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Until I lived my life

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Gerard’s POV

I walked upstairs and knocked on Tallie’s door and it opened where Ewan stood there and smiled at me and then he looked at Tallie and then back at me and he put the dots together and he left the room and went downstairs to keep Frank company.
I walked in the room where Tallie looked up and all her mascara was all down her cheeks and she sniffed loudly.

“I’m sorry for how I acted.” I said and Tallie looked down.
“Can I come in and we talk about this?” I asked and Tallie nodded as I walked into her room and I shut the door behind me and I walked over to her bed and sat down and I pulled her into my side as I kissed the top of her head.
“I’m so sorry dad.” Tallie sobbed.
“It’s okay, I didn’t exactly handle it well either.” I said and Tallie looked at me and I smiled softly at her as I kissed her forehead and I got up and walked over to where she kept her make up and grabbed the wipes she used to take all the make up off and I walked back over and sat on her bed and I slowly started to take her make up off which made Tallie smile slightly.
“You are beautiful enough with out all this shit on your face.” I said and Tallie chuckled.
“You would say that because I’m your kid.” Tallie said and I rolled my eyes.
“Nope, I’m not saying it because your mine.” I said and Tallie smiled slightly.
“Now on a serious note, what do you want to do about the problem?” I asked and Tallie sighed as she looked down.
“I don’t know dad. I was hoping you would know what to do.” Tallie said and I smiled at her.
“Well, if you want to keep it then I’ll support you and if you don’t want it then I’ll still support you. Whatever you choose I’m going to support you.” I said and Tallie looked at me still confused on what to do.
“I’m a grade A student, I’ve got big plans for my future and I want to travel.” Tallie said quietly.
“How far along are you?” I asked and Tallie looked down.
“About 9 weeks.” Tallie whispered.
“Was it consensual or not?” I asked and Tallie looked at me.
“Yeah, I mean he’s fucked off now but nothing bad happened.” Tallie said as she sniffed and looked down again.
“Do you want to be a single mum at the age of 16? Do you want to give all your dreams you’ve got up because that is what is going to happen for 18 years. I mean when their little yes they are fantastic it Christ when they get to your age they are fucking hard work.” I said and Tallie chuckled.
“I don’t know.” Tallie whispered.
“Well I’ll let you think about it okay, I’m here if you want to talk about it or you have made your mind up on what to do. You know where my room is if you want me.” I said and Tallie looked at me and smiled.
“That’s If Frank doesn’t get in there.” Tallie said and I chuckled as I looked down and smiled slightly.
“You like him.” Tallie said and she playfully punched my arm.
“So what if I did, I’m sure he’s just using us until the weather gets nicer and then he’ll be out of here. So might as well not bother getting my hopes up.” I said and Tallie smiled as I looked at her.
“I don’t think Frank is that type of person.” Tallie said and I sighed.
“You never know until the time comes.” I said quietly.
“Right I need to get dinner sorted. You okay?” I said and Tallie nodded.
“Yeah I’m good now we’ve talked.” Tallie said and I smiled as I got up and walked out the room and went downstairs where I found Ewan and Frank playing something on the Xbox which made me smile as I went to the kitchen to see what I could do for dinner.

I was sat in my office dealing with some paperwork when someone knocked on the door which made me look up where I saw Frank.
“It’s late, thought I would come and see if your going to bed.” Frank said quietly.
“I have loads to do.” I said as I sat back and Frank walked into the room and lent against my desk.
“Work can wait, you need sleep as those dark circles under you eyes don’t suit you.” Frank said and I frowned at him.
“Honestly, your pale skin and those dark rings aren’t a good match.” Frank said and I looked down as I sighed.
“You can sleep when your dead.” I said quietly and Frank made me look at him.
“No you sleep at night like a normal person because if you don’t you will be exhausted and will barely be able to function.” Frank said softly.
“You don’t understand.” I whispered.
“Well I know it’s hard going from working on the streets and selling yourself to being classed as a normal human that sleeps during the night is hard to get back into.” Frank said and I shook my head.
“Just don’t try to understand.” I whispered as I looked away from Frank as I saved the work I done and got up and walked out the room and I went upstairs to my room not before I quickly checked on the kids and they was both sound asleep.

Frank followed me to my room where he shut the door which made me turn round and look at him.
“You know I understand the whole street life side of things.” Frank said and I sighed.
“It’s just not that you don’t understand okay, just don’t bother trying to understand.” I said quietly which made Frank sigh quietly.
“Well I think I should know the person I’m living with. Other than you was a street rat like me and that you was a teenager when you had the twins along with having a drug and alcohol addiction I know fuck all about you.” Frank said and I looked at him.
“I don’t want to talk about me okay.” I said seriously and Frank sighed.
“Maybe you are just like the rest of the posh snobs in this place and you just think about yourself and nobody else matters.” Frank said coldly as he walked out the room which made me sigh loudly as I sat on my bed and thought about everything.
I got off the bed and pulled a hoodie in and walked out my room and went downstairs to make myself a drink and I went to sit in the sitting room and played a game on the Xbox trying to distract myself.

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“Is everything okay dad? You look kinda lost.” Ewan said as he walked into my office since he wanted me to sign something.
“Just the lack of sleep and a million things going round my head that’s all, nothing for you or your sister to worry about.” I said and I sighed the letter and gave it back to Ewan.
“Do you know where Frank is?” Ewan asked and I shrugged my shoulders.
“Nope I have no clue where he is.” I said as I got back to my work.
“Aren’t you worried about him?” Ewan asked.
“He’s a grown man and he can make his own choices. If he wanted to leave us than that is his choice and I can’t do nothing about it.” I said and Ewan looked down as he nodded and he turned round and walked out the room leaving me to my thoughts yet again.

I was sat outside having a cigarette when the back door open and Frank walked out and joined me.
“What I said was wrong of me.” Frank said after a couple of minutes of silence.
“Doesn’t bother me, had worse said to me.” I said as I looked down and flicked the ash off my cigarette.
“Clearly it does bother you since you are completely lost inside your head at the moment.” Frank said and I shook my head.
“It’s fine okay, I’m fine. I don’t need you to worry about me.” I said and Frank’s hand went on my knee which made me look at him.
“You’re not fine, I can see that my words have hurt you. There’s just something about you which makes me want to worry about you.” Frank said and I smiled slightly as I looked back down but Frank made me look at him.
“I’m sorry Gee. I know you’re not like the rest of them and you are helping me find my feet again.” Frank said softly as his other hand moved and rested on my cheek.
I smiled as I lent forward and pecked Frank on the lips.
“All is forgiven.” I whispered as I moved and got up and went back inside leaving Frank to smoke a cigarette.

“So you work from home, have other people work for you and yet you never go out with all the time you have spare. You a hermit or something?” Frank said as he sat next to me in the sitting room.
“Yeah I do go out, but I have this big business meeting next week and I need to get everything sorted for that because if I don’t I could loose out on what I have worked for and for all the plans I have later on.” I said as I worked off my laptop which Frank pushed the screen down and pulled it out of my hand and put it on the coffee table.
“You smell bad, go and have a shower and we’ll get out of here and have a meal out or something because I am bored looking at these four walls.” Frank said and I smiled at him as I looked at my laptop as I sighed
“You’ve got to change as well.” I said and Frank smiled at me as we both got up and I went to have a shower and get changed and met Frank in the kitchen where he was leaning against the island and he smiled when he saw me.
“So there is a good looking gentleman under all those sloppy clothes.” Frank said and I smiled as I looked down.
“Of course there is, but I dress up all the time. Why would I do it here when nobody is going to see me.” I said and Frank chuckled as I looked back up and I looked Frank up and down, I looked at Franks face and he had a smirk on his face.
“You wash up well. I mean not having a bird nest makes you look better.” I said and Frank smiled at me.
“So where are we going then?” Frank asked and I smiled as I grabbed my jacket which was hanging from the back of the sofa and went outside with Frank following and I took Frank to one of my favorite restaurants.

“This place is beautiful and the food is the shit.” Frank said and I chuckled as put some food in my mouth as slowly ate.
“Me and the kids come here a lot.” I said and Frank smiled at me but he soon frowned at me.
“Is everything okay? You’re awfully quiet and distant today.” Frank said and I smiled at him.
“Yeah I’m just stressing and worrying about this meeting coming up.” I said and Frank nodded as he ate some of his food.
“I’m sure you are going to nail it.” Frank said and I smiled as I looked down.
“What else is bugging you, come on we’re two blokes here we can talk.” Frank said bluntly which made me chuckle.
“I need to go out of town but I have Tallie to worry about and everything else to worry about.” I said and Frank wrapped his feet round my ankles which made me frown at him.
“Well stop worrying, I’ll keep an eye on the kids and make sure nothing bad happens.” Frank said and I smiled slightly.
“You don’t have to, it won’t be the first time the kids have been left to entertain themselves.” I said and Frank shrugged his shoulders.
“Think of it as family bonding.” Frank said and I frowned at him.
“Nothing is happening between us okay.” I said and Frank pouted at me.
“Well damn now my feeling are hurt.” Frank said and I rolled my eyes as I put my knife and fork together to say I had finished my meal.
Couple of minutes later Frank had finished his meal and I paid for the meal and we went for a walk round the park.

Me and Frank got back to find the kids had gone out as well so we was alone in the house.
“You know, you need to let your walls down to someone eventually. Can’t keep it all bottled up as it’s not going to do you any good.” Frank said as he sat next to me on the sofa.
“Guess I haven’t found the person to do that too.” I said as I looked at Frank who smiled at me which I returned as I looked down.
“Seriously, I mean a good looking guy like you and who has money doesn’t have a single person in your life.” Frank said as he sat sideways on the sofa and resting his elbow on the back of the sofa.
“Nope I’ve got nobody.” I said and Frank frowned at me.
“What stops you being with someone?” Frank asked and I raised a eyebrow at him.
“Why you so curious on when I was with someone?” I asked and Frank shrugged his shoulders.
“Because we’ve talked about everything else so next thing on the chat list is your Love life.” Frank said and I rolled my eyes.
“So why is it mine and not yours?” I asked.
“Because I’m a slut and I have enjoyed slutting myself out too much to settle down with someone. Whereas you aren’t like me now so you are pretty much the only one out of us who has a love life.” Frank said and I chuckled as I looked down.
“I was with someone about 2 years ago but then they fucked me over.” I said quietly and I looked away from Frank and he made me look at him.
“When you say fucked you over what do you mean?” Frank asked softly and I looked down with my eyes all the shame washing over me.
“Oh shit, they did the dirty.” Frank said quietly.
“He did more than that.” I whispered and Frank put his hand on my knee which made me look at him.
“They made me relapse for 8 months but the kids don’t know, please don’t tell the kids about it otherwise I will have them taken off me and I can’t loose my children.” I said desperately and Frank smiled as he lent forward and kissed me which got me flustered but I returned it but pulled back quickly as I looked down and I stood up and went to walk out the room when Frank spoke.
“I promise I won’t tell the kids.” Frank said and I looked at him and smiled which Frank returned and I went to the bathroom and ran myself a bath and just relaxed in the bath.

When I got out the bath I walked out the bathroom to find Frank standing by the door which made me jump.
“Jesus you scared the shit out of me.” I said and Frank chuckled as he looked me up and down which made me look away from him.
“Shit never realized you was covered in scars.” Frank said quietly and I felt a tear roll down my cheek.
“Gee don’t cry.” Frank said softly as he stepped towards me and I took a step back as I shook my head.
“Gee I didn’t mean to say that.” Frank said and a few more tears rolled down my cheeks as I looked at Frank.
“Well you did and yes I’m covered in scars because of that bastard.” I said and Frank smiled as he continued to look at me.
“Can you stop looking at me. I get it I’m disgusting just say it now and get it over and done with.” I said and Frank chuckled.
“When I say you are beautiful I mean it. You’re anything but disgusting you’re gorgeous. Going to have more ugly looking to get rid of me.” Frank said and he stepped towards me again but I didn’t move and the gap between me and him was barely there anymore.
“What you doing?” I asked and Frank smirked at me.
“Well we have the house to ourselves.” Frank said as he caught hold of my hand which made me frown at him.
“Come on please don’t tell you can’t take the hint.” Frank said with a pout and I chuckled as I smiled at him.
“I can take the hint and u til you get your dick tested, your dick isn’t coming near me.” I said and Frank smirked.
“What if I cover it?” Frank asked and I chuckled.

“The answer is still no, test your dick and I might be able to give you something.” I said with a smirked as I walked off and I felt Frank watching me.

Notes

Comments

This has been so good!

I’m certainly interested in this story. It’s pretty good so far!

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1/4/19