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Bulletproof Heart

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Frank’s POV

“We’re going to have to get the son of a bitch back for what he did to Esme.” Jamie said since Freddie and Jamie decided to gather in the house since I wasn’t really going to leave Gerard on his own.
“Just let the pigs deal with it. You know, then that bastard will always be known as a rapist there the bastard gets his pay back.” I said.
“It isn’t that simple.” Gerard said from the stairs and we all looked at him.
“Just because he’ll have the name of a rapist doesn’t make it any easier on Esme. It doesn’t help her get over what that bastard did to her. She needs you three to be the brothers that you are and just support her and not give the gorgers more reasons to call travelers a bad name.” Gerard said and he went outside and smoked a cigarette.
“He does have a point for a gorger.” Fred said and I looked at him.
“He’s more like a gypsy than a gorger.” I said and sighed loudly.
“So What we going to do?” Jamie asked.
“We turn him into the pigs and Esme will be like Gerard. We do nothing and Esme will also be like Gerard.” I said and thought about it.
“Beat the living shit out of him. We’ll wait until he’s out of school so Jamie can get a few hits in.” Fred said.
“How much weed have you given him?” I asked as I looked at Jamie.
“I stole some from you, I was meant to say.” Fred said and both me and Jamie looked at him.
“That stuff will fuck you up if your not careful.” I said and Fred shrugged his shoulders at me not really giving a shit.
“So this bastard, what we going to do.” Fred said and I heard the back door go and Gerard looking at me.
“Look if you want to beat the living daylights out of him then knock yourself out but don’t get caught by the police.” Gerard said and I smiled at him as Gerard went back into hiding in our room.
“Since when did you need permission to do anything?” Fred asked.
“When you get into a serious relationship then you will understand it.” Jamie said and I smiled at him.
“Get Esme to point him out and we’ll do something about him.” Freddie said as he stood up and Jamie followed his lead.
“You are not allowed to touch him Fredrick. The only time you are allowed to touch him is when me and Jamie are with you.” I said seriously and Freddie nodded they walked out the house and as soon as they was gone Gerard was downstairs.

“Babe I know you don’t want me to get into any fights.” I started but Gerard smiled as he walked over and kissed me which I returned.
“I understand.” Gerard whispered and I smiled at him.
“I don’t have to do this if you don’t want me too.” I said and Gerard chuckled slightly.
“Esme is family and you do what you have to do to make sure you look after your family. I don’t mind Frank as long as you don’t get into any trouble because of it.” Gerard said and I hugged him which Gerard returned.
“Do what you have to do.” Gerard said quietly and he let me go and I watched him walk off and I smiled to myself.
“Babe.” I said as I followed him to the kitchen where Gerard was doing some ritual like he has been doing the last couple of days.
“Gee, I was thinking maybe we could go out for dinner sometime this week. If you want to do that.” I said and Gerard jumped a little bit.
“Sounds good to me.” Gerard said as he looked at me.
“But first you need to kick some ass.” Gerard said and I smiled at him as I walked over to him and pinned him to the side.
“You going to be okay tomorrow when I go to school?” I asked and Gerard smiled as he kissed me and he pulled me closer to him.
“Yeah I’ll be fine, I can go and terrorize your mum and help her with the kids and keep Esme company as well so I’ll be keeping myself busy and I won’t be on my own.” Gerard said quietly and I lifted him up and sat him on the side and I stood between his legs.
“You sure?” I asked and Gerard chuckled as he kissed me again.
“Stop fussing will you and just do me.” Gerard said and I just smirked at him and moved us to the sitting room and worked on taking Gerard’s clothes off as Gerard worked on taking mine off.

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“There’s the son of a bitch.” Jamie said and Fred went to move but I caught hold of his wrist which made him look at me.
“Get the girl away from him and I’ll get the son of bitch and Jamie will meet us at the bottom of the spot field.” I said and Fred frowned.
“How do you suppose we do that? I mean he’s a fucking tank compared to me, can’t exactly give him a nipple cripple and he’ll come with. He’ll put up a fight and he’ll win over me.” Fred said.
“He’s a stoner, say you know someone who can give him drugs and there you have his attention and the reason for him to follow you.” I said and Jamie looked at me.
“How the fuck do you know this?” Jamie asked.
“Plus side of have a boyfriend with PTSD, you learn to read body language before you speak to them.” I said and Jamie nodded.
“Get your ass to the sports field, you come with me and sort the bastard out while I sort the girl out.” I said and me and Fred walked off leaving Jamie to go to the sports field.
We got to where we need to be and Fred looked at me.
“Remember the plan, you stick to the plan and this will work.” I said quietly as I looked at Fred who just nodded and took a big breath and we isolated the bastard and got him to the sports field.

“Hey there scum, hows things?” Jamie said as we stood round the bastard.
“Where’s my drugs?” The bastard said.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about?” I said and the bastard looked at me.
“Yes you fucking do, you used to deal drugs, so where is my fucking drugs that that little bastard said there would be.” The bastard said.
“Yeah well that was before I heard what you did to my sister.” I said seriously.
“Please, why would I want to touch such scum like that when there are hotter chicks in this place than her. In fact that your boyfriend is pretty hot as well.” The bastard said and I moved and grabbed hold of his hair and held it tight and pulled his head down hard enough for him to shout in pain.
“She is not scum, you are the fucking scum and as for my boyfriend you do not even mention him right now.” I growled as I let go off his hair and pushed him so he fell to the floor.
“So What have I done to deserve the pikies being here?” The bastard asked.
“Oh you did not just say that?” Freddie said seriously.
“I think he did.” Jamie said and looked at Freddie who kicked the bastard hard in the stomach.
“I don’t even know what the little bitch said to you for what I did because I don’t even know.” The bastard said and Jamie now kicked him.
“So raping my sister doesn’t ring any bells?” Jamie growled as he pulled the bastard back up with his hair.
“I have no idea what you are talking about.” The bastard coughed.
“Bull shit!” Freddie said loudly as he punched the bastard hard round the face.
“You fucking raped my sister and now you are fucking denying it! How fucking could you do such a disgusting thing and then claim that you didn’t do such a thing!” I shouted and ripped him out of Jamie’s hold and pinned him to the ground and punched him hard around the face a couple of times.
“Frank chill, don’t kill him.” Jamie said calmly as he put a hard on my shoulder.
“The bastard won’t get away for doing what he did to Esme!” I said seriously as I had my hands round this bastard throat.
“And choking him will not help here. Go home, me and Fred will sort him out.” Jamie said taking charge.
I looked at the bastard and punched him again which knocked him out and I stood up panting as Fred went to touch me but I moved away from him.
“Don’t come fucking near me.” I growled and Fred backed off.
“You need to cool off before you go home to Gee.” Jamie said said and I looked at him hard.
“Do not lecture me on what to do.” I said seriously.
“And going home in this mind set will make Gerard scared off you. You want to throw all the trust he has in you away like it’s shit leaving your ass in the mornings then knock yourself out because right now you are scaring me let alone what it’ll do to Gerard.” Jamie said.
“You know fuck all Jamie.” I spat and looked at the bastard who was still out cold on the floor.
I walked over and kicked him hard and stormed off back home.

I slammed the front door shut and I heard someone squeak and run upstairs and I knew I scared Gerard straight away which made me take a deep breath to calm myself down as I walked over to the bottle of vodka I had and had a mouthful off that and I took the edge off a little bit so I walked into the sitting room and saw Gerard’s art book and pencils on the floor.
I sighed and picked Gerard’s stuff up and looked at what he was working on and I smiled when I saw he was drawing a cartoon version of me.
“Gee baby you home?” I asked loud enough for him to hear me.
I heard Gerard move around upstairs and him coming down the stairs and he stood by the stairs looking scared.
“You’re not going to hurt me are you?” Gerard asked quietly as he looked down and I felt all the anger I had inside of me leave.
“No baby, I would never dream of hurting you.” I said softly but Gerard wasn’t too sure so he stayed by the stairs.
“He said that but he always did hurt me, especially when he was angry about something.” Gerard said sadly as he stayed looking down and picked at his fingers.
I walked over to him and gently made him look at me but not giving me his eye contact, which I could understand.
“I’m not him. Everything I was feeling disappeared when I saw you. Yeah I am angry but it’s not towards you and I would never take it out on you. I love you Gee and hurting you is something I never want to do.” I said softly and it was then when Gerard gave me his eye contact.
“I love you too.” Gerard whispered as he hugged me and more of the anger I was feeling just disappeared as I returned his hug.
Gerard pulled back and he gently took hold of my hand and he looked at them.
“Let’s get some ice on these.” Gerard said softly as he walked off and I turned round and watched him walked out to the kitchen.
I smiled to myself as I walked over to the sofa and sat down and Gerard returned a couple a minutes later and he sat next to me.

“You must of punched this person pretty hard, you have blood over you fist.” Gerard said quietly as he cleaned my hand.
“If this makes you uneasy then you don’t have to do this, I can clean myself up.” I said and Gerard looked at me and smiled shyly at me.
“It’s fine, I don’t mind.” Gerard said softly but you could see that he wasn’t comfortable with cleaning my hand up.
“Baby it isn’t fine, I can see how uncomfortable you are doing this.” I said softly.
“I need to learn you’re not him. I need to do this to remind myself that I am not where my head is telling me where I am. I need to learn that you will get into fights and I need to learn how to clean you up.” Gerard said sounding pissed off with himself as he let go off my hand.
“You don’t have to do this for me.” I said and Gerard stood up and had his back to me and I could see he was hurting himself.
“Yes I do! I need to do this for you because you do everything for me and I do nothing to return everything that you have done for me. I need to do this so I don’t feel like I am taking advantage of you.” Gerard said seriously as he spun round to face me.
“I do everything for you because I love you Gee. I know you are not taking advantage of me, I’ve been down that road and this is not what you are doing.” I said and Gerard sighed loudly as he looked down.
“I want to show you that I can care for you as well. That I’m not useless.” Gerard said quietly as he sniffed quietly.
“I know that you care about me, you don’t have to push yourself to prove me something I already know. Your not useless babe you anything but useless.” I said and Gerard looked at me.
“It works both ways though, you look after me when I need you and I look after you when you need me. I don’t want this relationship to be all about me, because that’s not how I want this relationship to be.” Gerard said quickly and I stood up and caught hold of his hands even though it hurt my hands which made Gerard look away.
“Baby look at me.” I said quietly and Gerard looked at me.
“You look after me when you need to, you just aren’t aware of when you are doing so. This relationship isn’t like a normal relationship. It isn’t normal because it is our relationship and how we do things is different to what other people do.” I said softly and Gerard smiled softly and I kissed his forehead.
“I love you with all my heart.” I said quietly as I hugged Gerard which he returned.
“I love you too.” Gerard whispered.
We stayed like this for a minute when Gerard let me go and looked at me.
“I need to sort your hand out.” Gerard said quietly as he caught hold my good hand and guided me over to the sofa where I sat down and let Gerard sort my hand out in his own time.

Gerard was sat in the bath while I was sat on the toilet since I didn’t really want a bath and Gerard didn’t want to be alone in the bathroom.
“Where did you hurt yourself?” I asked and Gerard looked at me.
“I don’t know what you mean.” Gerard said quietly as he looked down.
“Gee What have we said about keeping things from each other?” I said and Gerard sighed as he took his left arm out the water and hung it out the bath where I saw where he had hurt himself.
“I’m sorry.” Gerard sniffed and I moved from the toilet and sat on the floor where I gently got hold of his arm and kissed by the sore red mark what was there.
“Don’t say sorry. At least this isn’t a trip to the hospital for stitches so I’m not mad.” I said softly as I looked at Gerard who looked at me.
“You should be mad at me.” Gerard whispered and I frowned at him confused.
“Why should I be mad at you?” I asked hoping I could push Gerard a little bit to open up to me but knowing my luck Gerard will work me out quickly and just shut down.
“Because I’m a rubbish boyfriend. I’m too fucked up for anyone and you can do so much more better than me.” Gerard said and I sighed.
“Your not a rubbish boyfriend. You’re not fucked up, I’ve seen such a improvement in you since I first met you. You are my soulmate Gee, I can never do any better than you.” I said and Gerard looked at me.
“He said that he would fuck me up so good that nobody will never want me and that I would be better off dead. I wanted to die so badly when he had me but I didn’t.” Gerard sniffed as he looked back down again and messed with the bubbles in the bath.
“Well I don’t think your fucked up, I want to be with you and I have nearly lost you twice now Gee but you held on. But next time you go on self destruct mode you could kill yourself Gee. You hear me? Next time you could be dead and I will never be able to carry on without you by my side.” I said seriously by the end.
I moved and got hold of Gerard’s face and made him look at me.
“You will die if you take any more hard drugs and overdose on them.” I said and Gerard sighed as he looked away from me.
“Baby this is serious.” I said softly as I let go of his face.
“I want to be alone.” Gerard said quietly and I sighed loudly as I looked down and got up and I kissed the top of Gerard’s head.
“I love you.” I said quietly into his hair.
“I love you too.” Gerard whispered and I walked out the room and I went to our room and found something for me to watch quietly as I listened out for Gerard.

I was just falling asleep when I heard a floor board creek which made me jump and I looked over to where the sound was and saw it was Gerard with a towel wrapped round him.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to wake you up.” Gerard said quietly but he was scared of something and I had this horrible feeling it was me he was now scared off.
“Naw, you didn’t wake me baby.” I said and I could tell Gerard was looking down and was thinking about something.
Gerard moved to the end of the bed where he pulled some pants on and he stood at the end of the bed and looked at me.
“I want to be honest with you.” Gerard said quietly which made me sit up and look at him with a thousand things going round my head.
“But before you jump to everything the answer to what you want ask is no, no I didn’t cheat on you, I would never dream of doing that to you.” Gerard asked and I let out the breath that I had been hold and Gerard climbed onto the bed and crawled over to me and I made a gap for him to sit in and he sat down in front of me.
“I knew you was really angry when you came home today.” Gerard said quietly.
“It scared me because Eric would just blow up to the point of anger you was at today and I was scared that you was going to hurt me.” Gerard whispered as he looked down and messed with the bedding.
“Baby I didn’t mean to scare you.” I said softly and Gerard looked at me.
“There was one day, I was allowed up from the basement and I wanted to feel the air on my skin, to breath in some fresh air and feel the sun on my face so I went outside. I didn’t realize that Eric was watching me and when he came home he beat the living crap out of me and that’s how my scar here appeared. He stabbed me to make me stay in my place.” Gerard said as he pointed to one of the scars on his chest.
I looked at him and Gerard had tears in his eyes.
“I was so scared and today brought those memories back and when I lost it sorting your hand out it was because it wasn’t you. I wasn’t seeing you, it was me fixing Eric after he got into a fight. It was me sorting my wounds out after he punched me, slapped me, even stabbing and raping me.” Gerard said as he put his hands up to his face and he started to cry.
I sighed and I pulled Gerard into my chest and held him close to me.
“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry baby.” I said quietly as kissed the side of his head as Gerard cried into my chest.
Gerard sniffed as he pulled back and looked at me and after a couple of seconds Gerard lent forward and kissed me which I returned.
“I don’t want sex tonight.” Gerard said quietly as he looked at me and I smiled softly at him as I kissed him again and I pulled Gerard down so he was now lead on top of me which made Gerard smile slightly as he got himself comfy.
“It’s fine, I understand.” I whispered as I kissed the top of Gerard’s head and I left Gerard’s breaths even out and when I looked Gerard was asleep so I carefully pulled the covers over us and I got as comfy as I could without waking Gerard and I watched the film and thought about today and waited for Gerard to have a nightmare since I knew today has been hard on him.
“I love you Frank.” Gerard mumbled and I chuckled softly as I kissed Gerard’s head again and I started to mess with his hair.

“I love you too Gee.” I whispered and I let Gerard go back to sleep and I carried on watching this film.

Notes

Finally got round to updating this story...

going to have to bare with me as I am now back on days with work and I’m pretty much working over 42 hours a week and I have hardly any time off work right now So updates are going to be really slow at the moment.

Comments

Please don't doubt your writing. The characters draw you in & you want to stay for the ride! I know anyone who writes is critical of their own work (I am ;-), but the beauty is in allowing the creative process to flow.

I caught up on all 29 chapters in just 2 days. My poor Gee. Frank is so real, hot-headed, caring & loving - love it.

Morgawse Morgawse
3/5/18

Loving this!
Poor Gee, That bastard really did a number on him, messed him up good. I hope Frank can help him to recover and take control of himself again.
xxx

I will tell you what I tell every writer who puts down their own smut...ALL SMUT IS GOOD SMUT!!
Loving this!
xxx

this isn't shit at all! love it<3

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11/20/17

Poor gee:( love all The fluff tho;)

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11/11/17