Bulletproof Heart

Frank’s POV

”You know, if we’re gonna welcome him into the family at least we have to do it the right way.” Jamie said as we both sat outside the caravan since Gerard was still flat out asleep.
”Have you seen him? I think throwing a welcome to the family party our way would give him a fucking heart attack and he would die.” I said and Jamie chuckled.
”Fine, it’s my birthday today and Mam and pa said I could have a party and everyone is invited, even the shy boy.” Jamie said.
”Okay aren’t you a little old to have a party? Like you are 21, shouldn’t you be doing something? Also his name is Gerard please call him that.” I said.
”I can now rub it in your sorry short ass face that I am now legal to drink everywhere in the world.” Jamie said and I looked at him.
”Guess Who is going to be buying my alcohol and cigarettes from now on.” I said and Jamie started to roll a joint for us to share.
”Fuck off, it’s bad enough I have to share my weed with you.” Jamie said.
”It’s like once in a blue moon I ask you for weed. Freddie on the other hand is the bugger.” I said and Jamie handed me the joint to start it off.
”You think mam will find out he smokes and drinks tonight then?” Jamie asked.
”Yep, but Esme drinks as well.” I said and passed Jamie the joint.
“But not like Fred.” Jamie said and the caravan door opened and Gerard was stood there in my hoodie and pants on and serious bed hair.

”What up Babe?” I asked and Gerard walked over and sat on my lap.
”You weren’t in bed.” Gerard said quietly.
”Well this fucker woke me up to say it is his birthday.” I said and Gerard looked at Jamie.
”Happy birthday.” Gerard said shyly which made Jamie smile.
”Thanks Gerard.” Jamie said.
”Go and put some bottoms on because your legs will freeze and you’ll get ill.” I said and Gerard shook his head and moved more onto my lap.
”I don’t think Jamie wants to see your balls or dick.” I said and Gerard sighed loudly and he got off me and walked towards the caravan and he went inside.
“He’s so timid Frank, how the fuck are you getting what you want?” Jamie said and he looked at me.
”Shit you’re not getting any are you?” Jamie said and I groaned as I sat forward and took the joint from Jamie and started to smoke it.
”He has been through a lot and I’m trying to take it at his pace but fuck there’s only so much blue balls I can take. I’m not blaming Gee in the slightest because it isn’t his fault.” I said.
”I’ve noticed the scars on his hands, face and legs. What the fuck happened to him?” Jamie asked.
”The unthinkable.” I said quietly and Gerard came back out with my trackies on and I watched him as he walked over and instead of sitting on me he sat on the floor between my legs and took the joint from me.
“Bit early to be getting high?” Gerard said as he rested his head on my knee as I messed with his hair.
”It’s never too early to be high.” Jamie said as he stood up and walked off somewhere.
Gerard finished the joint and he stood up and looked at me and he looked upset.
”Babe What’s the matter?” I asked as I stood up.
”Would you cheat on me if you don’t get sex soon.” Gerard asked and I frowned at him.
”I might have massive blue balls right now but I wouldn’t cheat on you.” I said and Gerard looked down.
”You’re better off without me.” Gerard said quietly and he walked off.
”Babe.” I said after him.
”Gee.” I said a bit louder but Gerard ignored me.
I walked after him but Gerard managed to sneak off somewhere and I looked him.
”Fuck.” I said as I looked round starting to panic and I ran over to Jamie’s.

”Jamie have you seen Gee.” I panted since I ran over to his.
”No I haven’t seen him, have you lost him Jesus Frank what have I told you.” Jamie said taking this as a joke like normal.
”Jamie this isn’t a joke, he asked me if I would cheat on him and I said despite my blue balls I wouldn’t cheat on him and then he said I was better off without him and now I can’t find him.” I said quickly.
”Chill Frank, have a joint.” Jamie said and offered me a joint which I slapped out of his hand.
”I can’t fucking chill when my boyfriend has gone fucking missing! You have no idea what he could be doing right now, fuck he could even be dead right now Jamie and I won’t know because he hasn’t got his phone and I don’t know where he has gone!” I said loudly feeling really frustrated.
”Frank you need to calm down..” Jamie started before I stopped him.
”Stop telling me to fucking calm down will you! Gerard has PTSD and he isn’t in the best mind set right now and after him telling me I was better off without him is bringing up these little flags saying he could be hurting himself!” I shouted and Jamie pulled me into his chest and he hugged me which was rare for Jamie to do something like this.
”You do need to calm down Okay, Gerard won’t do nothing because he loves you and you can see that he loves you.” Jamie said and I let him go.
”Gerard is going to be okay. He probably just went for a walk to clear his head.” Jamie said and I nodded.
”He’s a nice lad okay, he’s going to fit in to this crazy family just fine once he settles down and wraps his head around stuff.” Jamie said and I smiled and nodded.
”I hope so.” I whispered and went off looking for Gerard which didn’t have much luck so I went back to the site and helped everyone sort stuff out for Jamie’s party.

It was getting dark and Gerard still hasn’t come back and I was getting really worried.
”Jam I’m getting really worried now.” I said using my nickname for Jamie.
”I don’t know why because there he is.” Jamie said and I turned round and saw Gerard walking back to the site but he was looking over his shoulder and he looked scared.
He walked straight past me but I caught hold of his hand which made Gerard squeak in surprise and he looked at me and I could see how scared he was.
”Baby what’s the matter?” I asked softly and Gerard looked down shaking his head.
”Baby talk to me, what happened?” I asked and Gerard looked round and there was a load of us gathering round getting ready to bash someone’s head in.
”Someone was following me, another person punched me and ran off.” Gerard said quietly and I gently lifted his face up and saw a bruise on his cheek.
”Do you know what he looked like?” Pa asked and Gerard shook his head and he looked at me.
”It something to do with that bastard?” I asked quietly and Gerard nodded.
”It’s going to be okay baby.” I whispered and pulled Gerard into a hug.
“Go back to the caravan and I’ll be back in a minute to help you.” I said and Gerard nodded and I watched him go back to the caravan.
”You Okay Frank?” Pa asked and I nodded.
”I just want to kill the bastard but I don’t know what what they looked like.” I said.
”Have seen some gorger standing by the sit and looking in, Well he was more like scanning the place, then Esme told him to fuck off and not come back.” Freddie said and I looked at him.
”What did he look like?” Pa asked.
”He was strange looking fucker, like he had a face that looked like he could kill you and he had a scar down his left cheek.” Freddie said.
”Fat, skinny, well built details Fred.” Mam said and we looked at her.
”The man was on the site the other day, he noticed Gerard and he went to make a b-line for him and Frank showed up and he backed off and left.” Mam said.
“We’ll talk about this later right now I need to see if Gee is okay.” I said and walked to the caravan and went inside.

”Babe?” I said softly and I heard Gerard sniff from the bedroom so I wondered to the bedroom and found Gerard on my side of the bed hugging my pillow and crying.
”Baby dont cry.” I cooed as I climbed onto the bed and cuddled Gerard’s back and I kissed his cheek.
”I’m not safe anywhere and I can’t get away from him.” Gerard sobbed.
”You’ll be safe here, your family now and we look after family, we’ll get the bastards who did this Gee. I promise you we’ll get him.” I said and Gerard nodded and he rolled over to face me.
”Promise?” Gerard whispered and I linked my little finger with his and I kissed the end of his nose.
”I promise.” I said quietly and Gerard hid his face in my chest.
”How about you have a nap and we can go to Jamie’s party after you wake up and sort yourself out.” I said and Gerard shook his head.
”You can go but I’m staying here.” Gerard said quietly.
“I’m not going without you.” I said and Gerard looked at me.
”I can’t have you missing your brothers birthday.” Gerard sniffed.
”Jamie will understand, anyway his own girlfriend isn’t here so missing me won’t be too much, everyone is going to be really drunk or high, possibly both to even notice us not being there.” I said and Gerard nodded and I messed with his hair.
”I’m going to get a drink, would you like one?” I said and Gerard shook his head.
”No, I just want to sleep.” Gerard whispered.
”Okay, I’ll be back in a second.” I said quietly and Gerard nodded as I took my top off and put it beside Gerard where he gingerly pulled it towards him and he hid his face and I went to get myself a beer.
“You and Gerard joining?” Jamie asked.
”Gee needs to calm down. Hopefully I can get him to join us, but I don’t know.” I said and got a beer.
”Who would want to hurt him? He’s like a really timid lamb or something.” Jamie said.
”Gerard’s ex was a bastard to him and even behind bars he’s still making Gerard’s life hell. I don’t know what to do Jam, I want to help and protect him but he’s shutting me out.” I said and Jamie pulled me into a hug which I returned.
”We’re going to get this son of a bitch. Nobody is going to hurt you or Gee.” Jamie said and I smiled.
”Thanks Jam, right you go and enjoy yourself okay and I’ll be out and hopefully with Gee as well.” I said and Jamie nodded.
I went back to the caravan and I found Gerard asleep on my side of the bed and I quietly climbed onto the bed where Gerard rolled over and was cuddled into my chest which made me smile and I messed with his hair.

Notes

Shit update