Homeland

Gerard’s POV

“Gerard wake up!” I heard someone say as I was being shook awake.
“Fuck off and let me sleep.” I grumbled as I rolled over and I felt the cover moving and someone getting into my bed so I opened one eye and saw Johanna was in bed with me.
“What the actual fuck Jo? It’s like 8 in the morning, what have I said about getting into bed with me.” I grumbled and put my pillow over my head.
“It’s actually 2 in the afternoon so get up lazy ass as we need to get food and milk and more coffee.” Johanna said and I felt her move in bed.
“Go by yourself.” I muttered and felt the pillow move from my face.
“Nope, you eat more food than me so you are coming shopping with me.” Johanna said and I sighed loudly and I opened my eyes and Johanna was looking at me.
“I don’t eat more food than you.” I yawned as I forced myself to wake up.
“Maybe you should because you need to put more weight on young man.” Johanna said and I just rolled my eyes at her.
“I haven’t got anything wrong with me.” I said and Johanna smiled.
“I know Gee, you just need to look after yourself.” Johanna said and I groaned loudly.
“I don’t need you giving me some fucking life lesson Jo. This is my life and it’s fine how it is.” I snapped and got out bed and went to the bathroom and had a quick shower before I walked back into my room and got changed and went to the kitchen to have my coffee which Johanna made me.

If you looked at me and Johanna you would think we was a couple when in fact I was gay and Johanna was straight.
“Damn somebody is in a grump today, missing the dick already.” Johanna said as she got a trolley and I was just following her around like a child who didn’t want to go shopping.
“I was in bed asleep like an hour ago, I’m sorry if I appear to be in a grump.” I said sarcastically and Johanna chuckled.
“Well we need food and I know I’ll pick all the wrong stuff so that’s why your shopping with me.” Johanna said and I just rolled my eyes and followed her around the shops.
“What do you think? Should I get with Zach or not?” Johanna asked as I looked at her since I was sat in the trolley really losing my will to live.
“Maybe you should just wait, you know since you have your problem to sort out. So just keep your legs shut you filthy slut.” I said and Johanna looked at me.
“Says you.” Johanna said.
“Hey, I can’t get pregnant since I like it up the ass too much.” I said and Johanna chuckled as she walked round the corner and I saw the man I had a one night stand with which made me groan loudly.
“What is it now?” Johanna asked sounding like my mother.
“My one night stand is literally in the next row along.” I said and Johanna face lit up.
“Don’t you even think about it.” I said seriously and it was too late Johanna was literally running to the next row pushing me in the trolley.
I quickly climbed out the trolley and looked at her.
“I can’t fucking believe you.” I whispered to her and she chuckled.
“Think of it as me match making for you.” Johanna said.
“I happen to like sleeping around and not being in a relationship with anyone.” I said and Johanna frowned at me.
“What 22 year old really says that? Not many of them.” Johanna said and I sighed and looked at the guy.
“I like my freedom and I don’t like being tied down, makes me feel trapped.” I said and Johanna rolled her eyes at me.
“Can you get me some pop tarts.” Johanna said and I looked round and saw that the guy was stood there.
“You don’t even like pop tarts.” I said as I looked at Johanna.
“Well I might like them now. Go on Gee take the risk, maybe you can get a fuck out of him and realise he’s good in bed and that you want to stay with him.” Johanna said and I sighed loudly and decided to agree with her for this one time and I walked over to the pop tarts.

I was looking at what ones I liked the look of because I knew Johanna wouldn’t eat them so it would be me eating them.
“Hey Gerard.” A voice said and I looked round and saw the guy and I looked at him confused.
“It’s me Frank, from the other night.” He said and then it twigged.
“Hey Frank. How are things?” I asked as I turned towards him and something about him was different.
“Things are okay I think.” Frank said and I frowned at him.
“Can’t stop thinking about what we did the other night.” Frank said quietly as he lent closer to me.
“It was a one night stand, it has no meaning to it. We was both drunk and yeah we enjoyed each other’s company for the night.” I said and Frank looked at me hurt.
Things sort of got awkward from there.
“Do you fancy getting a coffee with me later? Or are you and your girlfriend busy.” Frank said but you could almost see that he didn’t like Johanna.
“I’ll get coffee with you later, she isn’t my girlfriend.” I said and Frank frowned at me.
“We’ll talk later. Let’s say the cafe by the river?” I said and Frank nodded.
“Is 4pm okay?” Frank asked and I smiled and grabbed the pop tarts.
“Sounds like a date.” I said with a smile as I turned round and went looking for Johanna.

“So you agreed to have coffee with him?” Johanna asked as she was sat on the counter in the bathroom while I had yet another shower.
“Yes I’m getting coffee with him.” I said as I peered round the shower curtain.
“Gee got a date.” Johanna said in a sing song voice.
“It’s not a date.” I said as I went back and had my shower.
“Yeah it is. I mean he asked you if you wanted to get coffee and you said yes. So you are going out on a date.” Johanna said.
“Okay, can you fuck off now. I need some space and would like to enjoy my shower in peace.” I said and Johanna chuckled and I heard the bathroom door open and shut and I allowed myself to enjoy the shower.
I got out the shower and went to my room and got dressed.
I walked out to the sitting room where Johanna was sat crossed legged and smoking from her bong.
“Wanna hit?” Johanna asked as she handed the bong over to me which I pushed away and looked at her.
“No.” I said and Johanna raised a eyebrow at me.
“It’s not a date.” I said as I stood up and took the bong from her and had a hit from it before I handed it back coughing slightly.
“So What even attracted you to this guy anyway?” Johanna asked and I shrugged my shoulders as I had no clue.
“I have no bloody clue.” I said as I stood up and grabbed my jacket and my keys and phone and grabbed my boots and sat on the sofa and put them on.
“You’re wearing you ‘fuck me’ boots. You want to get laid again. You filthy little slut.” Johanna said and I looked at her.
“I like sex, Where’s the crime in that.” I said as I stood up and walked out the door and went to meet Frank.

I got to this coffee shop and I was the first one there so I ordered my coffee and found somewhere to sit and just waited for Frank to show up.
After waiting for 10 minutes Frank showed up and he looked relieved that I was still waiting for him to show.
“I am so sorry I’m late, some stuff came up and I couldn’t get away.” Frank said quickly as he sat down and I smiled at him.
“Well you are in luck as I’ve just finished my coffee so I think you owe me a coffee for being late.” I said and Frank smiled as he nodded to get me a coffee.
“What you having then?” Frank asked and I sat back in my chair and smiled.
“Whatever you’re having.” I said and Frank returned my smile as he got up and ordered the coffee.
Frank came back with the coffee and he sat down opposite me.

“So why did you want to meet me again? Why not call me saying that you are drunk and horny?” I asked after a few minutes of silence and it caught Frank off guard as well which made me smirk slightly.
“Well I wanted to meet a sober you and get to know you. Would like to think I’m more of a gentleman than being drunk and horny and phoning you.” Frank said.
“Trust me, drunk me is the best of me and it’s also a one way ticket of get your dick in my ass.” I said bluntly.
“Sober You seems okay with me at the moment.” Frank said and I looked at him and frowned.
“Who said I was sober?” I asked and I had some of my coffee.
Frank just raised his eyebrow at me as he stared at me.
After another moment of silence Frank spoke again.
“How old are you?” Frank asked.
“I am 22. What about you?” I asked as I lent forward and rested my elbows on the table sort of seeing if I could intimidate Frank but I knew I wouldn’t.
“I’m 26, and can I say you look younger than 22.” Frank said and I rolled my eyes.
“I blame the baby face. But I’m honestly 22.” I said and Frank nodded.
“Any siblings?” Frank asked and I looked down as my mind quickly wondered to Mikey but I just shook my head and look back at Frank.
“Yes. But I don’t talk to my family.” I said seriously and Frank smiled slightly.
“You have any?” I asked as I messed with my coffee.
“I have a brother and we’re quite close.” Frank said and I sighed and tried not to remember the sibling relationship me and Mikey once had.
“Before you ask the question yes my parents are still alive but they are dead in my eyes just like how I am dead in theirs and I don’t to talk about this anymore.” I said and I looked at Frank who smiled at me as he nodded understandably.
“I understand.” Frank said quietly and I smiled sadly at him as I looked down.
“How about we go for a walk by the river? Since it’s a nice day and all that.” Frank said as I looked back at him and smiled as I nodded.
We both finished our coffee and we both stood up.
I quickly checked Frank out as he put his coat on and I could help but stare at him and when he looked at me I quickly looked down and turned round so my back was too him as I put my coat on and I could feel Frank’s eyes on me the whole time.
I turned round and looked at me.
“Show me the river then.” I said and Frank smiled and we walked out the coffee shop and headed towards the lake.

We found this spot and we sat down and I started to smoke a cigarette and as I looked up Frank was watching me.
“Swear I’ve seen your face somewhere.” Frank said and I smiled.
“I work at one of the restaurants in town.” I said and Frank nodded slightly.
“And my hair is also crazy colours as well so I stand out from everyone.” I said and Frank chuckled.
“So what’s the deal with you and the girl? If she’s not your other half then what is she?” Frank asked.
“Who Johanna? Oh she’s just a really good friend of mine and she happens to be my annoying flat mate.” I said and Frank frowned at her name.
“It’s a unique name.” Frank said and I chuckled.
“Just like her completely fucking batty.” I said and Frank chuckled.
“But she’s lovely though, she might look she’s scary but she has a heart of gold.” I said and looked down and picked at the grass.
“Also if you was wondering Johanna has the wrong body parts to turn me on so if you can’t work out what that means then your just dumb.” I said as I looked at Frank.
“Well I guessed you was gay.” Frank said and I smiled.
“Feel like we should go back to mine and do something.” Frank said and I smirked at him.
“Judging by that smirk you like that idea.” Frank said and I shrugged my shoulder.
“Your house, your choice.” I said as I stood up and I could feel Frank staring at me and he stood up and looked at me.
“Well I don’t know the way to your house.” I said and Frank chuckled and he walked off with me following behind him.

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By the time I got home my ass was on fire and I was just about ready to collapse into bed but Johanna had other ideas.
“So, how did the date go?” Johanna asked as she came out of her room and followed me to the kitchen.
“Christ just let me get in the door and have some painkillers.” I said and looked through the drawers and found some painkillers and I went to the fridge for a beer.
“You got a fuck in?” Johanna asked and I frowned at her as I had some painkillers and washed it down with a beer.
“Yeah I might of got a fuck in. There happy now? I need a shower and my bed and forget on how much my ass hurts.” I said and limped to my room.
“He must have a big dick.” Johanna said as she followed me.
“I was being fucked really hard for most of the evening. So my very fucked ass and my tired body and my sex phased mind would like to have a shower in peace and go to bed and not talk about all this sex I’m having.” I said as I grabbed my towel and looked for some clean pants.
“Damn would of thought you would be more happier getting dick if anything your more grumpy now than what you was when you weren’t getting any.” Johanna said and I sighed loudly and looked at her.
“Okay, I leave you be.” Johanna said and she walked off and I went to the bathroom and had a really nice long hot shower.

After I had a shower I walk out the bathroom and walked into the sitting room where Johanna was having a joint which I took from her and had some myself.
“Fuck Gee, those finger marks.” Johanna said as she looked at my hips.
“It’s nothing okay. Don’t worry.” I said and Johanna looked at me with a frown as I sat down.
“Don’t worry? Gee he has bruised you where he gripped you so hard. You also have red angry looking nail marks down your back.” Johanna said.
“I’m pretty sure you do as well when you have good sex. Anyway I’m not fucking staying out here if that’s all you want to talk about.” I said and had some of the joint.
“I just worry about you Gee.” Johanna said.
“Why because I have bipolar? I managed to survive the streets with this and loads of other stuff. I’m pretty sure I can survive some rough sex.” I said as I got up and gave Johanna the joint and walked to my room where I put a film on.

I was falling asleep when I felt someone climb into my bed.
“You asleep Gee?” Johanna whispered.
“Yes.” I muttered and I felt Johanna moved in bed and the covers was being pulled over me.
“I’m sorry about earlier Gee.” Johanna said quietly.
“It’s fine.” I mumbled.
“I’ve been thinking about this situation I’m in.” Johanna said but I just rolled over to face her and opened one eye.
“Jo, no offence here but I’m fucking tired and I have work tomorrow morning and I just want to sleep.” I said and Johanna smiled as she got herself comfy.
“Night Gee.” Johanna whispered and I smiled.

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