Bulletproof Heart

Gerard’s POV

It was the weekend and I was woken up by Frank shuffling round the bedroom and muttering to himself.
”Babe?” I said quietly as I sat up in bed taking my top off because I was really hot after being cuddled up to Frank all night and Frank looked up and smiled at me which I returned as I lead back down.
”What you doing up?” Frank asked as he crawled over to me and rolled onto his side and I did the same and smiled shyly at Frank where he kissed the end of my nose.
”I was really hot and I heard you shuffling around the room.” I said quietly.
”I have to go and help pa round the house and with the horses, now you can join us or you can stay in bed and catch up on some much needed sleep and have some down time to yourself.” Frank said and I smiled and nodded.
”That would be really nice right now.” I whispered and yawned which made Frank chuckle.
“Okay then, here’s a hoodie which smells of me so you won’t feel that lonely hopefully, I have my phone on me if you need me. Have a good rest and I’ll see you later on.” Frank said and gave me this hoodie which I cuddled and I got myself comfy again.
”Love you Gee.” Frank said quietly.
”Love you too Frankie.” I mumbled back and feel asleep.

I woke up and heard someone in the caravan which made me sit up and get hold of the baseball bat Frank had on his side of the bed and got out of bed and walked to the living area and was about to swing the bat when they turned round and I saw it was Frank.
“What you doing with the bat babe?” Frank asked as I lowered the bat down to my side.
”I thought you was a intruder.” I said quietly and Frank caught hold of my hand and I looked at him.
”Well I’m glad you used your head and grabbed the bat as for nearly bashing me in the head, now that wouldn’t be good.” Frank said and I smiled slightly.
“What you doing here anyway?” I asked and looked at Frank.
”I came to make sure you was still alive and that I needed something to eat as I’m starving right now. You hungry babe?” Frank said and I shrugged my shoulders.
”Go and get yourself dressed and I’m taking us out to get something to eat.” Frank said and I groaned and turned round and Frank wrapped his arms round my waist which made me smile.
”Make yourself look beautiful.” Frank whispered and kissed my cheek Amd he let me go and I turned round and looked at him in his dirty trackies and arms covered in either mud or oil or knowing Frank it would probably be both.
”What?” Frank asked.
”Your filthy, get in the shower otherwise I’m not going to get something to eat with you.” I said and Frank pouted at me.
”But babe, I’ll be going back to help pa after eating with you.” Frank said.
”Well maybe you shouldn’t of gotten so dirty then.” I said and went to walk off but Frank caught hold of my hand and spun me round so I crashed into his chest.
“But I can’t help it and anyway the tattoos hide the arm filth.” Frank said and I frowned at him.
”I’m not going to win this am I?” Frank said and I smiled and kissed him.
”No your not I’m glad you realized that so quickly.” I said and kissed Frank again and he let me go and playfully slapped my ass which made me glare at him while Frank had this playful smile on his face.
”Go and have a shower because you are filthy and you stink as well.” I said and went to mine and Frank’s room and looked at the mess it was in and made a mental note to myself that I needed to clean and go and wash the mountain of clothes which was overflowing the wash basket.
”Babe!” Frank said from the bathroom and I sighed and stood up and we went to the bathroom.
”What?” I asked as I stood with the door wide open.
”I need a towel and we need to get some shampoo and shower gel while we’re out.” Frank said with his back to me and I just stared at his ass.
“And your telling me this because?” I asked.
“Because I need a towel and also you have better memory than me.” Frank said and I rolled my eyes at him and walked to the bedroom and picked my towel up and went to bathroom and put it by the shower.
”Anything else?” I asked and Frank turned round and grabbed my face a kissed me which I returned.
”Hurry up will you.” I said and went to get dressed and wait for Frank to get out the shower and get dressed.

We got back from what Frank called a date and while he went back to help his dad out I went round and cleaned the caravan up and spotted that there was no washing machine so I called Frank up.
”Hey Babe.” Frank said and it made me smile.
”Hey Frankie.” I said quietly.
”What’s the matter?” Frank asked seriously.
”I’m fine honestly but we have a mountain of clothes that need to be washed and we have no washing machine in the caravan so I was wondering how the hell I am meant to wash the clothes.” I said and Frank chuckled.
”If you knock on the door mam should answer the door and she’ll let you use the washing machine.” Frank said and I sighed loudly.
”What’s wrong.” Frank asked and I frowned.
”It’s nothing.” I said quietly.
”Baby remember the last time you said that, tell me what’s wrong.” Frank said.
”Honestly I’m fine just thinking that’s all.” I said.
”Well that’s dangerous.” Frank said.
”Fuck you, anyway can’t be anymore dangerous than yours so I’ll leave you alone and get on with your work.“ I said.
”Baby all you have to do is ask and I’ll fuck you.” Frank said and I could hear the smirk on on his face.
”I’ll bare that in mind. Now go to work and I’ll see you later and I love you.” I said.
”Laters Baby.” Frank said and hung up and for some reason it got me smiling badly and I went to knock on Frank’s mothers door and ask if I could use the washing machine.

I had finished cleaning the caravan and went back into the house to collect mine and Frank’s washing and Frank Mum was in the kitchen folding our clothes.
”You didn’t have to do that, I can manage folding clothes.” I said and Frank’s Mum chuckled.
”I like to keep myself busy especially when all the kids are with Patty, stops me thinking what could go wrong.” Frank’s mum said and I couldn’t help but chuckle.
Franks Mum looked up and looked at me which made me uncomfortable and look down.
”Sweetie you shouldn’t be uncomfortable showing that pretty face of yours.” Frank’s Mum said and I looked at her confused.
”Frank said you have PTSD. What does that mean?” Frank’s Mum said as I stepped over and helped with folding the clothes.
”It means I have Post traumatic stress disorder.” I said quietly.
”What sets it off?” Frank’s Mum asked and I looked at her.
”You don’t have to tell me, but since you’re now family it would be nice to get to know you.” Frank’s Mum said and I sighed.
“I was basically kidnapped and tortured and I had to go back to court to see what would happen to the person who did that to me and it has set of a load of flashbacks and that so it has pretty much fucked my life up. There’s more to it but I don’t really want to say.” I said quietly and Frank’s Mum gently put her hand on top of mine.
“I can see you’ve been through hell. But don’t let it ruin your life, I see how happy my Franklin has made you and he’ll help you get over this and he will love you no matter what you throw at him. He gets very defensive when he finds someone he really likes.” Frank’s Mum said and I couldn’t help but smile.
”Gee you in Here?” I heard Frank say as I heard his footsteps through the house.
”I’m here Frank, don’t worry.” I said loud enough for Frank to hear me and he walked to the kitchen when he saw me with his mum and he smiled.
”You need to stop hoarding you dirty washing up, it’s literally taken me all afternoon to do just your washing.” I said and threw a pair of socks at Frank which he caught.
“Got yourself a keeper here Frank.” Frank’s Mum said and Frank pulled me to his side and I looked at him and smiled.
“Planning I’m keeping him.” Frank said and looked at me which made me blush slightly as I went to put the washing in the basket and I went to pick it up but Frank picked it up for me.
“You don’t have to do that.” I said and Frank smiled.
”Well you did clean the caravan so I’ll sort this lot when we go.” Frank said and I smile don’t at him.
”Bloody hell Gerard can definitely stay if he can clean that mess you created and actually having you put your washing away as well.” Frank Mum said and I chuckled quietly.
”We need to get going.” Frank said and I looked at him confused.
”Not saying nothing.” Frank said and he walked round to his mum and kissed her cheek and we walked back to the caravan.

”What’s going on?” I asked as I followed Frank to the bedroom.
”I just wanted to get you to myself.” Frank said as he started to walk over to me and the red flags started to wave in my head and I backed away from Frank.
”That’s not what I’m meaning babe, I just want to lie in bed and have cuddles and watch films.” Frank said softly and I looked at him.
”I’m sorry I thought like that, Eric used to say things like that before he would do something to me so now I think everyone is going to hurt me when I hear those words.” I said quietly and Frank caught hold of my hand and gently pulled me to the bed where he sat down and had me stood between his legs with his hands on my hips
I had taken Frank’s hoodie off since Frank likes to have the caravan really hot.
”You trust me enough for me to touch all your scars?” Frank asked and looked at me.
“I don’t know.” I whispered.
“You don’t know if you can trust me?” Frank asked sounding hurt as his hands moved from my hips but I put my hand on top of his to stop him moving them and once he got the message I removed my hands.
”I trust you, but these scars make me feel like if anyone was to touch them it would hurt me. That people are going to be asking questions if I did it to myself or if someone did this to me.” I said and Frank looked at me and he kissed one of the big scars on my stomach which made me tense up really badly.
Frank looked up and pulled me onto his lap.
”You need to relax, I am not going to hurt in anyway. I won’t do nothing you don’t want me to do, hell I won’t even slap your ass if you don’t want me to.” Frank said.
”I don’t mind my ass being slapped.” I said quietly and Frank smiled.
”All What we Do will be at your pace.” Frank said and I nodded.
”Could I give you a hickey somewhere?” Frank asked and I looked at him and frowned at Frank.
”You did, on my neck before I met your family.” I said and felt my neck as Frank smirked at me.
”Okay, But I want to do this.” Frank said as he stood up with me and he turned round and gently lead me down on the bed and he hovered above me.
”You can tell me when to stop and I’ll stop, if you want a safe word then you can.” Frank said Amd I just nodded not knowing wasp what to say.
”Talk to me baby, this is how this works.” Frank said softly as his hands started to roam around my body but I couldn’t say anything because it was bringing up red flags but also it felt so nice just to be touched by someone and somewhat know they aren’t going to hurt me.
”Okay we’ll do colors. Green meaning your okay with what I’m doing, Orange meaning your uncomfortable with what I’m doing, red meaning your are not okay with what I’m doing and you want me to stop.” Frank said and I looked at him.
”Why you doing this? Why haven’t you ran a mile by now?” I asked and Frank kissed my chest where there was no scars, what was a very little amount of space.
”Because I want you to learn how to trust me and know that I’m not going to hurt you. If you was someone I didn’t love then yes I would of ran a mile by now and never look back.” Frank said and that hurt for some reason and I looked down but Frank made me look at him.
”But I do love you, and I would never dream on running away from you knowing that you need me.” Frank said quietly and kissed me which I returned and Frank gently cupped my face and deepened the kiss which I allowed because I wanted to try and move forward in my life and be everything Frank wants me to be as a boyfriend.
Frank pulled back for air and looked at me and he gently ran his thumb over the scar which was forming on my cheek.
”You’re gorgeous, can’t believe someone would want to hurt you like they did.” Frank said quietly.
”But they did.” I whispered.
”Well I get to fix all the broken pieces he left you with.” Frank whispered and kissed me again.
I felt brave so I deepened the kiss and Frank caught on and I felt his tounge on my bottom lip which I allowed and soon We was making out.

”How do you feel?” Frank asked as he looked at me as I walked from the bedroom after going to the bathroom after having a shower.
”I feel okay.” I said quietly and Frank sat up and he got hold of the towel round my waist and gently pulled me towards him and he unwrap the towel so I was stood in front of him naked and feeling vulnerable.
”You’re gorgeous.” Frank said quietly as he kissed beside my hip.
”You Okay? What color?” Frank asked.
”I guess I’m okay but I’m at an orange.” I said quietly and looked away from Frank feeling embarrassed that I can’t do anything to Frank.
”Baby Why you crying?” Frank asked and he got hold of a top and he put it on me Amd gently pulled me onto the bed and pulled the covers over me as Frank was still dressed.
”I feel like I can’t do nothing for you, and because of that you’re going to leave me or cheat on me and then I’ll have no one to stop these thoughts in my head and I would just be better off dead.” I sobbed and Frank pulled me to his side and kissed the top of my head.
”You are doing something for me, you are literally teaching me that I can’t rush into wanting sex all the time, that maybe the people I’ve been with in the past might not of wanted to go at the pace I was going in our relationship. I wouldn’t do anything to fuck this relationship up.” Frank said and made me look at him and he kissed me.
I rested my head on his shoulder and kissed it.
”Shell we find a film to watch and watch a film?” Frank asked and I nodded and moved so frank could get changed and find something to watch.
”I love you Okay. Don’t forget that.” Frank said and kissed me and he got off the bed and I just watched him as he got undressed and find a film and when he got back into bed I cuddled up to him a d we watched a fiom

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