can go to jail for this!"

I bit my lip to avoid laughing.

"Oh my God!" He repeated the phrase then ran away. Thank God 'cause I couldn't handle it. So I started the to laugh.

"Oh man, this is so funny if it weren't for the fact that I'm in this locker..." I paused. "Yeah, you should get out of this locker, Irmarie." I said to myself.

I sighed and tried to sit up but I couldn't.

"Damn me for being fat." I said to myself.

I tried to move both of my hands to the metal door. I started knocking and knocking and shouted.

"Help! I'm in here! Help!" I yelled.

After a couple of minutes of hitting the metal door and yelling, my knuckles hurt and I felt I was chocking.

"Help." I whispered and laid my head on the cold metal door.

I knew I was hopeless. I tried to find any text books and see if the person who owned the locker has his or her name in here. But, as I looked, I couldn't feel any text books.

"Oh you have to be shitting me," I said.

I was in one of those empty lockers. Well, perfect spot to hide a body. I laughed. "They think I'm dead."

I breathed out. I hope someone can hear me in the crowd of people.

The bell rang and footsteps can be heard. The halls were filled with voices.

"You have five minutes. Don't fuck it up," I said to myself.

I knocked and knocked but no one can hear me considering that it was fucking loud.

"Life just hates me, doesn't it." I said to myself.

I knocked and yelled but no one came. Soon the bell rang again and the hallways got quiet.

"Great. I'm going to go insane here. Ha! I think I am already." I said.

I heard footsteps coming and faint voices. I press my ear to the locker's door.

"...she wasn't in class. Lunch time is almost coming, if she doesn't appear by then, then we go looking for her," I heard Gerard say.

"Gerard! I'M IN HERE!" I yelled and hit the door.

I heard him run along with other people and I'm guessing it's the rest of the gang.

"Hold on, Irmarie." I heard Frank say.

"I'm sitting my ass down this is how I'll hold on," I said.

"Don't sass us right now," Frank said.

"I'll sass you if I want to," I said.

"Damn she's sassy," I heard Venus say.

"Thank you darling. Now... GET ME OUT OF HERE MY ASS HURTS!" I said.

"Damn it's the empty locker. Uh..." Gerard said. "Stay back, don't be near the door."

"Geetard, I'm a wide girl in a small space. I can't move!" I said.

"As far as you can then!" Gerard said. "Cover your ears."

With that I covered my ears and heard a loud bang. The banging continued and the locker opened. I fell to the ground. Gerard and Frank helped me up.

"Are you okay?" They all asked.

"Yeah. I was just drugged to sleep, put in a small ass locker, they probably think I'm dead, and banged on the locker door forty times and shouted but no one heard me." I paused. "Yeah, I'm fine." I said in a serious tone 'cause I was.

"Come on, lets go to class. We'll talk about this at lunch." Mikey said and we all went to our classes.

I sat down at our seats. Well, new seats for me anyways.

"So, I was meaning to ask you guys earlier. Why did Irmarie said 'I'm back', to you guys and why did you girls hugged her like she hasn't been here in a while?" Venus asked.

"Well..." Jamia said and looked at me.

"I was at the hospital." I said.

"Why?" Venus asked.

"Well, I have Heart Block and had to get a pacemaker in my chest." I said.

"Oh. Okay, that makes sense." Venus said.

"So, why were you in that locker? Who put you there?" Gerard asked.

I looked down at my sandwich. "Irmarie?"

"Fine. Giovanni and his new groups of friends put me there." I said.

"That motherfucker." Gerard muttered.

"You better not do anything." I said.

"Why not? They hurt you." Gerard said.

"That's not the point. No revenge." I said.

"So, why did they think you were dead?" Frank asked.

"Oh, Giovanni send one of them to check on me. The guy tried to talk to me, assuming that I was awake, even though I was. But, I didn't respond to him 'cause I didn't felt like talking to the motherfucker. So, he assumed I was dead," I smiled.

"Oh you evil, sassy child," Alicia laughed.

"Well, they lay a finger on you, I'll have a word with them." Gerard said.

"It's fine." I said looking down my food and looked back at him.

I knew he knew what I was thinking. He was pissed because of it. Gerard wasn't pissed at me, no, he was pissed at Giovanni.

I mouthed 'It's fine.' But he mouthed 'No it's not.' I sighed and mouthed him to stop by my house after school. He mouthed okay.