The Blind Leading The Blind

I went over to Mikey’s the next day, to do a little revision before our first final on Monday. He sat down with me and I giggled.
“What?”
“I know something you don't,” I grinned, teasing him. He rolled his eyes.
“I'll bite. What is it?”
I smiled happily, leaning back in my chair. “Mm, well. I found out what you and Gerard have been hiding from me. We talked about it for a while.”
“What?! Really?” Mikey asked, leaning forwards. “He didn't tell me.”
I shrugged, biting my lip softly. “We made it official. So he's my boyfriend now, I guess.”
“So..”
I giggled softly. “I think his favorite thing I said was; I like dicks, but I like you more.”
Mikey chuckled, bumping my shoulder with his. “That's kinda gross and really cute at the same time, I'm really pleased for you both. Are you planning on...y’know..?”
I shrugged and felt the blush creep up my neck. “Not yet. And I doubt you'd want me to tell you anyway.”
Mikey laughed and squeezed my shoulder. “I really wouldn't, thanks. But I'm really glad it's going well, for both of you. You both deserve good people.”
I smiled and nodded slightly. “I've just got to not fuck it up now.”
Mikey hesitated. “You didn't fuck anything up with Chris, Frank. That was him, not you. Don't worry about that with Gerard. Just take it easy with him and let things happen naturally and you'll be fine.”
I nodded, rubbing my eyes. “Okay. We need to get to work now. No more gossip.”
Mikey paused for a few seconds. “Frank?”
I looked at him, something in his tone worrying me. “What?”
He sighed. “You don't look happy.”
I blinked, shrugging. “I'm okay.”
“But you're not happy, are you?”
“Mikey, I have finals tomorrow, my mom just lost custody of me and I moved out of my home, which, by the way, is a little more jarring to me than you because I can't find my way around anywhere else. My hands are still sore from when I was stupid, and now you're interrogating me about why I'm not happy.” I said it all calmly, but firmly. “Mikey, you're my best friend and I love you, but I'm trying to stay afloat in a sea of shit, and pointing out that I'm not doing a good job doesn't really help much.”
Mikey pulled me into a hug, rubbing my back slowly. “I'm sorry, Frankie, I didn't think about what I said..”
I hugged back, shaking my head slightly. “It's okay. I've just gotta get through this week and then I can have a nice big breakdown.”
Mikey chuckled and let go of me carefully. “Sounds about right. You should talk to Gerard more when you're feeling down. He's good with that stuff, better than I am, and it's his job now.”
I giggled and nodded. “Okay. I'll remember that. But now we really need to revise, c’mon..”

We managed to get a couple hours of revision done before Gerard walked in, rubbing my shoulder as he leaned over the table. I could tell when it was him coming now, as he had slightly irregular footsteps I'd learned to recognize even only after a couple days. He kissed my cheek softly. “You guys want something to eat? Mum left for that class thing, so I can order something.”
Mikey was still pretending to throw up, so I smiled up at Gerard. “Actually pizza sounds really good, to be my usual boring self.”
Gerard stroked my hair slowly. “Okay, you happy with that, Mikey?”
“I want my grumpy brother back who's never here,” Mikey growled jokingly.
Gerard sighed dramatically. “I guess it's just us two for pizza, then. So what do you want, Frank?”
“Extra veggies,” I giggled.
“Gross!” Mikey laughed, shoving my shoulder gently. “Cheese.”
“I thought you didn't want any,” Gerard said sweetly.
Mikey scoffed and I rolled my eyes. “Just go order it already, I'm hungry.”
“Alright, jeez,” Gerard chuckled, walking out of the room. “I'm going.”
Mikey laughed as soon as the door shut behind Gerard. “That's cute. He can't take his eyes off you.”
I ducked my head, blushing. “Mikey, I thought you hated this.”
“I do, kinda. But I'm happy for you, it's the first time I've seen you smile properly all day, and it was when he was walking towards you.”
I shrugged and ran a hand through my hair, even more embarrassed now. “His steps...I can tell..” I mumbled, feeling Mikey's hand on my shoulder.
“I'm not trying to embarrass you, Frank. How about we go watch something for a while? The pizza won't be here just yet and we've done plenty of revision..”
I nodded, getting up and starting to pack away my books. Mikey helped me, separating my books from his. “Do you want me to pack your bag for you?”
I smiled, nodding slightly. “That would be great, actually. If you wouldn’t mind.”
Mikey gently pushed my shoulder. “Go hang out with Gerard for a few minutes, get all the lovey shit out of the way.”
I chuckled and rolled my eyes. “Yes sir,” I mumbled, walking out of the room quickly. I was walking past the couch when Gerard grabbed my wrist, tugging on it gently.
“I’m over here.” I giggled, pulling away carefully.
“What if I wasn’t looking for you?” I grinned, walking around and sitting down next to him. The tv was playing, but quietly. Gerard wrapped an arm around me, kissing the side of my head.
“Then I’d be disappointed.”
My smile faded slightly as I leaned my head on his shoulder. “You don’t have to be, then.”
“Good.” Gerard tilted my chin up, kissing me briefly. “I don’t like being disappointed.”
I curled up against his side, letting my eyes close.
Gerard ran his fingers through my hair. “You don’t seem happy, Frank. What’s going on? Is everything okay?”
I sighed, gently grabbing his hand and lacing our fingers together. “Can we talk later? I’m okay, I’m just not really...feeling it today.”
“Yeah, of course. You’ve had a lot going on lately, it’s understandable that you’re not feeling great.”
I frowned, squeezing his hand lightly. “You know it’s not about you, right? You make me really happy, I just-”
“You have a lot to deal with, Frankie, and having a shiny new boyfriend won’t change that, I know. When we get home tonight, I’ll run that bath, how does that sound?”
I smiled, lifting his hand and kissing his fingers softly. “That sounds perfect, Gee.”
He pulled me closer gently, and I climbed into his lap, kissing his cheeks softly.
“You're so cute,” Gerard smiled, rubbing my side gently. “Come on...come curl up.”
I nodded, leaning my side against his chest, pulling a blanket around me as Gerard hugged me tightly. “You wanna watch something?”
I yawned, nuzzling up to him. “You put something on that you like, I’m happy.”
I heard footsteps and lifted my head slightly. “Hey Mikey.”
“Hey, are we gonna watch another Hammer movie?”
I smiled as he sat down on the other sofa. “I don't mind, I'll probably fall asleep anyway.”
Gerard rubbed my side slowly, holding me tightly. “Maybe you should stay awake until the food comes..”
“Maybe not,” I chuckled, nuzzling his jaw. “I'm exhausted, and I'm not that hungry.”
“Frank, I think you should head home with Gerard after we eat, you could do with some sleep,”
Mikey said quietly. “We’ve gotta be up early and everything..”
Gerard kissed the top of my head, brushing his knuckles over my cheek. “I think he's right, hon.”
I sighed and nodded slightly. “Alright, if you guys say so. I know well enough to listen to you.”

Gerard wrapped his arms around me, kissing my cheek. “Come get in.”
I blushed, biting my lip softly. “But...my towel.”
Gerard laughed, rubbing my back slowly. “Yes, you have to take it off.”
“Is the water bubbly?”
“Yes,” he murmured, stroking my hair back from my face. “Do you want me to look away when you get in?”
I nodded slightly, blushing even deeper.
“Okay. I'm turning now, alright?” He let go of me, and I quickly dropped my towel, climbing into the bath and sinking under the water. “Okay,” I said quietly, embarrassed. Gerard gently scooted me forward in the tub. “I'm gonna sit behind you, you stay there a second.”
He got in carefully, sitting behind me with his legs outside of mine, so I was surrounded by him. He kissed the back of my neck. “You'll have to turn the tap off in a minute, okay?”
I nodded, letting myself lean back against his warm, bare chest. “The bath doesn't smell of much.”
Gerard ran his hands over me, one hand on my chest, the other sliding over my stomach. “Mhm. I thought I'd let you pick what to put in it.”
“Vanilla and lavender.”
He chuckled softly, taking his hands off me to uncap a couple bottles. “Those are my favorites.”
I smiled to myself, listening to him swirl the water as the scents bloomed around us. “I know. That's why I picked them. Because it smells like you now.”
He purred softly and kissed my neck, his teeth grazing my skin. I arched my back, leaning my head away from his, exposing my neck further. “Hmm,” he murmured, his hands running over my hips and down to the insides of my thighs. “You like that, huh?”
I shivered, breathing heavily as I tensed, his hands slowly moving up the insides of my legs.
“Are you scared?” Gerard asked suddenly, sounding worried as he stopped.
I shook my head quickly. “I've never been in..” I sighed quietly and sat up slightly, gently pushing his hands away. “I've only ever really been in one semi-serious relationship and the first time we had sex, he told me I was terrible in bed and dumped me...so.”
Gerard ran a finger down my spine slowly. “Frankie, I would never dump you over something so stupid,” he mumbled, almost hurt.
“I know. I know. But it's just...I think about these things sometimes.”
Gerard kissed the side of my neck again, this time lovingly rather than sexually. “That's okay. If you'd rather not..”
“No!” I said quickly, then blushed even darker. “Shit. Look, it's been a while since the last time I was with someone..”
Gerard hugged me tightly, pulling me closer to him, until my whole body was pressed against his. “We can do anything you'd like to.”
I bit my lip harshly. “Aren't we moving too fast, I mean..”
“Fuck that,” Gerard chuckled, turning my head to the side so he could kiss me. “I've been waiting my whole life to meet someone like you, and I don't want to wait much longer.”
I smiled, blinking away the emotion building up. “I can't wait either.”
He nuzzled my jaw, rubbing my hips slowly. “Okay. Just relax, breathe in those nice smells. Don't think about anything except me. Do you like to bottom?”
I nodded, leaning my head against his shoulder. “Sometimes. I do either, though.”
Gerard's hands ran back down to my thighs, slowly drawing nearer to me. “Okay.” He leaned down, kissing and nibbling at my neck until I gasped, arching my back. One of his hands moved around quickly, sliding underneath my ass. “That's it. You're doing so well, baby,” he purred, planting soft kisses along my jaw as he wrapped his hand around me, starting to pump quickly. I rolled my head back, moaning pathetically.
“Oh you’re so beautiful..” Gerard murmured, plunging a finger into me. I cried out, jerking my body forward and letting out a couple dry sobs.
“That's it..” Gerard soothed, bringing me back to his chest as he started to fuck me with his fingers, his other hand working expertly over me, getting me to start a steady rhythm, thrusting into his fist.
“Mhm. You're so good at this, baby,” He praised softly as the pain settled back into pure pleasure. He twisted his finger, stretching deeper into me and causing me to cry out again, this time in intense pleasure. I was dripping sweat now, shaking as I tried to bounce on his finger and thrust into his hand at the same time, desperate for the pleasure.
I felt it start to build up, shuddering as I came and then falling back against Gerard, panting heavily and letting my eyes close up as blissful nothingness took hold for a few seconds. Gerard was pressing kisses to my neck and shoulders, smiling as he did so. “Was that good?”
I giggled shakily, nodding quickly. “Unimaginably so.”

Gerard carried me to bed wrapped in a towel, gently laying me on the bed. “I'm gonna go sort my hair out, I'll be two feet away,” he murmured, kissing my hair. I laid still for a while, letting myself relax and reflect on our eventful bath. We’d cuddled for ages after my orgasm, but hadn't talked much.
“Gee?”
He hummed softly. “Yeah?”
“Do you feel left out?”
He hesitated briefly. “You mean do I expect something from you now? No, I don't, sweetie. You don't have to worry about that.”
“What if I want to?”
Gerard laughed, and I could hear him running a brush through his hair. “Now, that would be an offer that would be hard to refuse. But you're exhausted, Frankie.”
“Not that exhausted.”
He chuckled and walked back to me, kissing my forehead. “I think we should go to bed now, baby.”
I pouted, pulling him into a proper kiss. Gerard broke away first, rubbing my chest through the towel. “Frankie, how about we just curl up and talk for a while? You could maybe touch me a little, ask some more questions...I'm not sure that you're...that what I have is what you might expect.”
I blinked, propping myself up on my elbows. “What do you mean?”
Gerard sighed and leaned over, kissing my cheek. “Why don't you take your towel off and we can have a nice talk all cuddled up?”
I nodded, slipping the towel off and tossing it aside before sitting up against the headboard. I almost pulled the blanket over my lap, then blushed and decided against it. There was no reason to be shy anymore. Gerard sat down next to me, wrapping an arm around my waist.
“I mean that being on testosterone kind of changes things a little down there. Have you...been with a woman?”
I nodded, leaning into him and putting a hand on his stomach comfortably. “Yeah, when I was younger.”
Gerard smiled slightly, but I could tell this conversation wasn't easy for him. “You can...you can touch, baby.”
I blushed, hesitating. “I feel like I'm invading your privacy.”
“No more than I invaded yours,” Gerard chuckled, nuzzling my cheek as he took my wrist, slowly guiding my hand down between his legs. I blinked, running my fingers over him, trying to be soft and gentle. His breath hitched and I rubbed the same spot again, causing a soft moan to escape his lips. I smiled slightly, a little shy. “I wanna...I wanna make you feel good, Gee. Please?” I felt like I was begging now, my fingers in between his legs.
“What's mine is yours,” he answered quietly. I quickly got up on my hands and knees, leaning over him as I kissed a line down his stomach, pressing an especially soft kiss in between his hipbones. “Frankie, I-”
I shushed him gently and he tangled his fingers in my hair. I noticed him trembling slightly and I moved a little lower, lapping at him tentatively. Gerard's hips jerked and he let out a soft whine, tugging on my hair gently. I grinned and took him into my mouth, licking and sucking slowly. His moans, increasing in volume by the second, boosted my confidence and I slipped a finger into him, purring as I started to move it in and out. Gerard groaned and I added a finger, grinning around him as he started to roll his hips, shaking all over. He grunted something and I felt him jerk before arching his back and twitching, then falling back with a loud sigh. I sat up, wiping my mouth on the back of my hand. “Was that okay?”
Gerard groaned quietly, giggling softly. “That was one of the most amazing things I've ever felt, Frankie. You must have fucked a trans guy before, I swear.”
I giggled, pleased with myself. “No, just you.”
He pulled me into a gentle kiss, his thumbs stroking over my cheeks lovingly.
I pulled away after about a minute, smiling at him shyly. “I'm so tired...and I could do with some water.”
Gerard made a clucking noise with his tongue, stroking my hair slowly. “Aw, baby. I'll go run to the bathroom and then I'll go get you a drink, okay? You settle in, I'll be right back.”
I nodded, climbing in under the covers and curling up. My hands were still shaking. I'd made Gerard tremble and whimper and groan, and he'd loved it. I felt powerful and happy, but also a surge of something I could only describe as love. All I wanted to do was curl up with him and breathe together, and sleep together. I felt him slip in beside me. “Sit up a little, baby,” he murmured, touching my back gently. I propped myself up and he helped me drink, wiping a drip off my chin before setting the glass aside. “You okay?”
I nodded, grabbing at him and tugging myself closer. “Gee..”
“Yeah, baby?” Gerard murmured, pulling me closer to him quickly. “What's wrong?”
I smiled, resting my forehead against his chest. “Nothing's wrong.”
He hesitated, then sighed. “Did you like it?” He asked at last, his voice uncertain and shaky.
“Of course I did,” I purred, lifting my head. “I almost made you scream.”
Gerard grinned, his breath flicking over my face. “You did. Did you have any questions?”
I shook my head slightly. “I know enough about, well...traditionally female anatomy to know what I was touching, and what was different.”
He kissed my cheek ever so softly. “You don't have to be so careful with your words, baby. I understand..”
“But I want to be. I don't want to hurt you,” I mumbled, wrapping my arms around his neck. “I just want to lay here forever.”
Gerard tugged me closer to him and I threw a leg over his hips, giggling softly. “Mine.”
He chuckled, running his hand down my back and over my ass before letting it rest on the outside of my thigh. “I'm yours. But you're mine.”
I nuzzled his chest, clinging to him tightly. “Don't let me go, Gee.”

Notes

So I hope the smut isn't too bad...
I'm uploading two today as a celebration because I actually finished this story last night! There are 21 chapters and I'm considering doing a sequel if there's enough interest in it :)