Want You Bad.

“Nothing…”, he answers with a smile. “I just wanted to know if you wanna go to that Starbucks around the corner with me, get fresh coffee.”
“You don’t have to persuade me into buying coffee.”
He grins. Yeah, okay I admit that I… no, no, WE are a tiny bit addicted to caffeine.
“Okay…”, he smiles. Is it just my imagination or is he constantly checking me out?
“I’ll be waiting for you downstairs, then.”
“Okay, Gee, see you in a bit!”
“Yeah…”
Wow, that was… weird. Oh well, I shouldn’t think to much of it. He probably looked at me completely innocently.
I mean, it’s not every day that we see the other walk around naked.
I grab a fresh pair of boxers and head back to the bathroom and get ready for the day.
I notice that I’m in a lot more of a hurry than usually, just because he’s waiting for me downstairs.
What Gee’s doing to me… just being himself… I mean, that can’t be healthy for me.
When I arrive downstairs at(?) the foyer, I see Gee waving in my direction. As I get closer, I see another person.
Frank.
I feel slight jealousy rise inside of me.
Freaking hell, why am I so disappointed?!
I know that Frank and Gerard are best friends and I also know that me and Gerard can never be more than brothers.
Still. I secretly wanted some alone time with Gee.
Dejected, I make my way over to them. My brother asks if I was alright, but I just wave him off and start walking ahead towards Starbucks.
Frank and Gee catch up and walk next to me and Frank breaks some of his sometimes not so funny jokes.
I really don’t want to, but I barely have a choice but to join in when Gee laughs. He’s so cute when he laughs…
Oh God! It’s getting worse! Now I’m calling him cute?
I blame it on yesterday’s aftermath…
Abruptly, I stop and shake my head.
“C’mon Mikes, what’s wrong with you?”
Gerard…
“It’s just… nothing. I just didn’t sleep very well last night…”
That ain’t even a lie.
There’s a huge grin forming on Gerard’s face.
Shit, he didn’t hear me after all, did he?! Damnit…
“Sure thing, little brother. Things seemed to have gotten pretty wild last night with you and… your hand.”
I Immediately blush three shades of red. Frank has to laugh so hard that he chokes on his own spit.
I hit Gerard hard on the shoulder.
“GEE! What the fuck?! Why not just tell the entire town?! Excuse me for having needs, okay!”
Pissed off and offended, I turn around and start walking away.
“Mikey! Wait! C’mon I was just joking…”
I don’t go back to him but instead make my way back to the hotel and up to my room.
What was that just now? Damnit, damnit, damnit… I already feel my anger subsiding, I can never stay mad at him for long, but… was he really just teasing me? What if he wanted to achieve something else?
X x x
We spend the next day in the tourbus.
Gee made himself at home somewhere in the back of the bus, probably got some ideas for one of his comics or just wants his peace. The others play a game of cards and I sit by the window, listening to music and precariously takeing a glance at Gerard every now and then.
The fields and cities float by outside and I find myself getting tired, and then we’re already there.
New city, new hotel, next concert tomorrow.
But this time, my room is opposite of Gerard’s.
I put my suitcase next to the bed and just let it there. Packing and unpacking got old very fast and I just broke the habit of putting everything in the wardrobe. I grab a towel and make my way to the shower.
X x x
Fifteen minutes later, I hear noises coming from the corridor.
Frank’s giggle. Gerard’s voice. A door snapping shut.
Someone knocks.
Gerard’s standing there, holding two cups of fresh coffee, smiling apologetic.
I ignore my immediately faster getting pulse, make room for him and wave him inside. He sits down on my bed and puts the coffee on the nightstand.
“I’m sorry for what I said. I mean, there’s nothing wrong with it and…uhm…”
He blushes. Cute…
Oh no. Not this again, Mikey.
“I mean, you know what I mean, Mikes…”
“You fucked up though, Gee. It was embarrassing, okay. Very embarrassing,” is all I answer.
I try to act sulky and turn around to face the mirror that’s hanging on the wall and suddenly become very interested in my hair.
But a couple of minutes later I give in and look at Gerard in the mirror.
What I see gives me shivers all over my back.
Gerard, my brother, stares directly at my ass.
That’s kinda strange.
I mean, Gerard, my BROTHER…
Okay, I should be happy about this, that has got to mean something.
I could… stop. Stop. Stop. Just act like nothing happened and turn around.
Gerard gets up and walks towards me. I look at him uncertainly.
“Gee?”
…What does he want?
He puts his flat palms on my chest and I almost twitch in shock. Then he presses me against the mirror and puts his lips on top of mine.
I stand stock still. Pressed against the mirror, Gerard super close to me, kissing me…
KISSING ME?!
I push him away, even if I’d rather…but…
“Gee! Oh God, what,- what, what the hell was that?”, I ask, startled.

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