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Bulletproof Heart

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Trigger warning Mentions of Self harm

Gerard’s POV

We was moving into the house but first me and Frank needed to help Jamie move his crap he didn’t want in the house out of the house.
“So remind me again on why it’s just me and you moving your brothers crap and he’s not here helping.” I said as me and Frank walked to Jamie’s.
“Because Jamie is busy.” Frank said and I looked at him.
“And we could be busy but here we are busting our balls to move his stuff.” I said.
“Look its only a few things we have to move the rest of the stuff stays in the house or the caravan.” Frank said and I groaned loudly.
Frank stopped walking and stood in front of me and pulled me close to him as he wrapped his arms round my neck as mine wrapped round his waist.
“Tonight we will make the house ours.” Frank said quietly.
“Well that won’t be happening if we don’t hurry up.” I said and Frank chuckled.
“We have all night so don’t worry. You’ll get my dick at the end of the day.” Frank said and he kissed me which I return.

Me and Frank has just finished moving the last of our stuff in when Jamie showed up.
“Your a bit late to show up.” I said in a sarcastic way and Jamie looked at Frank for help and Frank just chuckled.
“I’ll leave you with pissed off Gee.” Frank said and Jamie caught hold of his arm and spun Frank around and made Frank stand in front of him.
“You don’t need me to protect you, Gee is harmless unless you really piss him off.” Frank said messing with Jamie.
“Protect me Frank.” Jamie said and I chuckled.
“Don’t worry I won’t go batshit on you, but I will say this. Next time you move, move your fucking stuff yourself. Me and Frank would of finished a hell of a lot sooner if we didn’t have to move all your crap along as well.” I said and turned round to start unpacking things.
“Just like what I said. Harmless.” Frank said and he walked over to me.
“I’m not some bloody animal.” I huffed and Frank chuckled and kissed me cheek.
“Love you Babe.” Frank said as I stood up and looked at Frank.
“Twat.” I said as I poked his stomach as I walked past him.
“I beg your pardon.” Frank chuckled as he caught hold of my hand and pulled me towards him and held me close to him which made me giggle as I kissed him.
“Okay, I’m getting out of here before I see things I don’t want to see.” Jamie said and I looked at him completely forgetting that he was here.
“Hope you two have a good night.” Jamie said with a smirk and he left us alone and Frank went over to the front door and locked it so nobody else could come in.
“Now to make the house ours.” Frank said and I smiled at him.
“First we unpack some stuff and then we can make the house ours.” I said and Frank pouted at me which made me chuckle as I picked a box up as kissed him as I walked past him.
“Unless you don’t want sex tonight I would suggest you help me.” I said and Frank quickly took the box from me and went upstairs.

I was in the kitchen in just my pants seeing what me and Frank could have to eat and every time I put my hand on my neck it would hurt from the hickies Frank has given me from earlier.
“So do you want pizza or Chinese?” I asked as I sat next to Frank on the sofa.
“I want you.” Frank said as he moved closer to me and his hand went on my upper thigh and I looked at him.
“Well I’m hungry, so before you get me I need food otherwise I’ll pass out.” I said and Frank moved so he was sat on me and I could feel his hard on as he rocked his hips back and forth.
“Frank please, I need to eat something.” I said as Frank kissed down my neck and ignored me.
“Frank Get off me.” I said as I gently pushed his chest but Frank again ignored me.
“I said get off me.” I said as I pushed Frank harder than before which made him fall off me and he looked at me confused as I stood up and went upstairs and hid in the bathroom making sure the door was locked and I was sat in front of it and I felt some tears roll down my cheek as I rested my head on my knees.
I moved and went looking around to see if there was anything in the bathroom I could use to hurt myself with.
I managed to find some blades for the razors and I sighed as I went back to sit in front of the door to take apart the razor.

“Gee, baby are you in there?” Frank asked as he gently knocked on the door.
“I’m running myself a bath.” I said as I moved from the door quietly and got up and walked over to the bath and started to run it so Frank doesn’t start thinking I was up to no good.
“Am I allowed to join or do you want some space?” Frank asked and I was starting to feel hurt that he hasn’t even said sorry for what he done.
“I want some space.” I said as I carried on trying to dismantle this blade as quietly as I could.
“Okay babe, what was it you wanted to eat and I’ll order it for you.” Frank said and I sighed loudly.
“Pizza will be fine thanks.” I said and smiled to myself once I got the blade out.
“Baby.” Frank said and I looked and saw the door handle was down from where Frank was trying to get in.
“Baby let me in.” Frank said desperately and I sighed and walked over and unlocked the door and went back over to turn the hot water off and I put some cold in and when I turned round Frank was stood by the bath looking at the broken razor blade and then he looked at me.
“Gerard.” Frank said with hurt in his voice.
“Gee you promised me that you wouldn’t do this, you said you would talk to me.” Frank said and I looked down feeling like a little kid that was being told off by Mum.
“You didn’t listen to me when I told you to get off me.” I said quietly.
“And I’m sorry that I didn’t listen to you. But you shouldn’t of gone off and took apart a razor, you could of talked to me.” Frank said and I just rolled my eyes at him.
“And say what Frank? Sex was clouding your brain and all you wanted to do is fuck me into the sofa. Yeah what a nice chat that will be.” I said as I went to walk off but Frank stood in front of me and stopped me from walking.
“Yes, you say exactly that Gerard. You make me fucking listen.” Frank said and I looked down and shook my head.
“Baby, I’m sorry I didn’t listen to you, but you don’t go running to a blade because I fucked up.” Frank said and he made me look at him.
“I love you and it hurts that I made you go running to a blade to make yourself feel better for me being a cunt towards you.” Frank said.
“I love you too.” I whispered and Frank kissed my forehead which made me smile slightly.
“Go and have a bath and by the time you get out of the bath Pizza will be here.” Frank said and I nodded and I turned round.
“Gee.” Frank said and I stopped and turned to look at him.
“The blade please.” Frank said and he looked like he was ready for me to have a go at him and he was shocked when I put the blade in his hand without saying anything.
“Would you like me to join you or would you like some time to yourself?” Frank asked and I walked over to him and hugged him which Frank returned and I hid my face in Frank’s neck and started to cry.
“Hey baby what’s the matter?” Frank asked softly as his hold of me got that little bit tighter and I wrapped my arm round his neck so he couldn’t see me cry even though he has seen me cry loads of times.
“Baby I can’t help if you don’t talk.” Frank said softly and I felt him pick me up and him walking and the water being turned off and Frank walking again and I felt him going down the stairs and I felt myself being put down on the sofa and I let go off Frank but kept my face hidden from him.
“Baby look at me, let me see your beautiful face.” Frank said and I shook my head and put the hood up on Frank’s hoodie which hid my face more.
Someone knocked on the door which made me jump and I felt Frank kiss the top of my head.
“It’s just the pizza guy, I’ll just go and pay for it and we can have a movie night if you want.” Frank said and I just nodded and Frank walked off and I curled up on the sofa.

“Baby, you are scaring me now, please talk to me.” Frank said as he touched my leg which made me look at him.
“Tell me what the matter is?” Frank said softly and I moved so I was cuddled up to Frank’s side and I felt Frank kissed the side of my head.
“I nearly broke my promise.” I whispered and sniffed and Frank held me a bit closer to him.
“But you didn’t which is the main thing.” Frank said and I shook my head as I moved away from Frank.
“I was going to run the bath and self harm badly.” I sobbed as my head went into my hands and I started to cry again.
“I didn’t even think what was at stake, I just thought about myself and after you saying what you said I didn’t even think about our relationship, I’m such a horrible person.” I said but it came out in one huge sobering mess and I was surprised that Frank could even understand me.
“The main thing here Gee is that you didn’t self harm, Yes I came in just in a nick of time but you didn’t have to unlock that door, you could of kept it locked and do what you had to do. You not a horrible person babe.” Frank said and pulled me into his chest and I hid my face in his chest.
“You know I love you too much too let you go.” Frank said quietly and he pulled me into his lap and he wrapped his arms round me and rocked himself from side to side in some attempt to comfort me which in a way it was working.
“I wouldn’t let you go, not without a fight anyway.” Frank whispered into my hair.
I moved back and looked at Frank who smiled softly at me as he gently wiped some off the tears which had fallen away.
“I love you too.” I whispered and Frank nodded in a understanding way.
“I know you do. Did you want anymore of your pizza?” Frank asked and I shook my head as I cuddled back into Frank’s chest.
“Well I’m going to finish mine off and we can watch a film.” Frank said and I nodded as I moved but Frank’s hand on my back stopped me and I looked at me.
“Stay, you’re keeping me warm. I can eat around you, just don’t blame me if you get covered in crumbs.” Frank said and I chuckled quietly as I lent forward and kissed him which Frank returned.
I got myself comfy and cuddled into Frank’s chest as he used my lap as a table and he was being careful on not to drop any food on me and we spent the night watching films and us just passing out of on the sofa.

Notes

Really don’t like this chapter but it’s been awhile since I last updated so anything better than nothing

Comments

Please don't doubt your writing. The characters draw you in & you want to stay for the ride! I know anyone who writes is critical of their own work (I am ;-), but the beauty is in allowing the creative process to flow.

I caught up on all 29 chapters in just 2 days. My poor Gee. Frank is so real, hot-headed, caring & loving - love it.

Morgawse Morgawse
3/5/18

Loving this!
Poor Gee, That bastard really did a number on him, messed him up good. I hope Frank can help him to recover and take control of himself again.
xxx

I will tell you what I tell every writer who puts down their own smut...ALL SMUT IS GOOD SMUT!!
Loving this!
xxx

this isn't shit at all! love it<3

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11/20/17

Poor gee:( love all The fluff tho;)

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11/11/17