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Bulletproof Heart

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Frank’s POV

Gerard was allowed to go home after a week of being in hospital and we was taking it easy in the caravan when someone knocked on the door.
“I’ve got it.” Gerard said as he got out of bed and he pulled some pants on and one of my jumpers and he walked over to the door.
“Hey Esme. Yeah he’s in do you want me to leave?” I heard Gerard say but couldn’t hear Esme until I heard her walk in the caravan which was my cue to quickly find some pants and put them on before Esme saw me naked which was something I didn’t want.
“No, I need someone to keep him calm. You seem to be the only person who can do that.” Esme said which made me frown.
“Let’s me see if he’s got clothes on or not and then you can come through to the bedroom. Make yourself at home.” Gerard said and he walked into the bedroom.
“Good you have pants on.” Gerard said and I frowned at him.
“Gee what’s going on?” I asked and Gerard smiled at me.
“You know when I was in hospital I said something to Esme and you wanted to know but I told you that when she figures it out she’ll talk to you.” Gerard said and I nodded still confused.
“Well Esme is going to tell you something. But you have to promise me you won’t blow up about it.” Gerard said and I looked at him.
“You know?” I asked and Gerard sighed but he nodded.
“Yes, I’ve known for the last 2 weeks. Esme had me promise that I wouldn’t tell anyone.” Gerard said and I nodded completely understanding.
“Okay I’ll forgive you.” I said and I caught hold of Gerard hips and gently pulled him towards me and Gerard wrapped his arms round my neck.
“Christ it’s too early guys.” Esme said and Gerard chuckled and he kissed me and he sat on the bed and got himself comfy.
“Come make yourself comfy.” Gerard said to Esme and she gingerly walked over and sat on the bed and I just jumped on the bed and rested my head on Gerard’s lap and he started to mess with my hair.

“So I have something to tell you.” Esme said and I looked at her.
“Oh shit your pregnant.” I said and Esme chuckled and shook her head.
“No, although being pregnant could probably be easier than what I have to tell you.” Esme said quietly.
“Okay, you are going to promise me you won’t lose your shit and that you don’t blame Gee for not telling you. I only told him because he’s the only level headed one out off you boys. He also understands as well.” Esme said.
“Hey I can be level headed.” I said and looked at Gerard who raised a eyebrow at me and I looked at Esme who had the same expression on her face.
“Okay yes I might not be the most level headed one then.” I said and Gerard chuckled and lent over and kissed me which I returned.
“Okay So spill the beans then.” I said as I sat up and sat between Gerard’s legs.
“So the girl who beat me up did it because she thinks I had sex with her boyfriend.” Esme said and she looked down and messed with her hands which I knew whatever she had to say next wasn’t going to be easy for her as Gerard does it when he talks about something which makes him uneasy.
“Please don’t hate me.” Esme sniffed and she looked at me and she was crying.
“Hey, I couldn’t hate you, You are family and family sticks together through everything.” I said as I moved and pulled Esme into my side and kissed the top of her head and I looked at Gerard.
“I can’t say Gee.” Esme sobbed and Gerard moved and knelt in front of her which made Esme look at him.
“You can say it. I know you can and once you say it, it will feel like the weight of the world has come off your shoulders, you have the best family ever and they will support you through everything and you can always talk to me and I will always understand because I have felt and still feel the same as you do now.” Gerard said softly and Esme shook her head.
“I can’t say the word, I feel dirty just by thinking of the word.” Esme sniffed.
“You can do this Esme. Trust me you’ll only have to tell Frank and he’ll tell everyone else when he flys of the handle.” Gerard said and Esme chuckled which made Gerard smile and he looked at me with a smile and he wobbled a little and he wrapped his arm round my leg to keep his balance.
“I’ll even hold your hand if you want.” Gerard said softly as he offered Esme his hand which she took.
“You can do it.” Gerard whispered and Esme sniffed and nodded her head and took a deep breath.
“The girl who beat me up, he boyfriend raped me.” Esme said quietly and I looked at her completely shocked by this.

“The fuck?” I said seriously as I gently pushed her away from me and stood up which made Gerard fall and land on his ass.
“Frank, you promised not to kick off.” Gerard said as he stood up.
“Kick off? Pfft fuck that Gee that bastard raped my baby sister! How can I not kick off about this? The bastard did that to her and then his bitch of a girlfriend to beat her up all because he told her some bullshit story about Esme!” I said loudly and Esme sort of flinched away as I never lose my cool around her but Gerard was completely used to it now.
“I know Frank, I know you are angry right now. But you need to keep a lid on it and be there for Esme because she needs her family right now.” Gerard said softly.
I looked at Esme who was crying.
“Esme doesn’t need to see you like this. Be the big brother I know you are.” Gerard said and he caught hold of my hand.
“Esme needs you. I’ll go out and sort some stuff out.” Gerard said.
“You don’t have to leave.” Esme sniffed as she looked at us.
“I will because you need to talk to Frank.” Gerard said.
“Stay please stay.” Esme begged Gerard and Gerard looked at me as he let go off my hand and walked over to Esme.
“If you can talk to anyone about this then you can talk to Frank. He understands as he had to put up with me. But he will understand and listen to you and he will give you advice and he will probably tell you shit about me. You don’t need me here any more. You’ve done the brave thing and told us now the next hurdle is to talk about it and then you can focus on getting over it. Honestly you couldn’t of asked for a better person to listen to and have a good cry on.” Gerard said as he looked at me and I smiled at him.
“You’ve got this.” Gerard whispered and he kissed the top of Esme head and he got up and walked over to me.
“Don’t go kicking off, this isn’t her fault.” Gerard said quietly.
“Can’t promise nothing.” I said and Gerard frowned at me.
“You will promise me mister.” Gerard said and I looked at Esme and sighed.
“Fine, I won’t kick off.” I sighed and Gerard smiled and kissed me which I returned and he went over and pulled some sweats and shoes on.
“I have my phone on me so text me when your done.” Gerard said as he picked his art book and his pencils up and stuffed them in his bag.
“Don’t be doing nothing stupid.” I said seriously.
“I won’t.” Gerard said and kissed me and he kissed the top of Esme head and walked out the caravan.
I sighed and sat down next to Esme.

“When did it happen?” I asked quietly.
“A week before I got beaten up.” Esme whispered.
“Have you taken a test to make sure your not pregnant?” I asked and looked at Esme who shook her head.
“You should take one, just Incase he got you pregnant.” I said.
“What do I do if I am?” Esme asked sound like she could cry.
“You either keep it or get rid of it. But the choice is yours at the end of the day, it’s always your choice.” I said and I pulled her to my side.
“I feel so dirty Frank.” Esme said quietly.
“I know you do. I know because Gerard is exactly the same. There’s days where he can cope with just having a shower in the morning and then there’s other days when he showers at least 5 times a day and he scrub himself raw sometimes.” I said and Esme sighed loudly.
“Gee also says that he can still feel his hands over his body. There’s days when I can’t touch him without him telling me to fuck off or he calls me Eric on really bad days but that’s normally when his PTSD has kicked in.” I said.
“I keep on feeling him putting himself in me. The way he pulled my arm round to my behind my back and he held it there until he was finished.” Esme sniffed.
“It’s horrible, if this is what Gerard has to put up with everyday then I really do take my hat off to him.” Esme said and I smiled.
“There is so much Gee doesn’t talk about. It’s like he has some stuff he doesn’t want to talk about and I understand that completely it’s his choice if he talks about everything.” I said.
“What is it like from your point of view. Dating someone who had been through what Gee has been through.” Esme said as she moved from my side.
“It’s like dating a normal person but Gee has that twist to him. A twist which I love. When you love someone you learn that their problems become your problem, they have your back and you got theirs. Yeah it’s hard sometimes especially when he has a PTSD nightmare and he goes into a panic attack and is unable to calm down for the rest of the night and I am literally functioning on less than 2 hours sleep. But I love the crazy son of a bitch so I suck it up and stand by him.” I said and Esme looked at me and smiled.
“You need to tell Mam and pa about this.” I said and Esme sighed.
“But they will kill me.” Esme said.
“You will have me and Gee right beside you. Gee can explain what could be happen and he will support you every step of the way. I’m here if you just need a chat.” I said and Esme smiled.
“Jamie and Fred are going to kill him.” Esme said.
“Fucking let them. I would join them too. The little prick will get what’s coming.” I said and Esme chuckled.
“And I would have to kill you if you did.” A voice said and I looked up and saw Gerard leaning against the door way.
“But babe.” I whined and Esme chuckled as Gerard walked over and sat on my lap and kissed me.
“But babe no.” Gerard said and I pouted at him.
“I’m going to leave you two too it. But thanks for today, it means a lot.” Esme said as she got up and she walked out the caravan.

I rolled me and Gerard onto the bed and I lead on top of Gerard.
“Your freezing, where have you been?” I asked and Gerard smiled.
“I went and got coffee with Mikes, before you say anything it was minus the boyfriend. We was sat outside for ages until got dark and then Mikes lover boy came to take Mikes back to mums and I came home.” Gerard said and I frowned.
“Wait, is Mikes moving here then?” I asked and Gerard chuckled.
“No, he’s just here until the end of the week and then their going home as posh boy has to go back to his parents for Christmas.” Gerard said and I smiled and I lent down and kissed him.
“How has Esme been?” Gerard asked as he rolled us over so he was now sat on me.
“She was good, we talked and I didn’t lose my cool.” I said and Gerard chuckled and kissed me as he grind himself on me.
I moved my hands onto his ass and pulled him closer to me.
“Do you want me to help you warm up?” I asked as I rolled Gerard under me.
“I like where this is heading.” Gerard said as his hand went under my top and he ran his finger nails up and down my back which made me buck my hips down on Gerard.

Gerard smiled up at me and I linked my hands with his and we just made out until clothes was coming off.

Notes

Comments

Please don't doubt your writing. The characters draw you in & you want to stay for the ride! I know anyone who writes is critical of their own work (I am ;-), but the beauty is in allowing the creative process to flow.

I caught up on all 29 chapters in just 2 days. My poor Gee. Frank is so real, hot-headed, caring & loving - love it.

Morgawse Morgawse
3/5/18

Loving this!
Poor Gee, That bastard really did a number on him, messed him up good. I hope Frank can help him to recover and take control of himself again.
xxx

I will tell you what I tell every writer who puts down their own smut...ALL SMUT IS GOOD SMUT!!
Loving this!
xxx

this isn't shit at all! love it<3

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11/20/17

Poor gee:( love all The fluff tho;)

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11/11/17