Show Me What I've Been Missing Out On (re-written version)
Three
Frankie's POV
The last few weeks have felt like a blur but things between Gerard and me are amazing. We have been spending as much time as we can together. Plus, as a bonus, we are having some of the most amazing sex I’ve ever had.
I’ve only been with a couple of guys since I met Gerard, one being Zack the other was a guy I dated briefly before Zack during high school.
I am trying to stay cool about what’s going on between Gerard and me. The last thing I want is to get my hopes up and deal with another failed relationship.
I was having a decent week up until today. It is one of those horrible days when you feel like you woke up on the wrong side of the bed kind of day.
My morning sickness was awful and I couldn’t keep anything down except some water and crackers. I tried to make myself look decent but that turned out bad and so I just wore one of my lose band-tees and a pair of leggings and I put on my converse. I also put on a beanie so I wouldn’t have to deal with my hair.
I felt like I was in a haze all day and I decided to stop by Gerard’s office once my classes were over for the day. The door was closed and I knocked and Gerard opened the door.
“Hey, you.” He smiled and it made me feel fuzzy inside which was happening a lot lately.
“Hey, Gee.” He stepped aside and I walked into his office and he shut the door again. I tried hiding my bad day but Gerard quickly caught on when I started to cry.
“What’s wrong Frankie?” He wrapped his arms around me and I liked how his body felt against mine.
“Today has been…horrible…I’m hormonal and I want this fucking morning and day sickness to end.” I buried my face in his chest as I cried.
“That sucks that your day is not going well. But listen let’s get out of here and we go grab some dinner. Then if you want you can spend the night at my place.” I looked up at him and smiled.
“That would be awesome.” He smiled back and wiped the tears from my cheeks. He kissed me softly and I melted into the simple affection he showed towards me.
He grabbed his things and we walked off campus hand in hand which made me feel proud to be by his side.
We walked to one of the best vegetarian places in the area. I was happy that Gerard was also a vegetarian. That way he wouldn't feel pressured to eat differently around me but it never bothered me. I have been a vegetarian for a majority of my life anyways.I hope this pregnancy doesn’t make me crave meat because just the thought of eating meat turns my stomach.
We got a table at the restaurant and I sit across from Gerard. We both order something to drink and the waitress gave us menus.
I motion for the waitress to come over once we have both decided what to eat and we tell her what we want. I then re-focus my attention on Gerard and he reaches over to take one of my hand in his.
“This is kind of like our first date since we haven’t officially gone on one yet.” I felt my face heat up at Gerard’s words. With him, I have done everything opposite but I like it and I wouldn’t change a thing.
“I like the idea of this being our first official date, too.” I smiled and gave his hand a squeeze. As I was enjoying this time with Gerard I heard my phone ring and I ignored it the first time but then it kept ringing.
I reached into my bag and got my phone and saw that Zack was calling me and I sighed. “I’ll be right back.” I got up from the table and pecked Gerard’s lips before going to the ladies’ washroom.
I called Zack number and waited until he picked up the phone.
“It took you long enough to call me back.”
“I’m sorry but I am hanging out with someone right now. What do you want?” I didn’t want to say, boyfriend, because I am not even sure if Gerard’s to be mine just yet. I haven’t talked to Zack much since I told him the news so I felt like it was strange that he was calling me.
“So, I’m going to be in town this weekend with my band and I was wondering I could crash at your place?” I tried not to sigh on the phone. I find it so hard to say no to Zack since we have been friends for so long and especially that last time we slept together.
“Yeah, sure. Just text me when you are in town.”
“Thanks, Frankie. Talk to you later.”
“No problem.”
We both hung up and I felt tears come to my eyes. I am pissed at Zack because of what happened but it will be nice to see him and his bandmates again. We were good friends all of us in high school. Damn hormones today I need to stop this crying so I wipe my eyes and splash some warm water on my face. I quickly reapply my eyeliner and head back to the table.
I missed the days I jammed with my friends and I had started a band Pencey Prep but it didn’t end up working out, so I decided to give college a go. I still play guitar though and do some writing on the side when I have time. Zack and I used to jam together and I definitely missed doing that.
I sit down at the table and Gerard gives me a concerned look. “Everything okay Frankie?”
I don’t like to lie to Gerard but I felt like I might as well explain the some of the complexity of things with Zack.
“Well, that was my ex-Zack. He is going to be in the area playing a few shows with his band.” I looked down before catching Gee’s eyes again.
“I take it you haven't seen or heard from him in a while?” I grabbed onto one of Gee’s hand.
“Yeah, we don’t talk much these days. The last time we talked was when I told him I was pregnant. He asked me if he could crash at my place and I didn't say no. I mean we are still friends and I don't want to be a complete bitch ya know?”
Gerard nodded, “I get that, Frankie. Thanks for being open with me I really appreciate it.” I smiled and leaned over the table and pecked his lips.
“So, you won’t be free this weekend then?”
“Of course I will. Just because Zack is around I still want to hang out with you.” I reached for one of his hands and took it in mine.
“Are you sure? I’ll never stop you from seeing your friends.”
“I’m totally sure, and you can come to the show with me.” I gave Gerard a wink and he grinned back.
We ate our food in a comfortable silence and then we headed to Gerard’s place. Once we got to his place I dropped my bag by the door and slipped off my shoes.
I felt Gerard’s arms wrap around my waist from behind and I pressed my body into his.
“Shall we go to the bedroom my lady?” He spoke in a playful accent. I grinned and turned around his arms.
“Yes, we shall.”
We got to the bedroom and our clothes came off in record time and I smirked at Gerard once I got on the bed. He quickly joined me on the bed and kissed me hard on the lips and it got heated fast.
I felt his hand move between our bodies and he ran his fingers along my folds. I pulled slightly away from the kiss. “I don’t need foreplay just fuck me. I need you so bad.” I moaned as his rubbed my clit.
“How do you want me?” He smirked.
“Take me doggy style, baby.” I smirked back and switched positions so I was now on my hands and knees on the bed. Gerard quickly got behind and gave my ass a playful slap.
I felt Gerard push inside my heated core and it did not take long for us to find the perfect rhythm.
I started to rub my clit as Gerard fucked me and I felt his hand pushed mine away. “Let me.”
He replaced his hand with mine and I could feel my orgasm nearing. “Fuck Gee..yeah…I’m so close!”
“Cum for me Frankie.” He rubbed my clit a couple more times and I felt my body completely let go.
“Yes…yes…fuck!” I gripped the sheets as came hard around Gerard’s cock. I continued to move against him as he fucked me harder.
“So, good Frankie.” I loved hearing him moan. I felt his movements become choppy and he let out some curses as he came inside me. He slowly stopped his thrusts and pulled out before he laid on the bed.
I did the same and cuddled into his side. He looked over at me and we shared a lazily kiss. “You made my shitty day much better.” I grinned and kissed him again.
“I can say the same about you, Frankie.” He ran his hand through my hair and he ran his hand down to small baby bump. I noticed the other day that I was really starting to show and it felt so weird. I wish Gerard was the father of my baby and not Zack but that is the way fate worked out but I know my baby will have at least one male father figure in their life.
We stayed in a comfortable silence as we came down from our bliss and I broke the silence. “Can I ask you something, Gee?”
“Sure, you can.”
“Do you want to continue seeing me as I get further in my pregnancy? I mean I don’t want you to leave. I guess what I’m trying to say is do you want to make what we have official?” I ramble at the best of times but especially when I get nervous.
Gerard smiled and ran a hand over my cheek. “Of course, I want to keep seeing you, Frankie. You are giving my life some purpose and you being pregnant will never change how I feel about you. I really like you Frankie, and I should have made what we have official sooner.”
I smiled back and I tried to hold back my emotions but this pregnancy won’t let me. “How did I get so lucky huh? Now I can finally call you my boyfriend. Oh, and I really like you too, Gee.” I grinned and kissed Gerard again as tears spilled down my cheeks.
(Time skip)
After a quick round of steamy morning sex, we both got showered. I borrowed one of Gerard’s lose fitting band-tee’s and slipped on the same pants I wore yesterday.
I was thankful I didn’t have to get sick this morning which would have been so embarrassing even though it comes with pregnancy.
“You sure you don’t want me to make you breakfast?”
“Next time you can.” I smiled and kissed him. “Text me later and I’ll let you know what time to come over before the show.”
“Sounds good, babe.”
“See you later.” I gave Gerard a hug and we kissed one more time before I walked out of the building. I checked my phone and seen that Zack texted me this morning.
I’ll be there in a few hours
Fuck that means he will be in the city soon.
Ok let me know when you get to my apartment
Gerard lived in the nicer area by campus and his apartment is about a 20-minute walk to mine. I stopped and grabbed a tea and a muffin from the coffee shop by my apartment and headed to my place.
I honestly didn’t care about how my place looked since I didn’t have to impress Zack at all. I grabbed my laptop and checked for any emails from my professors and looked over what I had to complete over the weekend. I ate my muffin and sipped at my tea.
I noticed I got an email from my boss and I opened it.
Frankie,
I am sorry to have to do this since I know you are pregnant. But I no longer have enough hours since the business has not been good. I hope you can find something else soon.
Amanda
“Fuck!” I wanted to throw my computer at the wall but I can’t afford another one. I paced around the apartment and I was fuming. Why I do have the worst luck?
I then heard my phone ding and I saw Zack had texted me.
I’m here can you let me?
I’ll be right down
