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Silence Is Golden. (Frerard)

Six

Gerard's POV

The aroma of vanilla and cigarettes filled the interior of Mikey's old honda civic. He tried desperately to catch eye-contact with me, but I wasn't allowing it. No. I was in no mood to be bombarded with questions from the events that had just taken place. This whole day had just been a downward spiral of complete shit... and I knew there was most-likely, more to arise... and I wasn't particularly ready for it.

Mikey decided he would bring me home for the rest of the day... after the little incident that happened in the school's bathroom, he didn't want anything else to trigger me further. "I'll be back in about an hour, Gee. With Ray and Frank" His voice was calm but held irritability in it when he uttered Franks name.

The house was ominously quiet, I could faintly smell lavender so Mother must have lit an incense before she left. I sighed in content and walked over the fridge pulling out a bottle of water. I wandered around the house aimlessly waiting for the return of my brother.

When the door crashed open I was brought out of my thoughts. Although it was strange that the door was opened in such anger... making my way down the hallway I came face-to-face with my seemingly drunk mother... my anxiety got kicked into overdrive and, I stared at her in bewilderment... "yooouuu" she pointed a shaking finger my way "such a problematic mistake!" she slurred... "I hate you for it" she took a wobbly step forward, swaying a bit.

I heard the click of a lock from down the hall, and three voices fill the otherwise silent hose. "I can't believe you drove your father to suicide" she seethed... there was an array of gasps but that phase her in the slightest. "No..." She whispered "I fucking despise you"

"MOTHER!" Mikey gasped, salty tears ran down my cheeks "Ohhh Mikey, my perfect child" she sang. I felt physically sick. "Mom what the fuck, who says that to their own kid!" she scoffed "I never even wanted him... he's a waste of space. You're the only person I know that can put up with this retard."

I had to get out of there... I pushed past everyone and made my way to the back porch. Where I proceeded to collapse on the slightly-damp wood and sob...

I mean I always knew no one wanted me... but to have it said by my own mother really killed me. I didn't think I was that terrible of a fucking person... seconds later I was pulled into someone, I didn't care who at this point I just let there embrace calm me down. "It's going to be okay..." Frank... whispered. At that moment I couldn't care less that is was the person I hated holding me. At least he cared enough to not let me cry on my own...

"Gerard, I'm so fucking sorry." His voice trembled, I proceeded to bury my face further into his tattooed neck "I'm such a cunt..." he sighed out "If I had of know you were already being put through shit I wouldn't have ever done this... I shouldn't have done any-of-this regardless... can you ever forgive me?" shakenly I pulled away and looked into his pleading eyes.

With a small sigh, I nodded... "I promise, I'll put Bob in his place. You're nothing that women said." he sounded so benign... where was this Frank four years ago?

I pulled out my pack of smokes and looked at him, silently asking if he wanted one. He smiled gratefully and nodded "Thank you" his voice came out quietly. I shrugged as if to say 'no problem'

I heard the glass door slide open and Mikey and Ray took a spot on the porch. "The nerve of that women" he seethed, I laughed lightly at that "She left. By the way... I think only for the night, or for good who knows." Mikey spoke bitterly "What are we doing for dinner?" Frank questioned, Mikey, looked perplexed at the question that had arisen "Um... What?" words seemed to have failed my brother at that particular moment.

"No offense, Gerard... full offense, Frank. Don't you fucking hate my brother?!" he inquired, a small smile played at the corner of Franks' mouth "We resolved that actually..." (hopefully for good...) Mikey looked baffled, to say the least, "Gerard?" he turned all focus on me "Is he forcing you to say this, Gerard?" Ray jumped in, Frank scoffed, I shook my head though and looked into my brother's eyes so he could tell I wasn't lying.

Mikey's eyes traveled from mine to Franks... then they widened "No. Fucking. Way" he said slowly before shooting up and pulling Frank by his arm...

Well, what the hell?

When they came back nothing was said... I made a mental note to ask Mikey later though.

Notes

Again... I'm so incredibly sorry... I'm just not good mentally right now... So this is probably messy and all over the place... I feel like a shit person.

Comments

@cecke8


Thank you so much! And ohhh yes Thats a great one!!

Kobra_poison Kobra_poison
12/3/18

Im loving your story.
I have too many to choose from, but Absinthe by IDKHBTFM (or IDKHOW) is awesome. I just went alphabetically

cKayE cKayE
11/28/18

@xBatteryAfterx

I absolutely agree! It's so good to finally hear new music from him <3

Kobra_poison Kobra_poison
11/27/18

alltime fave song has got to be gees new song, getting down the germs

xoxocass xoxocass
11/27/18

Cant wait :) x


@Kobra_poison

adreamforthedead adreamforthedead
11/25/18