Until I lived my life

Frank’s POV

“Shit you look like you had a rough time last night.” Jamie said as I stood round the fire that the homeless people make to warm ourselves up with when it was really cold down this alleyway.
“The bloke got all funny with me when I said he had to pay me and yeah so he beat me up instead of paying me.” I said quietly as I smoked a cigarette.
“Was that before or after the posh guy in the bar?” Jamie asked and I looked at him.
“Obviously after him, anyway that guy isn’t even my type of person anyway.” I said and Jamie raised his eyebrow at me.
“Please I caught you two walking off somewhere and you was totally flirting with him.” Jamie said and I rolled my eyes at him.
“Kinda what we have to do to get someone to sleep with us dumbass.” I said and Jamie shrugged his shoulders.
“I dunno, your body language was definitely flirting with him but wasn’t about getting into his pants.” Jamie said and I sighed as I flicked my cigarette into the fire pit.
“He’s the first person who isn’t on the streets to treat me like a normal person, I mean he said I could go to one of his clubs on a Tuesday to have hot food and a drink and talk to him if I wanted to talk to someone. He’s so different compared to all the other posh fuckers out there.” I said and Jamie smiled at me.
“You do like him but only because he’s being nice to him and once the weather warms up you’ll just ditch him like with everyone else.” Jamie said and I sighed.
“He reminds me so much of my family.” I said quietly as I thought about the family I once had before everything got out of hand.
“Hey don’t need to think about the past, you have a future to look forward too.” Jamie said and I shook my head.
“If a future involves me staying on the streets then I might as well just go and kill myself.” I said as I walked off into the darkness.

I was sat in a doorway of some shop freezing my balls off when someone came over and stood in front of me.
“You open for business?” The person asked and I looked at them and saw there was two other people with them.
“Not tonight.” I said as I went to stand up and walk away but one of them caught hold of my arm which made me turn round and looked at him.
“Get your hand off me.” I said seriously.
“You give us what we want and then we’ll leave you alone.” The person said and I frowned at him.
“Just because I’m homeless and sell myself doesn’t give you the right to think my ass is open for you.” I said and the person chuckled.
“You think you’ll find that your ass is open 24/7.” The person said and I shook my head.
“I still have a right to say no and I am saying no now so get your friend to get his hand off me now and leave me the fuck alone.” I said seriously and that’s when something smacked me round the back of the head and everything went black.

“Dude you okay?” I heard someone say as I opened my eyes and saw two teenagers looking at me.
I groaned loudly as I went to move but every part of me just hurt.
“Hey, isn’t this the man dad was with the other night?” The girl asked and I felt really cold and one of the two noticed and put something over me.
“He looks like him, phone dad.” The boy said as I looked at them but I couldn’t really see much.
“Come on buddy, let’s sit you up as it’s not comfy here and it’s really cold on the floor.” The boy said as he helped me to sit up which made me cry out in pain.
“Please come dad, he’s hurt really bad.” The girl said quickly down the phone.
“Tal go and get some blankets from a shop and get a thick coat if you can find one.” The boy said and the girl nodded as she walked off and left me with the boy.
“It’s okay, me and my sister are going to help you the best we can until our dad gets here.” The boy said as he took his coat off and put it over me.
“You’ve just got to try and stay awake for okay. My dad will be here soon.” The boy said and I nodded as I forced myself to stay awake.

“Hey don’t fall asleep on me.” A new voice said and I opened my eye to see Gerard looking at me with a really worried look on his face.
“We did everything we could dad.” The boy said and Gerard looked at the boy and smiled at him.
“You both did good, now go home and I’ll be home as soon as I can.” Gerard said and the kids looked at me and they turned round and walked off.
“What happened Frank?” Gerard asked softly as he got something out a bag which made me flinch slightly as Gerard pulled a jumper out of the bag.
“I don’t remember.” I whispered as I reached for the jumper and winced and groaned a lot as I put it on.
“I’ve got you some bottoms as well if you want to put them on.” Gerard said and I looked at him alarmed.
“I’ll tell you what the kids told me when we get to mine and somewhere less public.” Gerard said quietly and I looked down feeling ashamed.
“I won’t put trousers on.” I said quietly as I knew something really bad had happened to me and I couldn’t move.
“I’m going to pick you up okay because I can see in your eyes you are in a great deal of pain. Is there anything you want to take with you?” Gerard said and I shook my head and Gerard smiled softly at me as he stood up and wrapped me in the blanket to cover what very little modesty I have left.
“Let’s get you back to mine.” Gerard said softly as he walked us towards where he lived.

“Is he okay?” The girl asked as she and the boy watched Gerard look me over from a distance respecting the privacy Gerard had asked them to give us.
“He’ll be okay, now go and sort the spare room out for me Tallie and can you sort the bath out for me Ewan while I look Frank over.” Gerard said and the girl and the boy walked out the room shutting the door behind them.
“Your children are so well mannered.” I said and Gerard chuckled.
“Trust me, if you stay here for long enough you will find out they are normal teenagers but they do have good kind hearts and will help those in need.” Gerard said as he looked at my face and then he looked at the first aid box and got something out of it.
“This will sting like a bitch but I need to clean your face.” Gerard said and I sighed loudly which made Gerard smile as he reached to wipe my face and true to his word it fucking stung badly.
“Ow that fucking hurts.” I said as I moved my face away from Gerard.
“Well I did warn you.” Gerard said as he looked at my chest which was not only covered in tattoos but bruises as well.
“What happened to me?” I whispered and Gerard looked at me.
“When the kids found you, you was bollock naked and you had been beaten black and blue.” Gerard said as he looked down.
“What else aren’t you tell me?” I asked seriously.
“You was also raped.” Gerard said as he stood up and walked over to the bed and picked a towel up and walked over to me.
“Let’s get you in the bath.” Gerard said quietly and I looked at him and saw some pain in his eyes.
I tried to stand up but I couldn’t stand as everything just really hurt.
“It’s okay, I’ll help you if you want my help.” Gerard said and I smiled at him as I nodded and Gerard placed the towel over my lap and picked me up and carried me to the bathroom where he place me on the side.
“I can give you some privacy once your in the bath or I can help you wash and bathe your injuries if you want me to do that.” Gerard said softly and I looked at him and looked back down again.
“Can I have some privacy please.” I said quietly and looked at Gerard who smiled at me which I sort of returned.
“Sure, would you like me to help you into the bath?” Gerard asked and I sighed loudly as I nodded as I knew that I wouldn’t be able to move on my own.
“Okay, I promise I won’t look.” Gerard said and I couldn’t help but smile.
“Wouldn’t bother me, think half the guys in the city have seen my dick to be honest.” I said and Gerard chuckled.
“Well I think there’s a time and a place for seeing your dick and now isn’t the time or the place for that.” Gerard said softly as I gingerly slid myself off the side and I unwrapped the towel from my waist and looked at Gerard who true to his word wasn’t looking at my dick but at my face and I looked down as Gerard step over to me and put his arm under mine and we slowly walked over to the bath where Gerard helped me into the bath.
“Just give me a shout and I’ll come and help you get out the bath and show you where your room is.” Gerard said and I looked at him and smiled as I nodded as I let myself sink into the warm water.
Gerard chuckled softly as he turned round and walked out the room taking my dirty clothes with him and he shut the door behind him leaving me in peace.
Once I knew I was completely alone I felt a tear roll down my cheek and I sniffed as I wiped the tear away but it didn’t stop the tears from rolling down my cheeks as I tried to enjoy having a bath for the first time in a really long time.

I had gotten out the bath and was sat downstairs with everyone and Gerard’s kids asking loads of questions.
“Stop bothering him will you and get to the bed the pair off you as it’s late.” Gerard said as he walked into the sitting room bring drinks with him.
“Come on Dad, it’s not everyday you bring someone home.” The boy said and I looked at Gerard who rolled his eyes.
“The reason for that is because you two are too nosey for your own good and would more than likely scare the person away so bugger off to bed now.” Gerard said and they both sighed loudly as they got up and the girl walked over to Gerard and kissed his cheek as the boy carried on walking and headed towards the stairs and that’s when he shouted night to us both.
“Night dad, night Frank.” The girl said as she walked off and went up the stairs.
“I’m so sorry about them, thought as they got old they grew out the questioning stage, guess my two didn’t do that.” Gerard said as he walked over to the sofa and sat next to me handing me a mug of what smelt like chocolate.
“It’s fine, it doesn’t bother me that much.” I said and Gerard chuckled as he put the tv on and loaded it onto this thing called Netflix.
“Anything you enjoy watching on here?” Gerard asked and I looked at him.
“I don’t even know what this is let alone anything to watch.” I said and Gerard chuckled softly as he found something to watch.
“Well I’m hoping you’ll enjoy this as I’ve been eyeing it up for ages.” Gerard said as he turned the lamp on and got up and turned the main light on and walked back over to the sofa and got comfy as we started to watch whatever this was.

When I next looked over I saw that Gerard had fallen asleep on the sofa and was curled up in a ball probably making sure he didn’t hog he sofa even though it was a huge sofa.
I could t help but smile to myself as I got up as quietly as I could but it didn’t work very well since I woke Gerard up.
“Where you going?” Gerard asked sleepily which I found cute.
“I was just going to put the blanket over you since you had fallen asleep and then I was going to attempt to go to bed myself.” I said and Gerard smiled as he sat up and turned the tv off.
“No need to do that I can help you up the stairs.” Gerard said as he stood up and looked at me which made me look down.
“I can see the shame you feel about yourself, just so you know, I’ve been in your shoes and I’ve felt the shame you feel now. If you want my help then I will give you the help you need.” Gerard said and I looked at him surprised about this.
“But you have so much money. You have such a nice house and such a lovely family how could you possibly of ended up on the streets?” I asked and Gerard chuckled softly as he looked down.
“We all have to begin from somewhere. Mine just happened of been the best and the worse thing to make my money. As for how I ended up on the streets, that’s not a story for now.” Gerard said and I smiled as I nodded and got myself up wincing a lot as I did so and I got hold of Gerard’s arm he was offering me and he walked me upstairs and took me to what was now my room.
“If I wake you up then I’m sorry.” I said quietly.
“It’s fine, the kids are heavy sleepers and I guess somewhere deep inside my head still thinks I’m on the streets so it doesn’t bother me.” Gerard said as I looked at him.
“I’ll see you in the morning Frank.” Gerard said as he walked off and I just watched him walk into his room and I smiled to myself as I walked into my room and sat on the bed for the first time in a while.

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