Sometimes, They Aren't Always Bad.

We spent the rest of the car ride with my arm in his lap and Mikey looking at us like we were crazy. Gerard had one hand on the wheel and one on my arm stroking it calmly. I was okay now but Gerard still had his hand on me, keeping me calm.

"Are you guys dating?" Mike asked out of the blue. We were very close to his house now but there was still a ways to go. There was no option but to answer the awkward question.

"I don't know Frankie. Are we?" Gerard asked teasingly. He looked at me with a smirk on his face before turning his attention back to the road.

"Uh..." I didn't want to say yes but I definitely didn't want to say no. Mikey looked at me expectantly awaiting my answer.

"I'm just messing with you. No, we are not dating Mikey." Gerard explained, chuckling as he spoke.

" Then why are you touching him like that. It's all lovey dovey and stuff." Mikey said fiddling with his fingers as he watched Gerard stroke my arm. The blood had stopped pretty quickly and the napkin was thrown back into the glove compartment. A thin scab took the place of the old one. Gerard took extra time rubbing those ones, making sure I was okay.

"Because I want to," Gerard said shrugging his shoulders. "Got a problem with it Mikes?" He challenged, cocking and eyebrow at Mikey in the rearview mirror.

"No. It's cool." Mikey said crossing his arms over his chest, smiling.

"What about you Frankie? Got a problem with it?" Gerard asked taking his hand away from my arm, holding it a inch away just to tease me

"No.." I said a little too urgent, shaking my head wildly. Gerard snickered and shook his head.

"So it's settled then." Gerard said pulling into the driveway of his house. Even though I loved the car and the driver in it I was eager to get out of the car. Gerard kept stroking my arm while Mikey got out of the car, shooting us a playful squint and a smile.

"Are you alright Frankie?" Gerard asked seriously.

"U-uh yeah. Why?" I asked looking down at the arm that he was holding. He was looking at scratches intently and if you didn't know Gerard at least a little you would think that he was going to slit my arm open and drink my blood.

"You hurt yourself when you're nervous. Why?" He asked trying to meet my gaze. I wasn't going to tell him that it was because my mom and dad never cared enough to tell me to stop.

"Just a habit I guess." I said shrugging my shoulders.

"Frankie you can't hurt yourself. Tell me why." Gerard demanded gripping into my arm with both hands.

"It's just a habit, Gerard. I promise." I said in a convincing tone.

"I don't want you to do it anymore. Just if you feel like doing it hold my hand." Gerard said emphasizing his point by putting his hand out, palm up. He looked between me and his hand expectantly. I tentatively grabbed his hand and intertwined our fingers. There was no denying that they were longer, slimmer, and had more veins than mine but they looked right to together.

"O-okay." I said shivering at the feeling of his cold hands against mine. I couldn't help but think of what they would feel like on the rest of my body.

'Stop!' I yelled at myself in my head. 'You just met him!' I know that I just met him but I really couldn't help the thoughts coming into my head. Why did I let Bob dare me into watching gay porn? Just. Why?

"What are you thinking about Frankie?" Gerard asked in a concerned tone.

'You I was just thinking about having sex with you, Gerard!' I said sarcastically in my head.

"Just Bert and school tomorrow. I really don't want to see him again Gerard." I practically whined to him. My fingers itched to scratch the red spot on my forearm and Gerard must have felt it because he squeezed my hand and rubbed my forearm.

"You can come with me to school tomorrow. I'll pick you up and Bert knows not to challenge me. Yes, people will find it weird but I will take the criticism to protect you Frank." Gerard offered drawing a pattern on my forearm with the soft pads of his finger tips.

"Okay." I said nodding. I looked at Gerard and began to study his face. His emotions were very easy to tell if you have seen them all. I've seen most so I think I'm intitaled to place a name to the expression. I've mostly seen concerned, confused, sad, and angry. So basically I've seen them all.

"We should go in. Mikey's probably telling them that were giving each other blowjobs in here." Gerard said unclasping our hands and taking the key out of the ignition. My body tensed under his words and my stomach did a huge flip but, it felt good. Not sick but something else. "Not just yet pretty boy." Gerard teased, opening his door. I followed shortly after, one of my knees buckling under the shaking muscles.

"You okay Frankie?" He asked looking at me with concern. I blushed and stretched my knee hoping that they would stop shaking soon.

"Yeah just, been in the car too long." I said shutting the door behind me.

"Alright." Gerard said shooting me one last concerned look before opening his front door. He held it open and I stepped in their front hallway, waiting for Gerard to get into the house so he could lead me to wherever they are going. I would say the dining room but considering I don't know where that is, I'd rather him lead the way.

"Finally. What were you guys doing out there?" Gerards mom asked from the kitchen.

"Just trying to find something." Gerard said sneaking a peek of me from beyond his pitch black hair.

"Mikey's already set up the table. Go sit down and we'll bring it out." Gerard mom said, searching for something in the fridge. By 'we' I think she meant her and Gerards dad, who I haven't met yet. My forearm came into my head. I could just hold Gerards hand in front of his mother so I settled on picking and scratching at my jeans instead. Occasionally when we were at a family gathering I would go for.ny leg instead of my forearm so I wouldn't make my parents look weird. I have.

" Frankie," Gerard said in a disapproving tone. "Do I just have to tape your hands together?" He asked picking up my wandering hand. The pain was new on my leg since I hasn't scratched or picked there in a long time but, I liked it.

"I-I'm sorry." I said letting him pick up my hand and fold it into his.

"You can hold my hand whenever you want or need. You don't even have to ask. Just grab it and I'll understand." Gerard said patting the top of my hand. The problem with this was that it wasn't working. I still had the strong desire to scratch and pick and cause myself the delicious pain that I needed.

"Okay." I said nodding my head along with my words. I wasn't going to tell him that it wasn't working because I really did like holding his hand and I really didn't want to piss.him off. If I haven't already. Gerard drug me to the dining room and I was surprised to see that most of the contents in it were white. There weren't any personal books or pictures hung up. The room was completely white except for the dark oak tables and chairs. And the usual dark floors were.covered.by a white carpet. I didn't understand it but I didn't want to question either in case I said the wrong thing and became the dinner tonight.

"And dinner is served." Gerards mother said going through the big archway that lead to the dining room.

"Looks great mom!" Mikey said looking at the big pot of pasta. The sauce was a dark red and I was a little so to eat it. What if it was blood? Gerard somehow sensed my tention and leaned over.

"It's mom special recipe but spoiler alert, there's no blood in it." Gerards warm breath ghosted over my ear making a shivering run down my spine. Gerard grabbed my plate and placed a big spoonful of the pasta onto my plate.

"Thank you for letting me stay." I said quietly. Mrs. Way looked at me and smiled.

"You are welcome anytime you like, Frank. If I'm completely honest Gerard hasn't been this happy in a long time." Mrs. Way said twirling some pasta on her fork.

"Well, what do we have here? Finally found yourself a fertile Gerard?" A man said walking through the archway. He eyed me up and down before turning to Mrs. Way to kiss her. It was a light peck but my heart warmed at the sight and I smiled. My parents never did that. At least they didn't when I was around.

"Darling, this is Frank. Frank, this is my husband Don." Mrs. Way said giving a light introduction. I unclasped my hand from Gerard under the table and held out a shaky hand.

"Nice to meet you, Sir." I said smiling as he took my hand in a firm grip.

"I like this one, Gerard. Hell make great offspring." Mr. Way said letting go of my hand to start eating. I slipped mine back under the table and clasped Gerards hand tightly.

"Darling, Frank is a human. He's Gerards friend." Mrs. Way said chuckling.

"Oh, sorry Frank. My mistake." Mr. Way said laughing. He was a very calm and casual person as was Mrs. Way. My parents were never like this and it made me nervous. I unclasped my hand from Gerards and began to take small nibbles of my pasta. My left hand flew down into my pocket where I had scratched a hole in the past.

"It's alright, Sir." I said after I finished swallowing my small bite. I began to pick lightly at my skin, my heart fluttering at the pain it sparked on my thigh. You never really notice how much it how less you eat until you are at someone else's house. I took about five bites and I felt my stomach feel full. I usually only drank coffee and had small snacks for dinner or lunch I didn't eat at all. No, I do not feel too fat or too skinny I'm just not that hungry anymore.

Thee Way finished their dinner in a plentiful conversation, asking me a few questions along the way. Gerard excused him and me after he was finished eating. He said we're were going to work on our project but I knew he had something else on his mind. It was probably about my eating.

"What the hell was that?" He asked after he shut the door. He wasn't mad, just concerned and sad or something like that.

"What was what?" I asked playing dumb.

"Frankie I'm going to ask you and I'm going to ask you one more time. Are you okay?" He was demanding in his questions but I couldn't blame him.

"Yes. I'm okay."

"Liar."

Notes

Hey y'all first update with the phone so if you see any mistakes please ignore them. It was hell to finally get this up here so I hope you like it. Love you guys, BYEEE!!!