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Don’t get to close it’s dark inside.

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Gerard’s POV

I was still in the hospital after nearly 2 weeks of being here and I was getting bored of being in the same room, looking at the same walls day in and day out.
“You have a visitor Gerard.” The nurse said and I looked up from the food which was in front of me which I didn’t touch.
“Hey Gee.” Mikey said happily which made me smile.
“Hey.” I said quietly as Mikey walked over and sat on the bed.
“So, I’m guessing you must be bored.” Mikey said and I smiled slightly.
“You have no idea.” I mumbled which made Mikey chuckle.
“So the therapist said it would be good if you drew what your nightmares are, or if you have any flash backs. It could also help the police get the bastards who did this too you.” Mikey said and I looked at him and I looked back down.
“There’s so many faces I’ve seen. Each one brings the same fear.” I whispered and Mikey rested his hand on top of mine which made me jump as I looked at him.
“Just try okay. I know mum and dad would be so please to see you if they was still alive. They would also want you to help the police.” Mikey said and I ignored that.
“Where they buried?” I asked quietly.
“At the church they would go to when you went missing.” Mikey said as he looked down and sighed.
“When I get out of here can you show me?” I asked and Mikey looked at me and he shook his head.
“I’m sorry Gee but I can’t, the foster family I’m with are moving and they said they would wait until the end of this week before we move.” Mikey said and I looked down as I my heart break.
“Gee I’m sorry, I honestly would stay here and be with you if I could.” Mikey said and I looked at him and smiled at him.
“It’s okay, I guess I’ll find a family like yours one day.” I said and Mikey smiled sadly at me.
“Promise me you’ll call me and we keep in touch because I’m not losing you again Gee. Also I’m sure you have a family who will show you love like what my foster family does.” Mikey said and I nodded and Mikey was thinking about something and he shrugged his shoulders as he hugged me which made me go stiff and Mikey chuckled softly.
“Relax Gee, it’s just a hug. It’s not going to hurt you.” Mikey said quietly and I carefully raised my arm and returned Mikey’s hug which made me smile as I rested my forehead against his shoulder.
“See, hugs fix many things.” Mikey said quietly and I pulled back and looked at him and smiled which Mikey returned.
“Need to go okay, I’ll make sure I come before I leave and you keep in contact with me and you also talk to someone okay.” Mikey said and I nodded.
“Love you okay, don’t do nothing stupid.” Mikey said as he got up and walked over to the door and he looked at me and smiled which I returned.
“Love you too Mikes.” I said and Mikey nodded as he walked out the room and I sighed for the thousandth time today and I got out of bed and got my sketch book Mikey got me along with the pencils and I walked over to the window and sat in it and started to draw.

“You haven’t eaten for 2 days now Gerard, if you don’t eat you’ll be tubed like when you first got here.” Don said as he walked into the room.
“The food taste nasty, might as well starve than eat that shit.” I said quietly as I looked out the window.
“It might not be the best in the world but I’m sure it probably better than what your used too.” Don said and I looked at the drawing which happened to be the food I was given while I was in hell.
“Okay yeah it may be better than what I’m used too but it still on the same level.” I said and Don chuckled.
“What’s this?” Don asked as he walked over and sat in the window sill and looked at the sketch book.
“Mikey is leaving.” I said quietly and Don looked at me.
“His foster family are moving and I guess Mikey wants to go with them and live with them so he is leaving with them by the end of this week.” I said quietly as I looked down and messed with my hands.
“There’s a family out there for you Gerard.” Don said and I shook my head.
“Nobody wants a fucked up kid like me, it would of been better if you left me with the monsters.” I whispered as I got up and walked over to the bed where I lead down so my back was to Don.
“Me and my family would love to have you.” Don said as he stood up and walked round the bed and sat in the chair which was on the other side of the bed where I was facing.
“You’re just saying that to get my hopes up.” I said quietly as I picked at the blanket.
“I’m not saying it to get my hopes up, me and my wife have agreed with my kids that you are welcomed into our home once your stay here is over.” Don said and I looked at him and frowned.
“The nurse with a lot of tattoos, that’s my wife.” Don said and I smiled as I did really like her as well.
“But I’m damaged goods, nobody would want me.” I said sadly and Don rested a hand on my knee which I moved out the way.
“Well me and my family would like you to join us.” Don said and I looked at him.
“Tomorrow you’ll be discharged and they was going to put you in a home which had loads of kids in and it wouldn’t of been fair for you to be moved around and be in distressed than what you are already. Yeah my house is a bit noisy but that’s the joys of 2 teenagers, but I’m hoping you will like it more than being in a care home.” Don said and I couldn’t help but smile.
“Right I need to go and talk to some people but hopefully I’ll see you tomorrow.” Don said and I nodded as I sat up and sighed as Don walked out the room.
I’ve learnt not to get my hopes up after it being drummed into my head from a young age so until tomorrow comes.

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I was packing the very little things I had in my rucksack when someone knocked on the door and I looked up and saw Don and the nurse I got on with well and I looked at their hands and saw they was holding hands so I guessed they was together.
“Gerard this is my wife Finn, she’s also been the nurse who has been looking after you.” Don said and I nodded.
“You got your stuff ready?” Finn asked and again I nodded as I picked my rucksack up and walked over to them.
“You have no clothes?” Finn asked and I shook my head.
“Just these.” I said as I looked at the rags I have worn for the last 3 years.
“That won’t do, look we asked our boy if there was any clothes he didn’t want and here are some clothes we picked up for you.” Finn said as she reached the bag out and I reached out and took the bag and looked at the clothes and smiled slightly as I went to the bathroom and took my rags off and put these clothes on and I looked in the mirror and I felt a little more human.
I looked at the clothes on the floor and I just left them there as I walked out the room.
“Told you the trousers would be too short.” Don said and Finn chuckled.
“Well it’s not Frank’s fault he has your short genes.” Finn said and Don chuckled.
“It’ll do for now and when you have settled in we can go shopping to get you clothes which fit you.” Finn said and I smiled as I nodded.
“Come on then let’s get you out of here then.” Don said and I followed them out of the room to their car and after a drive we got to their home.

We got to the house and we all got out the car and I looked at their home and it reminded me of a home I was kept at.
“Looks like Frank is still in bed.” Don said and Finn chuckled softly as they went inside and I followed them inside.
I walked inside and just like the outside it reminded me of a home I was once locked away in.
“Franklin, Arya wake up!” Don said loudly which made me jump and I dropped my sketchbook which made Finn look round and Don had this worried look on his face.
“I’m fucking up okay.” A girls voice said from upstairs and Finn went upstairs and I picked my sketchbook up and looked at Don.
“Follow me then.” Don said and I followed him to the sitting room which looked tidy but at the same time you could tell they had kids with the mess.
“Guys we want you too meet Gerard.” Finn said and I turned round and saw a girl who must be a bit younger than what I was and a boy with no top on and he had tattoos who looked a bit older than what I was.
“Gerard this is Frank and Arya they are both round about the same age as you so they’ll probably teach you all the bad ways.” Don said and I stayed quiet and I held my sketchbook closer to my chest as I shifted on my feet not liking this situation.
“Can I go back to bed now?” The boy asked and someone sighed and the boy just ignored them and walked out the room and the girl just stood there and stared at me which wasn’t making the situation any easier for me.
“Is he mute or something?” The girl asked bluntly.
“Arya don’t be rude.” Finn said seriously.
“What, he hasn’t spoken or anything since he got here.” The girl said attitude rolling off her.
“He is nervous about being here, we have been through this Arya.” Finn said and the girl sighed dramatically and walked out the room.
“Don’t mind them, Frank isn’t one for getting out of bed early at the weekends and Arya is a little bitch.” Don said and I nodded.
“Let me show you where your room is.” Finn said and I followed her to where my room is.
“It’s not much but hopefully you’ll make it your own as you settle in.” Finn said and I nodded as I walked in my new room and Finn left me alone to settle in.

I was sat in my window when someone walked into my room which made me jump as I quickly stood up and looked at the boy.
“You didn’t have to move from the window if that’s where your happy sitting. I was just coming in to give you some bedding I don’t use anymore so you can make your bed up.” The boy said and I frowned at him as I looked at the unmade bed.
“I’ve got a bed?” I asked quietly and the boy looked at me confused a little.
“Yeah, what sort of person doesn’t sleep on a bed.” The boy said and I looked down.
“Oh shit, you never slept on a bed?” The boy asked and I shook my head.
“That’s okay, did you use to sleep on a mattress?” The boy asked and I nodded.
“Alright then.” The boy said as he walked into my room more and walked over to my bed and pulled the mattress off which made me move to the other side of the room and be as far as I could get from him.
“I’m not going to hurt you silly. Nobody here will hurt you, Arya May be a bit bitchy towards you but that’s because she won’t be the centre of attention and also she like it too everyone so whatever she says don’t take it to heart.” The boy said and I nodded slightly.
“Do you know how to make a bed?” The boy asked and I looked him lost and confused on what he was talking about as all I’ve ever had was a tatty mattress and a blanket with holes in it.
“I’ll take that answer as a no.” The boy said as he looked round for somewhere for my mattress to go.
“Do you want to put your mattress where you want it too go?” He asked and I nodded as I gingerly moved toward him and the mattress and I moved the mattress to where I was standing and once I was happy where it was I looked at him.
“Okay so I will apologize now for the bedding I’ve given to you because it’s fucking awful and I generally wouldn’t wish anyone to have it but until mum takes you shopping for stuff then it’ll have to do.” The boy said and I nodded.
“Here I’ll show you how to make a bed.” The boy said and walked towards me and I moved again so I was far away from him.
“You’re not going to see much standing there. Come on I’m not going to bite or anything like that.” The boy said and I looked down as I slowly walked over to a distance where I could see but I still didn’t like it.
After he had showed me how to make the bed he looked round the room.
“You need some posters, give me a second.” He said as he walked out my room and I was really at a lost now and it was starting to make me panic.
“Frank, you scaring him.” The girl said bluntly as the boy walked back into my room.
“Come on you two, I know you’re just being friendly and wanting Gerard to settle in but being all in his face isn’t going to help Gerard in the slightest.” Don said as he walked past my door.
“I’ll leave this here for you. There’s some tape there to stick what you want on the walls.” The boy said as he put the stuff on the floor and walked off.
Once I knew everyone was far away I moved and looked at the poster and there was a couple I liked so I put them where I liked and I went back over to the window and sat in it and looked out to study the world which I’ve never seen before.

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I moved from the window to the mattress when someone knocked on the door and I looked up to find the girl stood at the door.
“We’re having dinner if you want dinner.” She said and walked off.
I sighed and went back what I was drawing when a couple of minutes later someone else knocked on my door and I looked up and saw Don leaning against the door.
“Come on kiddo, you need to eat and we have Chinese downstairs.” Don said and I frowned at him as I don’t even know what this was.
“Come downstairs and you’ll see what we’ve got.” Don said and I closed my sketchbook and got off my mattress and followed Don downstairs.
“Right so here is the section of food we have gotten.” Don said as he helped himself too the food and I just stood back away from everyone until they had gone into the sitting room and I walked over and got my plate and looked at the food in front of me and I frowned at the food as I’ve never seen food like this before.
“You better get your food quick as me and dad will literally eat it all.” The boy said which made me jump and look at him.
“What is this?” I asked quietly and he looked at me shocked as I’ve never had whatever this was before.
“Want me to tell what’s in tub?” He asked and I nodded which made him smile as he walked over and told me what was what.
In the end I went with this chicken and noddle thing which was really nice.
After we had eaten we all stayed downstairs and sat in the sitting room where we watched films or this one tv show which I had no clue what it was about.

Half way through the film I felt sick so I got up and went upstairs where I ran to the bathroom where I threw up what food I had eaten.
“Gerard you okay?” A voice from the other side of the door asked and I spat in the toilet and I took my top off as I was really hot and I also managed to get some sick down it and I walked over to the door and opened it.
“You okay sweetie?” Finn asked and I nodded which made Finn smile as she looked at my chest which like my back was scared from everything people had done to me and then I had scars round my wrists and ankles and I also had a small scar on my cheek from a couple of years ago. I also had this tally tattoo on my leg which showed how people has had me in the past.
“Did you want a shower?” Finn asked and I nodded and Finn walked off somewhere which made me open the bathroom door more and I stepped out without my top on and I heard someone gasp behind me and I looked and saw the girl and the boy.
I quickly retreated into my bedroom where I slammed the door and I slid down the door and I felt myself cry.

I had moved from my door and was now sat on the floor in the corner hiding from anyone who opened the door.
“Gee? Gee you in here?” A voice said and the only person who has ever called me Gee was Mikey so I carefully came out of my hiding place and looked at the person and it wasn’t Mikey.
“You can have a shower if you want one.” He said and I shook my head.
“I’m sorry I looked at you, it’s just we never seen someone with so many scars like yours, in fact dad never really is interested in someone like you before.” The boy said and I just shrugged my shoulders as I looked back at the floor.
“You want to play a game on the Xbox with me?” The boy asked and I looked at him a frowned which made him chuckle.
“Come on I’ll show you.” The boy said and I stood up and followed him out my room and followed him to his room which was a mess.
“Ignore the mess, I was going to clean it today but never got round to it.” He said and I smiled as he sat on his bed and I just stood there looking around his room and frowned at a poster.
“You like the band?” He asked and I looked at him.
“Someone who I was with used to like this band. They had the exact same poster as you.” I said quietly and he frowned at me.
“Make yourself comfy okay, I just need to speak to dad a minute.” He said as he walked out the room and I just stood there confused on what to do and I noticed that he had a cage in his room so I walked over and saw there was 2 rats in the cage which made me frown slightly.
I was busy looking at the rats that I didn’t hear the boy come back in the room.
“See you found Remy and Sulley.” He said which made me jump as I spun round to look at him.
“I wasn’t being nosy.” I said quickly and he chuckled as he walked over and stood next to me.
“It’s fine, you can look at them. Hey do you want to hold one?” He asked and I looked at him co fused on what I should answer.
“Go and sit on the bed and I’ll bring them over.” He said and I walked over to the bed and sat on the bed.
“They won’t bite will they?” I asked as he walked over with both rats on his shoulders and he sat on the bed.
“Nope, these type of rats are pretty laid back about life.” He said as he put one rat on my lap which made me freeze as the rat climbed up my arm and around my shoulders and over my head.
“So the one who you got is Remy and this one is Sulley.” He said and I nodded as he reached over and took the rat off my head and put it on his bed and he lead back on his bed and went on to playing his game as the rats ran around his bed and I just sat there watching him playing this game and I made a fuss of the rats when they came near me.

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