Frank’s POV

We’ve been in the house for a month a Gerard wasn’t really coping that well with being in the house on his own but I was hoping he was slowly getting better.
My alarm went off so I could go to school and I sighed loudly as I rolled over to cuddle Gerard only to find and empty space next to me.
I sighed loudly and rolled out of bed and pulled some pants on and went downstairs where I saw Gerard looking like death on the sofa still sound asleep.

I smiled softly to myself and I went to put the kettle on and I walked back in the sitting room and walked over to Gerard and got the blanket and gently put it over him which made Gerard sigh loudly.
I kissed Gerard softly on the side of his head and Gerard opened his eyes and smiled softly at me.
“Morning baby.” I whispered.
“Morning.” Gerard said sleepily and I heard the kettle had boiled and I got up.
“Make me a coffee.” Gerard mumbled and I looked at him and kissed the end of his nose which made Gerard smile.
“Because I love you, I will make you a coffee.” I said quietly and Gerard smiled and I went to the kitchen and made us both a coffee.
I walked back in the sitting room and sat on the sofa where Gerard moved a little bit so I had room to sit on the sofa.
“How come your not in bed?” I asked and Gerard sighed as I lent on his chest and his arm wrapped round me the best he could.
“I couldn’t sleep so I came downstairs to watch tv and I guess I fell asleep.” Gerard said sleepily.
“Why you up?” Gerard asked as I lead down and Gerard shuffled against my back and cuddled me.
“I have school today and you have to come in as well because you have to sign those paper and empty your locker and then your free from that shithole.” I said and Gerard groaned loudly which tickled the back of my neck.
“Come on Baby, the sooner you get it over and done with the sooner you’ll be out of there and be the house bitch.” I said and Gerard slapped my chest.
“I’m not your house bitch.” Gerard said sounding he was about to fall asleep as he hasn’t been to school for the last 3 months so he didn’t have to get up at stupid times in the morning.
“Baby come on, we’re going to be late otherwise.” I said and smacked Gerard’s hand which was on my chest.
“Don’t want to go.” Gerard grumbled under his breath.
I moved and Gerard allowed me to move and I looked at him.
“Babe I’m gonna have a shower, you joining?” I said and Gerard opened a eye and looked at me.
“The offer of sex is on the table as well.” I said and Gerard sat himself up and looked at me as he drank his coffee and once he was done he got up and he walked over to me and kissed me which I returned and we went upstairs and had a shower.

“I’ll see you at break.” I said as I kissed Gerard which he returned but he didn’t look comfortable.
“Please don’t leave.” Gerard said quietly as he looked down and he let go off my hand which made me frown.
“Babe, it’s going to be okay.” I said softly and Gerard shook his head and he walked off and it looked like he was heading towards the toilets so I followed him.
I opened the door and there was a couple of people stood round by a door and they was laughing at the person behind the door.
“Get away from there.” I said seriously and they all looked at me.
“Why? The person behind this door is crying and it’s funny.” One boy said.
“And how do you know if the person behind that door doesn’t have mental health problems and they are having a panic attack. Now get the fuck away from the door and leave the poor bastard alone.” I said seriously and they didn’t move so I moved and slammed the boy who laughed into the door.
“I suggest you and your buddy’s move the fuck away from this door and this bathroom before I do some serious harm.” I said seriously and the boy just looked at me and I slammed his head against the door which made the person in the toilet squeak.
“Do I make my fucking self clear or do i have to bash your head again?” I growled and I let the person go and he walked out with the other boys and I just glared at them until they was out the door.
“Baby, is that you in there?” I asked softly and the person sniffed and they shuffled in the toilet and unlocked the door and I saw Gerard with tears stains down his cheek and I opened my arms out where Gerard walked into my arms and I wrapped my arms around him.
“They was laughing at me.” Gerard sobbed into my shoulder and I held him tighter to me and I kissed the side of his head.
“I know baby, but I got them back.” I said softly and Gerard chuckled slightly, or I think he chuckled but I wasn’t too sure.
“I can’t go out there. I can’t speak to the head. I can’t do it.” Gerard sobbed as he looked at me.
“Yes you can babe, I know you can because I’m going to be right beside. Then we can go home and do whatever you want.” I said and kissed Gerard which he returned and he hugged me again.
I moved back a little bit and moved some of Gerard’s hair out of his face and wiped the tears away.
“Got your back baby. I’ve always got your back.” I said quietly and Gerard smiled and nodded as he looked at me.
“Got your back as well.” Gerard said shyly which made me smile and I kissed him softly and caught hold of his hand and we went to see the head.

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“Thank fuck I have finished with that fucking school.” Gerard said as he rolled out of bed and put some pants on and I just rolled onto my side and looked at him.
“But you don’t get to see me.” I said as Gerard got back into bed and rolled onto his back and I put my arm behind his head as Gerard caught hold of my hand.
“I get the see you everyday after your 6 hours of hell.” I said and Frank chuckled.
“But I’ll miss seeing your pretty red hair and your face and everything about you.” I said and rolled over so I was above Gerard.
“You’ll miss having sex with me while we’re meant to be having sports.” Gerard said and I just smirked at him and kissed him.
“You have homework to do, so you need to stop thinking what you are thinking and do some homework.” Gerard said as he pushed me off him and sat up and got off the bed pulling on one of my hoodies.
“But babe, I want cuddles.” I pouted and Gerard walked over and kissed me and walked off.
“Nope, homework then cuddles.” Gerard said as he walked out the room.
“Since when did you become Mam?” I called after him.
“Since she not here to boss you around.” Gerard shouted up the stairs and I smiled to myself as I got my school bag and my homework and started to do some of my homework.

I went downstairs and frowned when Gerard wasn’t in the sitting room or the kitchen.
“Babe where are you?” I said loud enough for Gerard to hear me but I didn’t get a reply which wasn’t like Gerard.
I walked out to the kitchen and Gerard’s keys was on the side and his shoes was still in a messy pile by the front door.
I walked back into the sitting room and looked on the coffee table and Gerard phone was also still here which isn’t like Gee not to take him phone with him.
“Where the fuck are you Gee.” I said to myself and looked towards the tiny garden that we had and Gerard wasn’t there.
I was really confused on what was going on now when someone bang on the front door and I walked over and opened it and Mikey was stood there.
“How the fuck do you know where I live?” I asked confused.
“It doesn’t matter right now, Gerard is losing the fucking plot in town.” Mikey said quickly and I was still looking at him confused.
“It doesn’t matter right now Frank, but you need to get to town before someone locks Gee up.” Mikey said and I quickly pulled some shoes on and grabbed Gerard hoodie and shorts and quickly put them on and followed Mikey to town.

We got there and Gerard was proper losing the plot and he had self harmed as well.
“What the fuck do we do?” Mikey asked as we stood next to Bren since he was being the eyes and ears for us while Mikey got me.
“Leave him for me to deal with, just distract the pigs if they come I can’t have Gee being locked up okay.” I said and I moved towards Gerard.
Gerard was shouting and the crowd of people wasn’t helping me or Gerard.
“Gee, Gee babe look at me.” I said softly as I got close to him but kept my distance and Gerard didn’t look at me.
I stood in front of him and cupped his face in my face which made Gerard pulled back.
“Look at me Gerard.” I said more seriously and something twigged inside his head and Gerard looked at me.
“Tell me what’s going on.” I said softly.
“I saw his face.” Gerard quickly.
“Where, where did you see his face?” I asked and wiped some tears from his cheeks and Gerard sniffed loudly as he shook his head.
“It’s okay baby. It’s okay.” I whispered as I pulled him into a hug which Gerard accepted and held onto me tightly.
“Sir.” Someone said which made Gerard tense and hold on to me tighter and I looked at the person who was a paramedic.
“Would you like to come to the back of the ambulance so we can check your injuries.” The paramedic said.
“Gee Babe, Shell we go and have your arm looked at?” I said and Gerard shook his head.
“Take as long as you need sweetie, we’ll wait.” The paramedic said and she backed off a little bit.
“Let’s get your arm looked out.” I said softly and Gerard shook his head in my shoulder.
“Baby your arm is bleeding badly so you need to get it looked at. I’ll go with you and stay with you if you want me to do that.” I said softly and Gerard moved back a little and looked at me.
“Y..Y..You’ll stay with me?” Gerard asked quietly and I kissed the top of his head.
“Yes baby, I’ll stay by your side.” I said quietly and Gerard looked at the ambulance.
Gerard let me go but he caught hold of my hand quickly and he let me take him over to the ambulance.

“So have you got anything we should know about Mr Way?” The paramedic asked since they had to sedate Gerard as he wasn’t going to let them near him after they looked at his arm.
“Gee has PTSD, today was an episode but I don’t know what triggered it.” I said and looked at Gerard who had his little finger linked with mine.
“Is there any family that should know where Mr Way is?” The paramedic asked.
“There’s his brother but I can contact him when we get to the hospital and then my family is Gees family and I’ll contact them later as well. But his parents have nothing to do with him.” I said and the paramedic nodded.
“When we get to the hospital can I stay with him? If he wakes up and I’m not beside him he’ll freak.” I said and paramedic looked at me and smiled.
“Yes sweetie you can stay beside him.” The paramedic said and I smiled and looked at Gee.
“Will he have to stay is psych? He stayed in psych for over a month about 4 months ago and he didn’t cope with it.” I said and the paramedic sighed.
“I don’t know, the mental health team will have to assess him and see then if he has to be admitted or not.” The paramedic said and I just nodded and we stayed quiet the only thing which was making a noise was the radio for background noise.

I was sat in A&E just people watching and just waiting for Gee to wake up when Mikey and Bren showed up.
“How’s he doing?” Mikey asked as he stood behind Gerard since he was on his side facing me and Mikey started to mess with Gerard’s hair.
“Drugged up at the moment, stitches in his arms and currently waiting for the mental health people to do a assessment to see if he is stable enough to be discharged or wether he needs to be admitted.” I said and looked at the sleeping boy in front of me.
“You have like the magic touch with him.” Mikey said and I looked at him and smiled.
“It took a lot of work, but what we have now I would never want to throw away.” I said and Mikey smiled.
“Babe, we need to get going.” Bren said to Mikey and Mikey looked at him.
“You go, I’ll stay here with Frank and Gee.” Mikey said.
“Go home Mikes. I have this under control.” I said and Mikey sighed.
“You’ll let me know if anything happens.” Mikey said as he messed with Gerard’s hair and smiled sadly.
“I’ll keep you posted, but right now you are your own concern and Gerard is my concern.” I said and Mikey nodded as he caught hold of Bren hand and they walked off and I just watched them walk off and I sighed loudly.
“I’m still right beside you babe.” I said quietly and I lent forward and kissed Gerard forehead and sat back down in my chair and waited for Gerard to wake up or someone else woke me up.

“Frank. Frankie wake up.” I heard someone say and I opened one of my eyes and saw Gerard was awake.
“Hey baby, how you feeling?” I said softly but my voice was thick with sleep which made Gerard smile.
“I ache and feel really tired.” Gerard said which made me smile.
“Well you did lose the plot a bit in town and you hurt yourself and for your own good they had to drug you up.” I said as I moved my chair so I was closer to Gerard and I caught hold of his hand.
“How did I end up in town?” Gerard asked confused.
“I have no idea babe, all I know is that I couldn’t find you in the house and then Mikey was banging on the door saying you had lost the plot in the middle of town.” I said and Gerard looked down.
“Do you know what triggered this? It’s okay if you don’t or if you don’t want to tell me as you have the mental health team coming to see you and you can tell them what happened and you’ll only have to say once.” I sad and Gerard sighed loudly.
“You wouldn’t believe me if I told you.” Gerard said quietly.
“Try me.” I said and Gerard looked at me.
“I saw his face on the tv.” Gerard said quietly as his bottom lip quivered and he started to cry.
I moved and walked round the bed.
“Don’t leave me, please don’t leave me.” Gerard said loudly as he sat up.
“I wasn’t going to leave, I was just walking round so I can get onto the bed and cuddle you.” I said softly as I took my shoes off and climbed onto the bed where Gerard cuddled into my side and I gently ran my fingers up and down his arm, being careful for his bandage.
“You don’t believe me, do you?” Gerard asked sounding hurt.
“I do believe you Gee, but what I don’t understand is how you saw his face on the tv when he is in prison.” I said and Gerard sat up and looked at me.
“I know what I saw, I might be batshit in the head but I know what I saw and I saw his face smiling smuggly at the camera.” Gerard said quickly.
“Babe listen to me, I believe you when you say that you saw him on the tv. But if he was going be let out surely your lawyer should of phoned you to say that he was being released.” I said and Gerard sighed loudly.
“What if he finds me again. I can’t go back to him.” Gerard whispered and I pulled he closer to me and kissed the top of his head.
“He won’t find you baby, everyone on the site will keep an eye out and if anything happens then we’ll sort him out. You are going to be safe with us and also we have moved to more further into the camp as well so he won’t be able to walk in without being spotted. I’ll do everything I can to protect you from him.” I said quietly.
“I’m scared Frankie.” Gerard whispered as he moved even closer to me.
“I know you are, but I’m not leaving your side.” I said softly and Gerard looked at me and I could see the fear in Gerard’s eyes.
I kissed Gerard softly which he returned and I held him close to me as I felt Gerard’s breaths even out and when I looked down Gerard had fallen asleep.

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Luckily Gerard didn’t have to stay in the hospital so once the mental health team had looked at him and assessed him we was allowed to go home, which I was thankful for because I was exhausted.

I was walking upstairs when I looked at Gerard who was stood at the bottom of the stairs not sure what to do.
“You coming to bed with me babe?” I said softly and Gerard looked at me and nodded and he followed me upstairs.
I stripped down to my pants and I turned round and saw Gerard staring at me but at the same time he looked lost.
“Babe.” I said softly and Gerard’s eyes moved and he looked at me.
“Talk to me, I’m worried sick at the moment.” I said and moved closer to Gerard and he moved ever so slightly away from me.
“Gee, it’s me. It’s Frank.” I said softly.
Gerard moved and he wrapped his arms round me and I gently returned his hug.
“Let’s go to bed and I’ll cuddle you and make sure you stay safe.” I said and Gerard nodded as he let me go.
“You going to get changed into something more comfortable?” I asked and Gerard looked round and found a pair of trackies which he picked up and then he looked round and found one of my tops which he picked up and he walked over to the bed and started to get changed.
Once he was done he turned round and looked at me.
“You’ll get hot wearing that.” I said as I knew I was pretty much a human hot water bottle and Gerard always complained about how hot I made him when I cuddle him.
“I don’t care.” Gerard said sadly.

I walked over to him and caught hold of the bottom of the top and looked at Gerard.
“You will care as you’ll moan to me about being too hot.” I said softly and Gerard looked at me with those big sad eyes which broke my heart as Gerard’s eyes was just starting to show that little bit of happiness in them.
“I can’t do it, I look disgusting.” Gerard said quietly as he looked down as he crossed his arms across his chest and I placed my thumb under his chin which made him look at me.
“Let me do it for you. You are not disgusting to me, you are the complete opposite. You are beautiful and I would never have you in any other way.” I said softly.
Gerard uncrossed his arms from his chest and lifted his arms up and he smiled shyly at me which I returned as I caught hold of his top and lifted it up his body and when I got the top to his head I kept it there.
“What you doing?” Gerard said with panic in his voice.
“Shush, just Trust me.” I said quietly and kissed him through the top and I moved to his chest and just looked at his body and smiled as I lent forward and softly kissed his chest which made Gerard tense up a little.
“Relax, I’m never going to hurt you.” I whispered against his skin and kissed another scar which was on his chest and I stepped back and pulled the top over his head and threw it across the room.
I moved and kissed the scar on Gerard’s neck and I looked at him and I kissed him softly which Gerard returned and he yawned which made me chuckle as I picked him up and walked us over to the bed and I gently placed Gerard on the bed and I climbed over him and Gerard rolled onto his side and I cuddled into his back as I pulled the covers over us and I made sure I was as close as I could and I held Gerard closer to me.
“Relax and go to sleep, I’ll be here.” I whispered and kissed behind Gerard’s ear.

“I love you Frank.” Gerard said quietly and I smiled and kissed his cheek and I rested my chin on his shoulder and it wasn’t until I felt Gerard’s breaths even out and I knew he was asleep that I allowed myself to fall asleep as well.

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