I look down at the ground thinking about what I should say to Frank. I hear the bathroom door shut and I stay exactly how I am. Frank brushes his hair and then looks over at me. I look up at him to see why he was looking at me.

“Hey what’s bring you down dude?”

“Can I ask you something?”

“Um… Yeah sure,” he stutters a bit.

“Did you like it?”

“Huh…?” I chuckle a little and rub the back of my neck.

“You know what… This… this is stupid. I should go,” I say as I get up and walk away. Frank walks up behind me and turns me around.

“What is it dude? Spit it out.”

“At the hotel… when I was drunk. You helped me get undressed so I could take a shower or rinse off,” Frank stares me in the eyes waiting for me to finish; but do I really want to finish? “You went to put the water on for me and I just watched you. You seemed a little flushed but there I was standing there like a drunk idiot watching you.”

“Get on with it man, it seems like you are stalling.” Shit, I was. Wasn’t I? I shut my eyes, tighten up, than yelled really fast.

“DID YOU LIKE THE KISS? OR IS IT JUST ME?”

“Woah…. Wait. What?” I sigh and this time I mumble.

“Did you like the kiss? Or is it just me?”

“GEE! SAY IT!”

“Did you like the kiss? Or is it just me?” I say slowly.

Frank froze for a bit then sat down on his bed. With his head in his hands staring down at the ground I felt like a complete idiot. I shouldn’t have said anything, I shouldn’t have done it in the first place. WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING? A guy like Frank actually liking me? Pssh, fat chance. Why did I even add at the end ‘Or is it just me?’ I didn’t realize it but after ranting in my head for what seemed like hours I started pacing back and forth. Frank gets up and stands in front of me.

“I won’t tell if you don’t.”

“What do you mean?”

“What I mean is I won’t tell the guys about what happened if you don’t.”

“Frank…”

“Gee, forget it happened. Okay?”

“You haven’t answered my question yet.”

Frank heads up stairs and I follow starting to get a little annoyed. He heads towards the front door, finally he stops. I stop right next to him and he opens the door gesturing with his arm to go outside. I do as I was hinted at; he follows behind me then shuts the door.

“Okay, what’s going on Iero?”

“I’m going to tell you my answer.”

“OUT HERE!?”

“Will you shut up?” I shut up real quick as Frank’s expression changes. He leans in closely and whispers in my ear “My answer is, don’t tell the guys. Got it?”

“Frank…” I begin to whine a little but he is inside and shuts the door in my face. In frustration on my way home I kick rocks around. See I decided to walk here considering it wasn’t that far, I guess that was a good idea. If I drove here I wouldn’t be heading home, I would probably drive to the middle of nowhere. It starts to get darker and I pull out a cigarette put it in my mouth and light it. I blow out the smoke and I feel my pocket vibrate. It’s my phone and I look to see who is calling. It’s Frank’s number on the screen, no fucking way I’m answering him. After what he did? Fuck him.

“Lost pretty boy?”

“Who said that?” I ask as I stop in my place and drop my cigarette.

“Why should I tell you? I mean your little emo friend poured coffee on me.”

“Robert.”

“Bingo, now about that coffee.”

“Yeah?” I turn around to see where he is. Robert is leaning against the tree. It’s really dark out so I can’t see shit except for the outline of things. See while walking on my way home I decided not to. I decided to take a walk around a few blocks because I was in no rush and I have some steam to cool off.

“Since I don’t know Bob and where he lives you will get the punishment.”

“How did you find me? I wasn’t heading home.”

“You see this house right here?” He points his thumb at it, “Yeah that’s my house. I was just sitting outside when I saw you coming.”

“Well shit, aren’t I the luckiest guy in the world.”

“Actually you are.”

“Huh…?” As soon as I say that next thing I know coffee was thrown at me. Very hot coffee like it was just taken off. I stand there in pain and pissed off, I lunge at Robert but he moves and I slam into the tree. I fall backwards on my back and lay there with my hands over my face.

“Don’t fuck around with me, Emo boy.” Those were the last words I heard before he left me there laying there. My nose bleeding, my eyes burning, and my skin also burning a bit from the coffee.

Time passed and I finally get up I pull out my phone to see what time it was. It is 10 pm, holy shit I must have passed out. Because last time I checked the time it was 8pm and that was when Frank called me. Also I missed four phone calls from Mikey and two from Frank. Sighing I put my phone away and look around at where I am.

“Well shit,” I mumble and head the direction I came from. I kept tripping over myself and I am dizzy as fuck. Finally I reach home once I open the door I hear someone come to greet me.

“Where the fuck have you been!?” Mikey yelled under his breathe so he doesn’t wake up our grandparents.

“I went for a walk,” I confessed and walked over to our couch. My shoulder bumping into his, he turns around and gives me a good pull on my shoulder so I turn around.

“Why do you smell like coffee? Why do you have a bloody nose?” he asks frantically, “What the hell Gerard! I called Frank and he said you left two hours ago but that was when it was 8 and now it's 10. Please explain.”

“You’re my younger brother you don’t tell me what to do,” I reply sharply.

“I don’t give a rat’s ass how old I am or who’s the oldest!” he throws his arms up in the air, “You are my brother and I care about you.”

“Fine, I’ll tell you what happened but can we sit down? I’m tired and really dizzy.” We walk over the couch and I spill it all out to him. Except for what happened at Frank’s because I promised not to tell any of the guys.

“Well shit dude.”

“Yeah, well I’m going to take a shower and go to bed. We have school tomorrow.”

“Alright, night.”

Notes

Wow... That escalated quickly
Song of the moment: This Is How I Disappear
~Mad Lyz