You saved me (re-uploaded)
Chapter 5
*G.P.O.V
1 week later
It's been one week since the accident with Bert happened. I have been trying to act like nothing happened but everything reminds me of that disgusting piece of trash, maybe I do deserve that Bert did this to me. I mean I am just a fat piece of shit that has never done anything important with their life or never will. I'm just a waste of space, no one actually likes me, not even my own brother or my mum. I think that Frank is starting to notice that something is wrong, maybe not, maybe I just want someone to actually like me, I just want someone to listen to me and tell me that everything is going to be okay....but let's be honest Frank is never going to care about me, he is just hanging out with me because he has seen me beaten up twice within the first day he met me. He just feels bad for me.
*The next day
"Gerard wake up!!" I heard Mikey yell from outside my door "remember that we have to get there early for the presentation, and I promised Frank that we would give him a ride."
"We?!" I asked sounding kind of pissed even though I really don't mind because I actually do enjoy Frank's company. I just wish that him and I would get to know each other more,because even if he never really actually cares for me I want to care for him and let him know that if he ever needs someone to talk to or someone to listen I will always be there for him. I'm probably getting too ahead of myself but from the moment I first saw frank I knew that I would want him to be part of my life even if he doesn't want me to be part of his.
"Yes, Gerard, We. You were the first person that talked to him so he was technically your friend first." I groaned and got up from my bed. I looked down at my fat body and saw the bruises that Bert had inflicted on my ugly fat thighs last week, just looking at them me want to throw up, so I quickly grab the first pair of jeans that I find on the floor and simply throw on a misfits' tee. I go to the bathroom and quickly brush my teeth and try to get my hair a to at least look decent.
When I finally went outside I saw that Frank and Mikey were already inside the car Mikey was in the back and Frank was on the passenger's seat. I enter the car and the warm air from the heater hits my face and it makes me feel sick, I don't deserve to be warm I deserve to die from the cold weather. I opened my window and started driving.
"Gerard Arthur Way are you crazy or something?" Mikey Screamed at me.
"What? you know I always smoke on the way to school. Do you want one?" I asked Mikey
"No thanks. You know I only smoke when I'm stressed unlike You." He said sounding angry, what's wrong with him?. I saw that Frank was looking a little bored and I didn't offer him a cigarette because I'm pretty sure that it was too early for him to smoke. He looks like the type of person that smokes in the afternoon or at night. "You know you can put music if you want to." I told frank. I only told him this because today we were going to Starbucks so it was going to take longer than 5 minutes to get to school. "Oh okay, do you have any CDs or cassettes?" He asked. " Yeah the cassettes are in the middle of the seats." I told him and he smiled as he saw my collection of music. "Dude, nice music taste" he told me sounding surprise. "Why do you sound so surprised?" I asked. "I don't know maybe I thought that you were one of those people that only wore band merch because it looks 'cool'." He said sarcastically. Mikey Laughed and I stared at him with a frown. Frank was laughing too but soon stopped when I looked at him. My 'anger' soon came to an end when I saw the Starbucks' sign in view.
When I stopped the car in the parking lot I saw that Frank was staring at me. I started to feel self-conscious and quickly got out of the car. As soon as we stepped in the inside my nose was hit with the bittersweet smell of coffee. Man, do I love coffee. When we got to the cash register I ordered a simple black coffee , Mikey got an espresso, and Frank got a caramel latte. We went and got a table I sat near the window Frank in front of me and Mikey next to Frank. Once we got our coffee I saw that at the side of my cup there was a a phone number with a simple 'call me' next to it. I looked up and the girl that was at the cash register was waving at me. Since there was no one there at the time I just simply said " I'm Gay" out loud that made Frank go red in the face and start coughing. Mikey just looked shocked, not that he didn't know, it was just that I never really did try to figure out my sexuality and this is the first time I say it out loud. Just as I start to relax I hear the front door open and I see the person I wish I never had to see ever again in my life.....Bert McCracken
1 week later
It's been one week since the accident with Bert happened. I have been trying to act like nothing happened but everything reminds me of that disgusting piece of trash, maybe I do deserve that Bert did this to me. I mean I am just a fat piece of shit that has never done anything important with their life or never will. I'm just a waste of space, no one actually likes me, not even my own brother or my mum. I think that Frank is starting to notice that something is wrong, maybe not, maybe I just want someone to actually like me, I just want someone to listen to me and tell me that everything is going to be okay....but let's be honest Frank is never going to care about me, he is just hanging out with me because he has seen me beaten up twice within the first day he met me. He just feels bad for me.
*The next day
"Gerard wake up!!" I heard Mikey yell from outside my door "remember that we have to get there early for the presentation, and I promised Frank that we would give him a ride."
"We?!" I asked sounding kind of pissed even though I really don't mind because I actually do enjoy Frank's company. I just wish that him and I would get to know each other more,because even if he never really actually cares for me I want to care for him and let him know that if he ever needs someone to talk to or someone to listen I will always be there for him. I'm probably getting too ahead of myself but from the moment I first saw frank I knew that I would want him to be part of my life even if he doesn't want me to be part of his.
"Yes, Gerard, We. You were the first person that talked to him so he was technically your friend first." I groaned and got up from my bed. I looked down at my fat body and saw the bruises that Bert had inflicted on my ugly fat thighs last week, just looking at them me want to throw up, so I quickly grab the first pair of jeans that I find on the floor and simply throw on a misfits' tee. I go to the bathroom and quickly brush my teeth and try to get my hair a to at least look decent.
When I finally went outside I saw that Frank and Mikey were already inside the car Mikey was in the back and Frank was on the passenger's seat. I enter the car and the warm air from the heater hits my face and it makes me feel sick, I don't deserve to be warm I deserve to die from the cold weather. I opened my window and started driving.
"Gerard Arthur Way are you crazy or something?" Mikey Screamed at me.
"What? you know I always smoke on the way to school. Do you want one?" I asked Mikey
"No thanks. You know I only smoke when I'm stressed unlike You." He said sounding angry, what's wrong with him?. I saw that Frank was looking a little bored and I didn't offer him a cigarette because I'm pretty sure that it was too early for him to smoke. He looks like the type of person that smokes in the afternoon or at night. "You know you can put music if you want to." I told frank. I only told him this because today we were going to Starbucks so it was going to take longer than 5 minutes to get to school. "Oh okay, do you have any CDs or cassettes?" He asked. " Yeah the cassettes are in the middle of the seats." I told him and he smiled as he saw my collection of music. "Dude, nice music taste" he told me sounding surprise. "Why do you sound so surprised?" I asked. "I don't know maybe I thought that you were one of those people that only wore band merch because it looks 'cool'." He said sarcastically. Mikey Laughed and I stared at him with a frown. Frank was laughing too but soon stopped when I looked at him. My 'anger' soon came to an end when I saw the Starbucks' sign in view.
When I stopped the car in the parking lot I saw that Frank was staring at me. I started to feel self-conscious and quickly got out of the car. As soon as we stepped in the inside my nose was hit with the bittersweet smell of coffee. Man, do I love coffee. When we got to the cash register I ordered a simple black coffee , Mikey got an espresso, and Frank got a caramel latte. We went and got a table I sat near the window Frank in front of me and Mikey next to Frank. Once we got our coffee I saw that at the side of my cup there was a a phone number with a simple 'call me' next to it. I looked up and the girl that was at the cash register was waving at me. Since there was no one there at the time I just simply said " I'm Gay" out loud that made Frank go red in the face and start coughing. Mikey just looked shocked, not that he didn't know, it was just that I never really did try to figure out my sexuality and this is the first time I say it out loud. Just as I start to relax I hear the front door open and I see the person I wish I never had to see ever again in my life.....Bert McCracken
Notes
* is hiding behind a bush* Is it safe to come out now???
*sweating nervously*
Heyyy, guyssssss how has life been? I really did mean to update sooner but life really hasn't been the best in these last 2 months, old habits came back, I lost people that I thought were always going to be there for me, you now things that just make you feel like shit. But I have been trying to overcome all those things and moving on? I guess, but you guys don't want to hear about my life so here is chapter 5. Finally! Well enjoy and as I always say productive
criticism is always welcome. Anyways Thank you all for reading and I send lots of love<3<3
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8/6/18