blue neighborhood // frerard songfics
WILD
CH. 1: WILD
------
Gerard reflects on the homophobia he’s experienced in his life.
------
words: 317
------
trying hard not to fall
on the way home
Yeah. I’ll admit it. I was drunk. And it wasn’t my fault I had the prettiest boy walking me to my apartment.
Or, our apartment. His name is Frank. He’s my boyfriend.
you were trying to wear me down, down
kissing up on fences and up on walls
He was holding my hand. I wanted to kiss him so bad but I didn’t know how that would turn out on a dark downtown street. People were watching. Even holding hands in public was new to us.
on the way home
i guess it's all working out, now
I long for the day when we can kiss in public.
cause there's still too long to the weekend
I couldn’t wait until we got home. I could wrap my arms around his waist. I would do that and plant a kiss on his cheek and then he’d do that adorable little giggle thing.
too long till I drown in your hands
too long since I've been a fool, oh
God, I just wanted him to like, hold me?
leave this blue neighbourhood
never knew loving could hurt this good, oh
I remembered that in highschool I was beaten up for being gay. And I wasn’t even out yet. I had a girlfriend, even. Just to go deeper into the closet. Even now, I get harassed on the street when I’m out with Frank.
and it drives me wild
cause when you look like that
i've never ever wanted to be so bad, oh
it drives me wild
you're driving me wild, wild, wild
you're driving me wild, wild, wild
you're driving me wild
But when I look at him, I look at the way he loves me, the way I love him...it’s all suddenly worth it.
Notes
im pretty proud of this idea tbh
