Show Me What I've Been Missing Out On (re-written version)

Frankie’s POV

I threw up which felt like the hundredth time this morning. I just wanted to crawl back into bed and forget about the outside world. But, that was not going to happen because I had classes to attend. I am doing an English degree and I’ve really enjoyed it so far and I’ve taken some amazing classes, and I’ve met some fun people too.

How I got into my current situation is more complex than I ever wanted it to be. I attended one of the many parties that took place over the summer break in Jersey. I went to the party knowing my ex-boyfriend could be there.

Zack and I broke up mutually but at one of the many parties I attend over the summer I ended up at the same one as him. One thing led to another and fucked with out a condom while we were both drunk. Worst mistake ever! My stupid actions ended with me becoming knocked up.

He freaked out when I told him I was pregnant but he told me he would do his best to help me out. His band was just getting noticed and I didn’t want to be the reason he lost opportunities. We decided to stay friends since we have known each other since we were kids. It did hurt when we broke up and that he didn't want to be with me throughout my pregnancy, but I just had to keep living for myself and the baby.

Now I’m two months pregnant and attempting to get through this year of college which is not going to be easy. I know I am going to have to delay my graduation because I need to focus on the baby. I never thought I’d have kids and having one this early in my life was unexpected but I’m happy I get to be a parent.

I looked at myself in the mirror and I knew I looked like utter shit. My medium length dark hair was messy and I have dark circles under my eyes. I got a quick shower and attempted to make self look decent.

I blow dried my hair and put on a pair of black tights and one of my simple dresses. I was starting to gain weight and I didn’t really want to make it obvious to anyone who saw me around campus.

I put a warm sweater on and I was on my way from my small apartment to the college campus.

I checked my phone and realized I was running late – as always. I was almost to class when I ran into somebody.

“Fuck I’m sorry.” I looked up at the person I ran into and it was none other than Gerard Way, who just happened to be one of my professors last year.

We became friends and I have had a major crush on him since last year. But I never pursued it because I was still with Zack then, but now I had freedom to date whoever I wanted.

“Are you running late again, Frankie?” I felt my face heat up as we made eye contact. I could melt into those beautiful eyes.

I checked the time and decided I wasn’t going to bother going to class. Today just wasn’t going well and I honestly just didn’t give a fuck.

I lied. “Not at all. You know me I’m so clumsy.” I grinned.

“I was just on my way to get a coffee. Did you want to join me?”

I practically wanted to scream but that would just be weird. But I could not pass down spending time with the incredibly sexy, Professor Gerard Way.

“Sure, I’d like that.” I offered him a smile and we headed to the coffee shop that was located on campus.

We walked into the coffee shop and we placed our drink orders and then walked back towards the campus and to where Gerard’s office was located.

“How are your classes going Frankie?” Right when Gerard asked me that I felt my stomach so flip flops and I really wanted to be honest with him.

“Well…It’s been a bit rough start. If I tell you something will you promise not to freak out.”

Gerard raised an eyebrow at me as we entered his office and he closed the door behind us. “I’m sorry to hear that. What do you want to tell me?” He leaned against his desk and I felt myself think about the sexual things we could do on the desk. But I pushed that thought aside for the time being.

“Ok, so over the summer my boyfriend and I broke up. But after we broke up like a month I found out I’m pregnant.” I looked down and played with the hem of my dress and avoided eye-contact with Gerard.

“I wasn’t expecting that but I’m always here if you need me.” I looked up I felt relieved he didn’t judge me. He smiled and that smile made me weak in the knees.

“Thanks, I will take you up on that.” I smiled back and then took a deep breath. “But there is something else I need to tell you.”

Gerard gave me a weird look and I moved closer to him. I noticed all the times Gerard had his eyes on me last year and especially since I’ve seen him around since classes resumed.

“I’ve seen the way you have looked at me and I can’t deny that I find you so damn attractive.” I saw his expression change and a grin came to his lips. I ran a hand along his chest and I tugged lightly on the tie he was wearing.

I hoped he felt the same because if not this would be the most embarrassing moment of my life.

“Frankie…” I pressed my lips against his and quickly kissed back and that gave me his answer. He pulled me closer and I was straddling his legs as our kiss got more heated.

A knock on the door drew out of our hot make-out session. “Let’s continue this later.”

I nodded and attempted to straighten myself up. I grabbed my bag and my forgotten drink and quickly exited his office as another student entered. I could still feel Gerard’s lips on mine.

I couldn’t help but grin as licked my lips and thought about how incredibly hot it was to be that close to Gerard. Even when I was still with Zack I fanaticized about how hot it would be to kiss Gerard and even how he was in bed. For the rest of the day I couldn’t stop thinking about him but I tried my best to focus on my coursework.

After my class I checked my phone and saw Gerard texted me. I had given my number a couple weeks ago and I guess I gave him motivation earlier to text me.

Meet me at my office when you are done for the day, G.

I’m headed their now :)

I walked as fast as I could to Gerard’s office and I walked inside since the door was open.

“Hey Gee.”

“Hey you.” He grinned.

I walked closer to him and spoke quietly in case somebody decided to pop by his office.

“You want to come over my place?” I smirked.

“Sure, let’s get out of here.” He grabbed his things and we headed out the office and he locked it up.

“My place is only a couple blocks away.” I grabbed his hand and we quickly headed off campus.

Notes

Hey everyone! I decided to re-write/edit the original version of this story I posted on here and on A03. Please feel free to comment or rate. Any feedback gives me the motivation to keep writing.

Enjoy! :)

xxA