Bulletproof Heart

Gerard’s POV

Today was the day we was going to go back to my old town for the sentencing and I was beyond nervous.
I was sat in my window with me head rested against the window watching the world go by while Frank was on the phone to his mum to see if he could come with us, which I was really hoping he was allowed to come because I don’t think I would be able to go if I didn’t have Frank beside me.
”Gee honey are you there?” Mum said through my closed door.
”Yeah.” I said loud enough for mum to hear me.
My door creeped open and mum popped her head round the door.
”Can I come in?” Mum asked.
”Yeah.” I said and not moving my head from the window and I heard mum walk over and lent against the wall opposite me.
”You ready for this?” Mum asked and I forced myself to look at her.
”No, what if they find him not guilty and I went through everything he did to me for nothing.” I said quietly.
”They won’t find him not guilty because they have enough evidence of what he did to you and he will get sent down for what he did to you.” Mum said and I sighed and looked back out the window and watched Frank walk around as he was on the phone to his mum.
”Sweetheart I know this is going to be so hard for you, but you can do this. You have my full support and I’m sure it’s the same for Frank. You don’t have to go back to how you was before, you are not going to try and kill yourself. I’m not losing anymore of my son because of that bastard.” Mum said.
”I can’t do this mum.” I said quietly.
”Yes you can, you have done this before and you can do it again and this time it will be the last time you will see the bastard.” Mum said and I sighed loudly and saw Frank had finished his phone call and was having a cigarette.

”So you and Frank, are you two together?” Mum asked and I smiled slightly.
”Yeah, I know I said I wouldn’t rush into a relationship but he’s so different to everyone I’ve been with. He’s kind and loving and he would stick up for me and protect me if he had too.” I said and looked at mum who had a smile on her face.
”I’m sure he’ll look after you Gee and show you how you should be treated.” Mum said and I smiled and looked back out the window and noticed Frank had disappeared.
“You two have to be ready in an hour before the taxi comes and picks us up to go to the airport.” Mum said and I looked and saw Frank leaning against the door frame which made me smile.
Mum walked out the room as Frank walked in and walked over to me.
”You ready babe?” Frank asked and I looked down.
”No, I haven’t even packed yet.” I said and looked at the empty suitcase on my bed.
”Well all I can say is you better pack extra as I’m going to be stealing your clothes for the week.“ Frank said and I couldn’t help but look at him and smile.
”Your mum said yes?” I asked and Frank nodded and I looked back out the window.
”Yep, so you better get packing as we only have an hour to get everything sorted.” Frank said and I nodded but didn’t move from the window.
”Baby I know this is hard for you but you can do this. I’m going to be right beside you every step of the way.” Frank said and I looked at him again.
”Promise?” I whispered and Frank lent in and kissed me which I returned.
”I promise.” Frank said quietly as he rested his forehead against mine.
”Come on, we have to pack.” Frank said and I sighed loudly and Frank kissed the end of my nose which made me smile and I reluctantly moved from the window and started to pack.

The plane journey was okay part from Frank acting like a child since he had never been on a plane before which made me chuckle a lot.
”Right Gee I need to tell you something okay.” Mum said after we got our suitcases.
”Okay.” I said gingerly and Frank put his hand on the lower half of my back.
”I’m going to be staying at your fathers so I can talk things through with him and see Mikey and maybe meet his boyfriend. Will you be okay if you and Frank was in a hotel for the week.” Mum said.
”I’ll be fine as long as I have Frank beside me.” I said and mum smiled at us.
”Okay, come on then let’s go and find a taxi and take you to the hotel.” Mum said and I just nodded and looked for Franks hand and held onto it for dear life.
”Babe, you need to loosen your grip as I can’t feel my hand.” Frank said and I looked at him.
”Shit I’m sorry.” I said and loosen my grip on his hand.
”It’s fine, just remember that my hand is attached to me.” Frank said and I smiled and we found a taxi and got into it and mum started to talk to the driver as nobody could shut that woman up.
We got to the hotel where mum gave us the booking details and we got the room mum had booked for us and we went and got ourselves settled in for the week.

”You never warned me on how hot it is here, I’m literally sweating my bollacks off here.” Frank said as he got himself comfy on the bed and turned the tv on.
”Such a lovely choice of words.” I chuckled as I climbed onto the bed and cuddled into Frank side.
”Also how the fuck are you so pale, surely you should be more tanned that what you are.” Frank said and I chuckled again.
”I would hide in my room all day and just draw avoiding the heat.” I said and Frank chuckled.
”You hermit.” Frank said amd I looked at him and smiled.
”That’s me.” I said quietly as I got comfy cuddling Franks side.
”Am I going to get a tour?” Frank asked and I looked down.
”You can do if you want to, but this place really triggers me so badly that I don’t know if I could make it down the street without getting a flashback or having a panic attack or getting really distressed.” I said quietly and Frank started to mess with my hair.
”It’s okay, I’m not going to push you into doing something you don’t want.” Frank said quietly.
“But I do want to know what’s wrong with you. Need to make sure your not a mass murderer who will kill me in my sleep.” Frank said and I could t help but laugh as I sat up and looked at me.
”I won’t kill you, unless you really piss me off then something might have to be done.” I said and frank crossed his legs.
”Not my dick.” Frank said and I laughed and bent down to kiss him.
”But being serious now what is wrong with you.” Frank said and I lead down and face Frank.
”I have complex PTSD.” I said and Frank frowned at me.
”Really? And you call me dumb.” I said and Frank chuckled.
”That’s because the words I use most people know them.“ Frank said and I just rolled my eyes.
”I basically have Post -tramatic stress disorder. I also have some other problems but that is all part of having PTSD.” I said and Frank smiled.
“How long have you had it for?” Frank asked.
”4 months I got diagnosed with it.” I said and Frank frowned at me.
”So um, my last suicide attempt happened 4 months ago. It was then when I got diagnosed with PTSD.” I said and looked down and Frank pulled me into his side and kissed the top of my head.
”Okay, I think I’ve heard enough now, let’s go and have a shower and have an early night.” Frank said and I nodded and moved from Frank and headed to the shower.
”You want to shower alone?” Frank asked as I pulled my top off and looked at him.
”Normally you know I wouldn’t mind you joining but not today.” I said and Frank nodded.
”Don’t do nothing stupid.” Frank said and I smiled at him.
”I won’t.” I said quietly and went and had a shower.

I walked out the shower with my eyes probably looking really red still from crying in the shower.
”Baby what’s the matter?” Frank asked as he walked over to me.
”It’s nothing, I’m just being stupid.” I sniffed and I felt Franks hand on my hips which made me move away from him.
”Gee.” Frank started and I looked at him.
”I’m fine okay, stop fussing.” I snapped and walked away and sat on the bed.
I looked through the suitcase for my medication as I really needed it right now.
”Your not fine Gee.” Frank said and I put pulled some pants on and got into bed.
”Night Frank.” I said quietly and try to get comfy but couldn’t without Frank.
Frank crawled into bed and I was cuddled into his side straight away which made him chuckle.
”I’m sorry.” I sniffed as I hid my face into his chest.
”It’s okay, I’ll forgive you.” Frank said and he kissed my forehead.
”I’m sorry if I keep you up tonight, I might have these horrible nightmares.” I said quietly.
”It’s fine okay as long as you know I’m going to be right here beside you that’s all what matters.” Frank said and I nodded.
”I will see you in the morning.” Frank whispered as I fell asleep in his arms.

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