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Cemetery Drive

Heartbeat

I’ve noticed how you’ve been changing. Since that day y-you seem more….happy? I am not one too aware of the feeling, but I’ve felt it enough and seen it enough on your face. Every time I cuddle against you I can hear a pounding. I am not sure if it’s mine or yours, but I do hear a small rhythmic beat coming from you every now and then. Your heart. It’s alive. I am sure.

“What do you want to do today Gerard?” Frank questioned, as he kept me cuddled close in bed.

I hummed and dug my head more into his chest.

“I want to stay here and cuddle with you.”

He gently kissed the top of my head before responding.

“I like that idea. Maybe I smother you in kisses as well.”

I wasn’t declining that offer. I lifted my head up and sealed my lips to his. I always smile against him every time our lips connect. It gives me such a rush. Not that way. It makes me feel human. I never had sweet passionate kisses like this with Bert. When Frank kisses me he doesn’t do it out of lust. He does it because he cares and likes me. Fuck I sounded like a teenage girl, but its true.

Frank pulled away and pecked my nose before getting out of bed. I sat up, disappointed from losing contact and confused to why he got up. Frank turned around and furrowed his brow. He gave me a smile, before grabbing one of his shirts, quickly slipping it on.

“Don’t be sad Gerard. I am just going to the bathroom before making us breakfast.”

“I was told I would be smothered in kisses!” I whined ignoring what he said.

Frank chuckled, walking over to me to peck my lips.

“How about the chocolate?” He laughed.

“Hmm I prefer your soft lips, but I think I love food more than you.”

Frank dramatically gasped, causing me to laugh at him.

“I love you Frankie.”

Frank blushed and kissed the side of my cheek before he left the room.

I fell back into the bed, sighing with a huge smile on my face. I haven’t seen him blush since our date. I would like to see him blush more. He looks way to fucking cute when he blushes. I get up and walk out the room and headed straight to the kitchen. I am not well known with where Frank has his things, but I am guessing he would have coffee packets by the coffee machine- and I am correct. I grab a packet and inserted one into his coffee maker.

I looked around for a mug, before I placed it under the coffee nozzle and started the machine. I was panicked when I felt arms snack around me. I knew it was Frank since he is shorter than me. I leaned against his touch smiling kind of thinking that he copied this move from me.

“You’re very affectionate today.” I said turning my head slightly to meet his eyes that barely come off my shoulder.

“Is that a problem?”

“No. I actually like it.”

He kissed my jaw, backing away to take the coffee I had just prepared.

“Hey that was mine!” I said.

“We can share?”

“Alright.”


After Frank and I ate our breakfast we went to relax on the couch to watch a movie. I let Frank pick the movie, since I didn’t want to pick the movie. I wasn’t paying attention to the movie. I was paying attention to the beat I felt on my back while Frank was cuddling me. Every time I glanced back at Frank, he was staring at me with a smile, before he blushed looking back up to the tv. Every time he did that I felt the beat. I was sure it was his heart. After the movie was finished, Frank buried his head into my neck.

“What are you thinking of Frankie?” I giggled due to his hair tickling my neck.

I quickly figured what he was doing when he began to kiss my neck. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. Frank stopped kissing my neck and flipped me over so I was on my back. Frank gently cupped my face and sealed his lips to mine. We slowly started to make out, parting to catch our breath every now and then. The kiss was extremely amazing that I was surprised my hands went on his hip and the other on his chest. I smiled into the kiss after feeling his heartbeat against my hand.

Frank pulled away with a huge grin as he gently rested his forehead against mine. We deeply stared at each other catching our breath with grins on our faces. Frank laid back, grabbing my hands, intertwining them with his. I giggled, pecking Frank’s lips.

“Gerard…” Frank whispered.

“Yes Frankie?” I replied with a smile.

“You make me feel alive Gerard.” He said closing his eyes with a smile.

“You make me feel alive too Frankie.”

Frank let go of my hands and pulled me into a tight hug. I laughed and wrapped my arms around him too. I felt Frank kiss the top of my head, hearing him sigh lightly. I was afraid of that sigh because I felt Frank’s beautiful lips smile against my head. I grinned bigger than I already was and buried my face into his chest and fell asleep.

I kiss Gerard’s sleeping head and quietly and quietly got up from the couch where Gerard and I passed out earlier today from our amazing make out session. As I quietly slipped away from Gerard it popped in my head that I don’t want him to sleep alone, because it saddens me, but I am a bit hungry and thirsty. I pecked Gerard’s forehead, putting bits of his hair behind his ear before I made my way to the kitchen, going to the jar full of snacks. I pull out a granola bar and just right before I opened it a bright white light filled the room. I was stunned for a second thinking what had just happened before it hit me. Lindsey is the only one I know how makes an entrance like that. I only hope for what’s about to happen next is that Gerard doesn’t wake up. I don’t want to see his reaction on seeing Lindsey let alone her bright ass light.

“Do you feel a beat?” Lindsey says calmly.

I jolt turning to face her, my body still reacting differently than my mind.

“Jesus Lindsey. You got to stop appearing with no warning.”

“Nope. I like it this way.” She replied with sass.

I sigh and opened my snack.

“Do you feel a beat?” She repeats.

“What do you mean?” I questioned.

She dramatically sighs and walks over to me, stealing my snack.

“Hey!” I quietly yell not wanting to wake up my beautiful Gerard.

“I am not repeating myself Frank.”

What does she mean? Feel a beat? What?

“Your heart you idiot.” She hisses.

My heart?

“I’ve felt slight movements in my chest if that’s what you mean?” I said unsure.

“Frank, that’s your heart. It’s awakening.” She smiled.

My heart is awakening? I thought it was dead, but it’s sleeping? How can that be?

“Think of the time you’re with Gerard.”

I felt something in my chest at the mention of his name. Can it be my heart?

“Think of the date you had with Gerard. Remember your heart was racing?”

Once I got there, I went through the rusted gate and headed to the mausoleum. My heart raced faster than I knew it could. I didn’t think I was capable for that. I have to calm down, before opening the doors to the mausoleum. I don’t want Gerard to see me shaking. Me being nervous was surprising to me. I’ve never been nervous before. I also didn’t feel anything towards anyone till I met Gerard. That is after I died. I took a big deep breath and opened the doors, coming across a very clean Gerard. He turned around and smiled at me.

“You’ve also felt feelings with him and you just didn’t notice.” She said smirking.

I can’t shake the feeling of feeling my heart break when he talked about how bad his life sucks. I can’t deny that I am getting feelings for him, but I am still madly in love with Jamia even though I will never be with her. I was pulled out of my thoughts when I realized I was walking over to Gerard, kissing his forehead and pulling hair out of his face.

I let my eyes slip closed at the soft rhythmic beating of his heart against my long dead and cold one. His rhythmic heartbeat sent wonderful chills down my spine. If being in a shitty relationship and roaming the Earth for over a century was the price I had to pay for Gerard, then I would gladly do it again. I pushed the hair out of his face, trying to make him more comfortable as he sleepily buried his head in the crook of my neck, and for the first time in a millennium, I was content.

“Gerard, he let you go. He doesn’t want to be with you anymore, so he threw you out in the worst way possible. You’re free now Gerard. You can officially be mine.”

“H-He dumped m-me?” Gerard asked with a smile on his face.

I nodded, grinning so big.

“I have never been so happy to be dumped!” He cheered.

“So, does that mean I am your boyfriend, Frankie?”

“Fuck yeah it does!” I said hugging him tight.

Gerard is mine now. I am so h-happy?

“There are more than just those times Gerard made you human. I should know, since I watch over you guys.”

I ignored what she was saying and clutched my chest. I never knew I was feeling something When I was with him. I knew I had a bigger attachment to him than I did to Zacky and Jamia, but I didn’t know this. I have been so blind to my feelings.

“I love you Frank and you’re the only I have in my life that is capable on loving me.”

Thinking through my time with Gerard makes me feel struck. How could I be so blind to realize how big my attachment to him is? I have told him I liked him in the past and I have also told him I have liked him more than Zacky and Jamia. It saddens me that I am just realizing how big my attachment towards him is. I-It’s so big t-that m-m-my heart beats….

I looked up from my thoughts and saw Lindsey smiling at me as she gave me my granola bar back. I gently and awkwardly smiled at her, grabbing my snack. I sighed and sat my granola bar down on the counter as I leaned against it smiling. Gerard, you are the best. I grinned wider, more than I already was when I was thinking of him.

“Thank you, Lindsey.” I whispered.

“I couldn’t stand you being broken, anyone at a matter of fact.” She said looking down.

I stood up and looked at her a bit worried. I know she hates seeing friends in pain, but did she mean Gerard in the next part?

“Do you mean Gerard?” I questioned.

She nodded her head and sniffed. I began to walk to her, but stopped in my tracks as she held her hand out for me to stop moving towards her. She looked up and sniffed before she began to talk.

“I don’t just mean Gerard, Frank. I-I also meant.” She said.

I backed away a bit to give her space and waited for her to begin to talk again.

“Frank do you want to know the story to why Zacky specifically went after me?” She said.

I never really knew there was a story to why he went after her. All I knew was that he went after to teach Jamia a lesson to stop her from being near me. I patiently responded to Lindsey nodded ‘no’ slowly. Lindsey then nodded and began to tell her story.

“My parents were spellbinders, Frank. They put a spell on me to give me powers just like them. That’s why I glow. Only people who have witnessed death can see my glow though, unfortunately I was too powerful and a challenge for Zacky. Zacky would have never came after me if he never knew about my powers. He found out about me after he witnessed death.”

My eyes widened by the words that left Lindsey’s mouth. I thought she was just a normal girl whose life got ended by Zacky to teach Jamia a lesson. Thinking about it; Lindsey being in charge of the afterlife make sense now. Also, who could’ve Zacky seen die that he was able to see Lindsey’s glow? It couldn’t have been, because of me. I certainly died after Lindsey if I remember correctly. I actually remember going to her funeral. There was someone missing at her funeral, I-I just can’t remember who.

“Lindsey? How was Zacky able to see you. Who did he see…um.” I said questioning if I should say the next part. Lindsey was already to beginning to tear up when she began to talk.

“Remember Pete?” She sniffed.

“Yeah?” I said sadly. “D-Did h-h-he?” I said beginning to panic.

She nods, looking down. I felt my throat tighten along with my fists.

“H-He killed Pete.”

I held my anger in, trying not to wake up Gerard. If I released my anger it wouldn’t be good.

“Why.” I spat coldly. After spitting that I realized who wasn’t at her funeral.

“Pete and Zacky never got along, because I rejected Zacky. I was in love with Pete.”

“I didn’t know Pete was your boyfriend.” I said sadly.

“Fiancée.” She corrected me.

“It was kept a secret, because Zacky was still madly in love with me when he was with you. When he started to get violent with you it wasn’t because he knew Jamia liked you. He started to hurt you cause, he wanted me, but I kept saying no only leading him to hurt you. He soon killed Pete when he found out we were engaged. He never meant to kill Pete, but Pete got in the way trying to save me when Zacky tried to kill me. Zacky got annoyed and shortly after killing Pete he killed me. After Zacky realized what he did to Pete and I he was running back to love you, because he felt so bad after hurting us. Zacky stopped hurting you, because he felt bad and when he found out you were cheating on him he started to hurt you again. After Jamia heard the news of my death she assumed it was because she needed to stay away you and Zacky made sure that was the reason to Pete’s and I’s death. He didn’t want another situation like Pete and I so he killed you, but spared Jamia. Zacky just wanted to love someone and we sadly couldn’t give him that.” She said.

“I can’t fucking believe this.” I said shaking as I was crying.

“Zacky took us from our loves, because we didn’t love him. I haven’t seen Pete since the night he was killed.” She cried.

I ran towards her crying on her as she did the same on me.

“I’m sorry.” I whispered.

“It’s not your f-fault Frank. It’s no ones. W-We just m-m-made a mistake with Z-Zacky.”

I nodded, sniffing as I pulled away from the hug.

“I got to go now Frank. Take care.” She sniffed.

“Bye Lindsey. Hope you meet Pete again.” I said giving her a small smile.

She kindly returned the smile before she started to glow bright, vanishing in a few seconds.
I sniffed, walking out of the kitchen, just wanting to sleep with Gerard to stop me from crying. My mind is still running knowing the true reason to why Zacky did these things. My thoughts were clear when I got to the living room to see Gerard, waking up. I kind heartedly smiled at him, before I sat down by his feet, setting a hand on his knee.

“Hey, Gerard.” I said quietly.

He smiled, yawning before answering.

“Hi Frankie.” He lazily smiled. “We’re you talking to someone?” Gerard asked.

“Nobody Gerard. I was just upset I dropped my granola bar. I was too upset on dropping it, that I left it on the counter.” I chuckled.

He giggled, sitting up.

“Let’s get to bed Gerard.” I said.

He nodded and extended his arms out for me to carry him. I pecked his lips and picked him up, bridal style. He giggled and wrapped his arms around my neck as he rested his head on the crook of my neck. I just smiled and carried him to the bed, gently placing him down. I knelt to take his shoes off along with mine. I then took my shirt off, before joining Gerard under the covers, he excitedly crawled under. I cuddled Gerard close to my chest, kissing the top of his head as he drifted to sleep. I soon fell asleep myself, needing to rest from all of the things Lindsey said, but before I was able too I was stuck. My mind wanted to hate Zacky, but I wouldn’t dare hate him. Oh I think I’d hate you if it were worth my time, but I won’t waste a single second of mine. I already wasted a long time being with you, I am not going to lose more of my time thinking of how much I hate you. Sadly thinking of the things Zacky put me through makes me think it was worth it, because I have Gerard. I can’t vouch for Lindsey though. I know it’s sad to be okay with what Zacky did to me, but I am happy now. Sure, I was happy with Jamia, but I am happier than I ever was because Gerard and I have nothing toxic in our lives now and I am in a healthy relationship with someone I really like….

I hummed to my thoughts, drifting to sleep.

"As lead rains on your bullets, can lead to your gun being loaded. Unload your gun, what's next can't be undone.”

Notes

I think waiting 20 days for this chapter was worth in my opnion :) See you guys soon
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Comments

@My-FluffFrerard
I'm glad you've taken a liking to my stories and good you know my struggle with marching band. I hope to update soon. Bye! :D

I love this story so much as well as the others. I'm also in marching band and volleyball at the same time too, so I understand! Can't wait to see more! :D

@Three.cheers.for.sweet.frerard
Hey it's fine don't worry, I'm sorry for reading and then forgetting to comment, fabulous chapter by the way. I'm so happy that Bert has gone, but just worried that he might come back. And I feel really sorry for Frank because he can barely feel emotions still. Great update though. :)

@The pink flamingos return
Sorry for responding late DX Either way it would've still had the big tension but not as big cause in the next chapter what I originally had planned was just a straight "oh shit he's alive" I do prefer the way I ended up writing it anyways. Anygay I'm glad you're looking forward for next updates. See ya soon :P

@Three.cheers.for.sweet.frerard
Oh, the alternative did sound good but I prefer the ending you wrote because of all the masses of tension that it built up before going: oh, wait. He's still alive.
I will definitely stick around and looking forward to the next chapter. :)