It was dark, Not the type of dark that like everywhere is black you cant see... But just like... Dark... and eerie... "Nobody could ever love you, Retard." He heard from somewhere in the space he was in. Soon Bob emerged from the shadows, looking venomous.

"You really think at one point I ever loved you" He laughed, Gerard looked down "i th-th-tho-thoug-thought" "THOUGHT FUCKING WHAT? I ONLY LIKED HOW I COULD TREAT YOU LIKE SHITE AND YOU'D FORGIVE ME EVERYTIME" Tears rose in Gerard's eyes "Frank never loved you either" Bob seethed "Th-tha-tha-thats no-no-not tr-tru-true" Gerard stuttered "Oh, Bu-Bu-But i-i-it is tr-tr-tru-true" Frank hissed, Mocking Gerard's stutter. His face grew hot and tears fell down his cheeks. "Fuck I hate it when you talk, all you do is stu-stut-stutter" The tears finally fell from Gerard's eyes. He knew he was unlovable.

Once again, Waking up in Franks' arms only lead to panic on Gerard's end.

This time he wasn't so calm about it. He jumped up and off the bed. Panic swarming his head. Partly because Frank could potentially get mad, and Partly because of the nightmare he had just had.

"Gee?" Frank mumbled "I'm cold where'd you go" Gerard sniffled, not answering in fear of stuttering and making frank mad... It was then that Gerard realized it was only 4 in the morning. Cursing lewdly at himself he let out a slight sob "Gerard?!" Frank questioned as he sat up "Gerard whats wrong, come here" Frank pulled his best friend into his arms "Gee, What happened" Frank was slightly panicked "Ni-Night-" Gerard's sobbed at the sound of himself stuttering "Ni-Ni-... Fu-fuck" He whined, gripping Franks shirt for dear life... "Night-mares? Gee?" Gerard took a shaky breath

"mhm..."

"About what?"

"B-Bo-B-B" He squeezed his eyes shut and sobbed "Gerard, Baby what? What has you so scared? I haven't seen you like this in a while." Frank was growing more concerned the more his Best friend stuttered and freaked out, however, Gerard completely ignored the fact Frank called him 'baby'

"Just steady yourself, Don't rush it, I'm not mad, No one is mad, you're safe. Take a moment to compose yourself, Gee"

He took a breath and nodded, closing his eyes he spoke.

"Y-You an-and B-...bob S-sa-said. Said that neith-er of y-ou lo-ved me" Frank swallowed hard, so much hate towards Bob for making Gerard feel so weak.

"Fuck that.' Frank snapped "Gerard, Fuck that, Bob might not have loved you, But I do" Gerard nodded "I love you too" More than Frank would ever know...

"Do you think you can fall back asleep?" Frank questioned, To which Gerard nodded.
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The second time Gerard woke up he was oddly in such a good mood, but still felt a hint of distance. Mainly towards Frank, he couldn't let his Bestfriend know he was in love with him... Because fuck. Frank was beautiful...

"Morning Mikey! Wheres Frank?" Gerard asked bounding down the stairs "Well look whos in a good mood" Mikey commented. "O-Oh... SHould I not b-be?" his mood dropped quickly, Mikey's eyes widened "No, Nono Gee, Be happy, It's good, I haven't seen you this happy since before you and Bob got together" Mikey rushed out "Okay" Gerard was still slightly on edge now, but if Mikey says its okay, then its okay "S-soooo Frankie?" Gerard inquired "Oh! Went to get breakfast" Gerard nodded "Okie doke" He sauntered into the living room and sat down on the couch.

Mikey followed suit "You like him, don't you?" Mikey quizzed, Gerard, blushed "Um, Of course, Mike's, Hes my best friend, would be weird if I didnt" Gerard chuckled "No... I mean" He turned his brother to face him "You like him" Gerard swallowed thickly, "You say a word, I'll tell Pete you keep having wet dreams about him." Gerard retorted, causing Mikey's face to go red "Okay... Deal. Your safe"

"I'm back" Frank called, and Gerard's heart fluttered at the sound of his voice.

"Decided to try something new, Taco Bell breakfast" He announced, Gerard and Mikey hopped up and walked into the kitchen "I didn't know they had breakfast" Mikey commented, "Hey neither did I, First time for everything I suppose!" Frank cheered "I didn't know hungry you'd be, So I just got you one burrito there is another if you are still hungry though" Gerard nodded "okay, Thank you, Frankie!" Gerard said happily, Frank was taken aback by Gerard chipperness but brushed it off, he'd rather see him abnormally happy then scared of everyone's movements and stuttering, That just broke his heart.

It was around six pm now, Gerard had gone out to buy some things while Mikey and Frank talked

"It was that bad?" Mikey questioned, referring to what Frank had just told him about this morning "He couldn't talk straight for 5 minutes... I thought he was going to have a full break down like he did a few months back" Mikey grunted, "I personally want to fucking Kill Bob for fucking up my brother's mental state so badly." Frank nodded "I do too."

"What chyall talking about?" Gerard chirped as he walked out back where Frank and his brother sat talking "Not mu-" "Gerard why didn't you tell me your nightmares were back?" Mikey interrupted Franks comment, Gerard's face fell slightly "I didn't think it was too important" he giggled. Frank and Mikey were now confused "Gee, Are you okay?" Mikey asked standing up, Gerard giggled again "I'm fiinee" He slurred "Are you. Are you drunk?" Frank then asked, following Mikey's actions "Only lil bit" He swayed Mikey frowned, Gerard j shrugged the look off and sauntered back into the house, grabbing another beer form one of the four twenty-four packs he bought. "Gerard!" Frank gasped looking at the fridge that was filled with beer and two bottles of vodka "hmmm" He spun around with a smile on his face

"What are you doing?"

"Coping"

"Ever heard of talking?!" Frank whined slightly

"I can't talk bout things without stuttering" Gerard laughed "I stutter people get annoyed, they get annoyed and then they get mad, they get mad and I get hit. This... This is just better"

Frank and Mikey exchanged worried glances "Leets jus have a party!" Gerard half shouted... The two other boys didn't particularly like the thought of it but agreed anyway. Maybe letting lose will be good for everyone.


It was now about 11pm and since six Gerard had finished a whole 24 pack split a bottle of Vodka with some guy named Bert.

Gerard was swaying in the backyard listening to the music sipping on a full glass of whatever kind of mixed drink he was handed.

"Gerard?" Frank called from behind him "Hi Frankie" Gerard slurred leaning into his best friend "You are, so drink" Frank sighed "M'no... Not drunk enough" Gerard argued finishing off the cup and walking back into the house before taking three more shots.

"Gerard, I'm not about to spend another 17 hours in the hospital with you because you want to give yourself alcohol poisoning." Frank snapped, pulling Him away from the table "Please don't get mad, Frankie... I just want to forget... But I forget what I'm trying to forget"

"Lets just... Get you sober yeah?" Frank asked trying to pull him away from the table "Few more Fran*hick*Frank" Gerard reached for another shot when a sudden wave of nausea "Frank" Gerard groaned placing a hand on his stomach "Okay... Let's get you-" Gerard gaged and Frank knew there was no time getting him upstairs so he pushed his intoxicated friend back outside just in time for him to spew all over the deck.

Frank rubbed Gerard's back and people around were laughing and groaning

"Easy... Ok, Take it easy" Frank soothed as he rubbed Gerard back.

Eventually, the vomiting stopped and Frank was left with a swaying, giggling Gerard "Well fuck" He laughed, Frank nervously laughed long "Now that that's out of the way" He stood up and walked back into the kitchen, Mikey ways standing there now, Frank shot him a look and then looked at Gerard "Okay Gee. I think its time to stop" Gerard shook his head "Few moreee" He wined "Everyones heading out, It's nearly 3 in the morning" Gerard nodded and let Frank lead him up the stairs.

"Okay, That's it, buddy... Lay down" Frank ordered. "Don't leave" Gerard mumbled into the pillow "I wouldn't dream of it" Frank smiled and crawled in next to his best friend.

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The sun came through the window causing Gerard agonizing pain, "Fuck" He whispered pulling a pillow over his head and rolled onto his back, sudden movement causing a jolt to his stomach "Fuck!" He groaned stomach lurching "Gee?" Frank kept his voice low knowing Gerard would have a killer hangover "Yes. Frank?" Gerard questioned, just as quiet "I brought you a coffee and some Advil" Frank sat down beside his friend. "Curtain first" Frank nodded even though Gerard couldn't see it.

"There you go, Gee" He took the pillow off his face and looked around the basment he called a room. "Thank you" Gerard smiled, taking the pills and coffee from Frank.

"How bad was I last night?"

"Not to bad"

"I didn't puke on you, Did I?"

Frank laughed

"No, Not on me"

Gerard nodded "Thank god..."

"But... You did scare your brother and I... I mean. You drank a lot. Like a full twenty-four pack, 6 shots a mixed drink and half a bottle of vodka" Gerard smirked "Anything left?" Frank sighed "Another half of vodka, 12 beers and a full bottle of fireball" Gerard smiled wider "Gerard no, Okay no you had you let lose last night, I'm not letting this become a habit" Gerard chuckled at how worried Frank was " It's summer Frank. Partys every night, Let lose, Have fun! I won't let it become a habit"

"Thats not what you said lastnight" Frank mumbled "What?" Gerard sat up looking at Frank now "You said you were coping" Gerard nodded "Oh... Yeah..." Gerard wouldnt let it get as bad as Frank thinks it will. Will he?....

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