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They Could Care Less As Long As Someone'll Bleed

Chapter 2

Out Lady of Sorrows came on and I turned up the volume. How could someone treat their child the way they treat me? Even their own step-daughter.

Dead! came on and I stopped thinking about my depressing life to listen to the lyrics.

"Yeah! And if your heart stops beating.

I'll be here wondering did you get what you deserve?

The ending of your life and if you get to heaven I'll be here waiting babe

Did you get what you deserve?

The end and if your life won't wait then your heart can't take it.

Have you heard the news that you're dead?

No one ever had much nice to say.

I think they never liked you anyway.

Now take me from the hospital bed.

Wouldn't it be grand. It ain't exaclty what you planned.

Wouldn't it be great if we were dead?"

"Well that's depressing," I muttered. But not a bad idea. If I was dead I wouldn't have to deal with any of this. No one likes me anyway.

I'm just some stupid, emo, b*tch. Even my own mother hates me.

I sat up and threw my feet over the bed and started listening to what song had come on since I spaced out. it was Early Sunsets Over Monroeville

"But does anyone notice?

But does anyone care?

And if I had the guts
To put this to your head.

But does anything matter?

If you're already dead."

More depressing music.

"But does anyone notice?

But does anyone care?

Well if I had the guts

To out this to your head

But does anything matter?

I you're already dead

And should I be shocked now?

By the last thing you said

Before I pull this trigger..."

I wish I had a gun. I'll have to do it a different way.

What other ways are there to do it? Hanging yourslelf, overdose, jumping off something, bleeding to death, drinking bleach or some other chemical.

Well overdose could fail because you may just need your stomach pumped. Hanging is painful. Drinking chemicals would take a while to get into my system and kill me. Bleeding or jumping off something? Bleeding is also painful but jumping off something would give me an adrenaline rush.

Jumping it is.

I pull out the iPod I found on a bench a while back and open my Tumblr app. I start a new post and start typing: "Good bye Tumblr. I'll probably miss the few people on here who care about me most. Don't try asking me questions or following me to get me to come back. I'll be... Unreachable. And depressed. To the only person who ever really cared about me; thank you Gerard Way. I bid you people adiue."

I scrolled through my blog one last time before heading to my friends apartment building. I decided to do it there because it was tall enough to be a fatal fall and then at least someone who found me would have the decency to call the police.

I found the usual, you know anime shipping, 90's moments from one person, fan art, and JoshScytheNinja's topic she posted this week. This week was Gerard Way quotes. And very meaningful ones at that. I clicked on her page and read just a few:

"There was a moment in my life when I really wanted to kill myself and there was one other moment when I was close to that... But even in my most jaded times I still had some hope." I whish I still had hope.

"Being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect, it means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections." Look beyond imperfections? How more imperfections can I have in my life?

"I am living proof that no matter how bad life gets, it gets better. I am Gerard Way, and I survived." I wish I knew life would get better. Then maybe I wouldn't do this...

"No matter how bad it gets don't give up. Always keep running. We will alway be there for you just turn up the speaker."

"We want you to live. We want to save your lives. You saved ours. We never want to let a single thing hurt any of you."

That's it. If Gerard Way wants to save me he will.

I got up grabbed a bag and started packing.

Notes

JoshScytheNinja was my friend Angie's account. now its dr-pinkmoustache. She said I culd put this in here but she doesn't do a certain thing everyweek and the quotes are real Gerard Way quotes

Comments

update?
@Angry killjoy
thank you :D i'll try to update soon
please update soon ,i'm dying here XD
i can't wait to know what gerard will
do when she finds him
Angry killjoy Angry killjoy
6/30/13
@Disenchanted_ thank you and probably not about her running, sadly, because when I originally wrote this story that's how it was but that was where I got stuck and why id stopped writing it. I will put a little but not as much as in the original plan
FiveFootFrankie FiveFootFrankie
6/28/13
Amazing story, More!

But I was wondering if they'd be more Skyler parts? I want to kknow how she's getting on running away.
Bandit Rain Bandit Rain
6/27/13